Astarion glanced back in surprise, making eye contact for the first time throughout the conversation.
"'Kill... Cazador'?" he gasped softly. "You will help me with that?"
He sat up slowly. He knew he had shared that killing Cazador was his plan, his goal... his dream. But did he really think that he would be able to take on a vampiric master all on his own? No. Did he really think that anyone would be there to help him? Even more, no... No one had been there to help him before.
Noticing everyone was staring at him, he fought to quickly come up with something. "Um-... I haven't really thought about it," he said quickly. That wasn't a lie... He was coming to terms with the possibility of his mind suddenly ceasing to be his own once again. "Probably going back to Baldur's gate and making the city my own again. I'm sure there are a few lonely people who will be missing me..."
Dancer here ! Common misconceptions is that old rich men are all super conservative š„“ the richest men I've ever met were all the way on the left & well rounded individuals. In fact, THE wealthiest man I've ever met, we'll call him S was very understanding and respectful. Sat us down, offered us food and anything we needed. Respected my wishes.
A girl made a snide remark about another woman who took the offer of $3k for "extras". He told her she was disrespectful, rude, and then never paid her again.
It's always funny because I can spot someone faking the dancer/SB/TW life from a mile away when they tell girls to do stupid shit like pretend to be conservative yk
Exactly. Theyāre going to at least try to be decent people, theyāre not going to be well rounded in all of the literature and praxis, but theyāre not full on nightmares. And thinking thatās all there is out there is a dangerous game to play. There are decent, fair, kind, and respectful men out there and you donāt have to pay with pieces of your soul just to marry wealthy.
I donāt think Iād be able to sleep at night if I told girls to sacrifice their mental and emotional well-being in order to marry into a certain tax bracket. Do you really want to be telling girls decency is the sacrifice you make to marry someone wealthy? And then someone try to convince them that a person with no decency is the best person for them to marry??
Your last paragraph is definitely where my head has been going, because Iām not sure why anyone would tell women to do something like this? If youāve been in this lifestyle, you know you meet men from all over the spectrum. Itās diverse. You teach girls how to be smarter, more discerning, not to take the bare minimum, and think of themselves above all else; not how to pretend to be conservative so they can marry well and then never be happy again. āŗļø
Well someone is awfully needy little one. I can never speak for my boy Makki, and he is on vacation right now, but you know Iāll fuck you any time. I have an idea. How about I set up the webcam on my computer? We can video call Makki and he can watch as I sit you up on my desk and spread your legs, fingering you for him to watch. After I prep you and make you cum on my fingers, Iāll bend you over and fuck you from behind while Makki watches, jerking himself off to the fucked out expression on your face. When Makki gets back into town, weāll take our time and fuck you together, sandwich you between us. Itāll be fucking amazing my little dancer.
Hi! Can I claim š anon? So, anyway, I love my crush. I legit do. Heās so funny, sarcastic, and an open book. Heās also pretty handsome in my opinion. Heās a bit immature, I admit that. And even though heās an open book he doesnāt talk about his emotions which bothers the fuck out of me. Because I would like to help him and I donāt know how if I donāt know why, ya know? Anyway, the thing is that causes me distress is that sometimes Iām cruel to him, in a way? I donāt mean on purpose! I just 1/?
Mean that I say something that I intend to be good natured ripping that turns into an insult like implying that heās more immature than a three year old or calling him a jerk. Thatās not an excuse but I donāt know how to handle my emotions and be kind to him without making it obvious that I love him? Especially since he already knows that I crushed on him before and I asked him out once in November ( he rejected me) not to mention we had a brief falling out in March due to problems and now 2/?
Weāre āfriendsā again. I used āā because Iām pretty sure he doesnāt trust me and I donāt trust him that much myself. Not to mention, I could tell heās interested in someone else, and despite being jealous, I hold it in and leave when i see them together. So, my point is, and I know this is silly, how can I treat him kindly? Or at least, how can I insult him in a good natured way without coming out as harsh or bitter. Because I think March is still affecting me. Thanks 3/3
I donāt think being kind to him will necessarily betray your feelings or anything - it just means youāre being considerate of his feelings. I also think itās worth talking to him about it, even if itās just briefly mentioning to him that you donāt mean any harm byĀ āpickingā on him - youāre just trying to kid around, but that doesnāt excuse it if it hurts him, so if you go too far, he can always feel free to let you know and you wonāt take any offence. Itās also important to be aware of what you say and how you say it - be aware of any lines you might have crossed before so you donāt cross them again, and watch for his reactions to things - if he clams up or something like that, then it probably means youāve pressed a button. Try to dial it back a little until you know better where those lines are, and make sure when youāre trying to engage in friendly banter, that your tone and body language convey that itās friendly, because that can prevent misunderstandings.
If heās not very open with his feelings, it might be the case that you need to take the lead in that and that might encourage him to open up a bit - if you share your own feelings and are open and honest with him, and maybe gently encourage him to do the same in return, that might help him feel more comfortable opening up, and that openness is something that might help your friendship recover from the argument you had. The other important thing in recovering from something like that is making it clear you listened to whatever criticisms he had during that fight, and youāve taken them onboard and are actively working towards fixing them.Ā
We were all sitting around the camp fire, relaxing after a long day of travel. When the question was asked what our plans are after all this, assuming we survive. All heads turn to me as it becomes my turn to answer.
"I want to go back to dancing, damn mindflayers took me when I was on my way to an audition."
Astarion remained quiet. He had been throughout the entire conversation. He had been laying across one of the log benches, trying his best to not engage with the conversation. What people planned to do when they were free from the mindflayers' influence. What a cruel joke. As soon as the tadpole stopped freeing him from the influence of his master... he would either march right back into Cazador's influence, or burn alive in the sun if it were lucky enough to be daytime.
"Shame," he sighed, feeling as though he could at least say something before people noticed his silence and began to question it. "I'm sure seeing you on stage would have been something to behold, darling."
Oh my little dancer, Iāll fuck you so hard. I want you on your back so I can see that pretty face when I ease my cock into you for the first time. Iāll fuck you until you canāt think. Youāll be my overstimulated, messy little dancer with those pretty legs shaking as I press them closer to your chest to sink even deeper into you. When I cum, itāll overflow, spilling out of you and down your ass. Donāt worry, Iāll either lick it up or swipe it up with my finger and shove it back inside you. Youāre such a good little girl for Daddy, I know youāll let me do whichever I want.Ā
Hi lily. Ive been a been hesitant to send this ask because I didn't want to come off as a push over or insistent (I know how hard writting is, especially something as good as yours)
But I keep regretting not to. So feel free to ignore this if you dont want to reply to it.
It should have been a bit over 2 months now that I had sent a somewhat (very) long fic idea for Childe (i wasn't sure if youd feel like going through it since he regrettably wasn't on your favs' list, which again, made me so hesitant to send even that detailed ask)
The thing is... my net was horrible when I was writting it. The "your text have 50% chance to be thrown in the backrooms and never reach the recipient out of spite and shortage of data" type of bad, . So I don't even know if that ask had reached you or not š„¹ (I spend an entire class writting it š¤¦āāļø)
Again, very sorry for bothering you with it. I just wanted to know if it ended up in your asks or not. And if so, whether writting for your non-favs is a thing you do or not.
Again, a moment of appreciation for your artworks, and have a nice day/night!
(P.s: is either šš„š„šš anon claimed? If not, I hope i could pick one)
Hi again! :) First of all: please donāt worry. You genuinely did not bother me with this ask. I actually understand why you asked, especially if your internet was acting like it had personal beef with you while sending the original request š And yes, your Childe ask did reach me. :)
And I remember being really impressed by how thoughtful and detailed it was. You clearly put a lot of care into both the ideas themselves and Childeās characterization, and I could tell immediately that you understand him very well. So please donāt feel embarrassed for sending it or for checking whether it arrived. :)
As for writing for non-favs in general: I actually have written for characters outside my favorites before, though usually in shorter forms. But with longer fic ideas like yours, it depends a lot on whether inspiration properly settles in and whether I feel I can do the character and concept justice.
And your request in particular definitely falls into the category of āthis deserves proper depth and attentionā.
Iām also aware itās been a while. My inbox tends to be very full in general and Iām unfortunately not very linear when it comes to answering asks or working through requests. I tend to bounce around depending on inspiration, mood, stress levels, emotional bandwidth, what my brain latches onto at 2am, etc. š
And lately Iāve also been trying to work through some pressure I put on myself regarding writing and expectations, so sometimes things take me longer than Iād like.
So I canāt make any concrete promises right now, but your ask absolutely wasnāt ignored or forgotten. :) And even if I ultimately donāt end up writing the fic itself, I would still like to at least properly reply to your original ask because I really did enjoy reading your thoughts and ideas. :)
And now for the emoji. š immediately gave me good vibes honestly. I canāt dance properly myself whatsoever, but I love dancing just for fun and as a concept and lately Iāve actually been thinking about it a lot for various reasons. Thereās something joyful and expressive about it that I really love. So if youād like it, dancer anon it is. :)
"You want to... stay with me?" he asked. Honestly, all this was very overwhelming. People really willing to help him with his Cazador problem? People wanting to stay with him afterward? Well, that wasn't new actually. But it felt different to before when he would make people crave his company, or sometimes they just wanted to because they wanted him right off the bat. More of an equal exchange. Like asking to stay with him was something vulnerable and gentle.
"I mean... If you want to. I thought that you wanted to follow your dreams and become a dancer." He paused, before sighing, feeling like he probably... should say something. "And I would... probably miss all of you too... I suppose. But don't mention it. I don't need everyone thinking I'm nice."
