#danisnontonfire

[buffythevampirefucker]

I feel like the Phan hard launch might be powerful enough to fully revive tumblr back to its former glory

[amethysthollis]

Dan has his thighs out for the lads.

Or like one particular lad.

Himself.

He doesn't want to get heat stroke.

[combeauferre]

beauty

maybe there’s something special about ferris wheels. 

read on ao3

It must be fate, Phil thinks as he stands beside Dan in the queue. How did they manage to find somewhere with a Ferris wheel for their tenth anniversary? The universe must really be on their side for this trip.

There’s something so soft about seeing Dan in another queue to another Ferris wheel, ten years later. Gone is the long, straight hair. Gone is the shy, lanky boy he met. Well, maybe not gone. Grown. He’s tall now, more confident, a little squishier. Phil adores this man. He never thought he’d find the one.

He remembers back when they first started talking, when he was surprised that this cute guy was even looking at him. He remembers the quiet, 2am calls he had with Anja about how cute he was, when he was sure everyone else was asleep in the house and he could talk about the cute boy he fancied without worrying about accidentally outing himself.

It was so stupid, the way they used to sneak around. Then, one morning, Kath poked her head round his bedroom door to find Phil scrolling through his phone while Dan slept on his shoulder, one of Phil’s hands in his hair absentmindedly carding his fingers through it. It was fucking terrifying when she’d whispered his name and then watched the catastrophe unfold. Phil had jumped nearly three feet into the air, thrown his phone and yelped so loudly Dan woke up and had a similar reaction.

Sitting in Phil’s room, sharing worried looks, whispering about whether they should leave the room and face the music, when Kath called them down for breakfast. She made them each a mug of coffee, and acted as if nothing was different, except that Dan was suddenly her son too. Phil remembers how grateful Dan was to Kath. How she’d drawn him into a hug before they left for the train station, whispered some words of comfort into his ear. Phil remembers how Dan had waited until they left the house before he threw his arms around Phil and burst into tears. He’d been so, so scared, and all it took was a few words of comfort from Kath for him to feel more accepted than he’d ever thought possible.

Getting into the carriage doesn’t give Phil the same deja vu as he expected. It’s not glass-encased like the Manchester Eye. It’s when the carriage starts moving that Phil is thrown back to 2009. Dan looking around him in wonder as they begin their ascent. He thinks about how the tables have finally turned, and leans across to wrap a hand round the back of Dan’s neck and pill him in for a surprise peck on the lips. Dan is grinning when he pulls away, laughing and rolling his eyes a little.

“It was my turn,” Phil shrugs.

There’s something about being in Japan that Phil just loves. And it’s not the culture. Or, it is. But it’s a different kind of love. No one knows them here, and if he wants to get closer to Dan on a Ferris wheel, he can do that. Hell, he can go crazy and wrap an arm round his waist if he really wants. And he does really want. So he does. The look Dan gives him is so worth it. His expression goes from confusion to shock to what Phil can only describe as smitten, and he melts. He feels lightheaded and he thinks they’re high enough now for him to blame it on the air pressure. Not that anyone’s asking. Maybe he just has to justify to himself how one look from the love of his life still makes him feel dizzy, ten years later.

They get to the top, and it’s breath-taking. Phil hears Dan huff a laugh next to him.

“It’s a bit prettier than Manchester, I think,” he says.

He’s right, but Phil can’t help thinking about how beautiful that city was to them. It was full of firsts. First kisses, first I love yous. He remembers the first I love you. Seeing Dan with a massive fluffy hat on his head, mittens making his hands cosy and a little clumsy. Red nose, red cheeks. He remembers Dan’s laugh, an offhand “I love you” before Dan realised what he’d said, and a hand shot over his mouth. Phil had been quick to replace that hand with his own lips. There had been so many more “I love you”s that night, whispered between kisses in the dark, on the platform before Dan left to go home. A million more times between then and now.

There’s beauty in that city, even if it’s not in the old buildings, or the view from their balcony. There’s beauty in Japan, too. A different kind of beauty.

The Ferris wheel jolts to a stop when they reach the top, and the carriage wobbles a little. Phil stiffens a little and Dan smiles softly.

“It’s okay,” he says, only half-teasingly, taking Phil’s free hand in his. “I’ve got you.”

Phil smiles brightly.

“I know,” he whispers. He always has.

Dan rolls his eyes then. He knows what sappy bullshit is going on inside Phil’s head, just like he always does. Phil leans in for a kiss anyway and Dan laughs and ghosts his fingers across Phil’s chin. Phil’s not always a sap, but he knows that Dan loves when that side of him comes out.

“You’re a fucking nerd," he tells Phil, but there’s fondness in his voice and Phil grins. Before they start moving again he whips out his phone and tells Dan to take a photo. He’s quick to press a kiss to Dan’s cheek and the photo they end up with captures that shocked, smitten look Phil had melted at before. He presses another kiss to Dan’s cheek, just for the moment, and the carriage begins moving again.

Their hands are linked when they get off the ride. There’s something odd about walking through the crowded area with their fingers intertwined, but it’s what Phil’s always wanted for them. Right now, they’re just another normal couple on a date at the fair. It’s simple, but it’s perfect.

[amazingphil]

New gaming vid! I go beyond 'all or nothing' as this could be 

THE FINAL GOOGLE FEUD ⚠️💥 

[philiie]

A month of Gamingmas bc I miss her (11/24)

[dnps-trashcan]

tbh i’m still in shock and can’t believe he uploaded that video

[aladygrieve]

not to be vintage but “why are you wearing your bandana over your eyes? this isn’t pin the tail on the fricking wardrobe” is to this day the funniest thing dan has ever said

[amazingphilssmile]

can....can we fr take a moment to talk about and appreciate dan's video about his depression?

Like w o w , I haven't seen many youtubers talk about their mental illness, and especially not in such a mature and..easy to understand way. Like in the beginning he said he wasn't gonna awkwardly laugh because there's nothing funny about it. We all know how Dan is, his Aesthetic™ is (was?) depression/existential crisis hahaha relatable amirght? But he's not playing it off anymore and he felt he could share it and that makes me happy. He seems so different as of late, happier, and more open, and just! Good for him ok

I also appreciate how he threw in humor, but not...about depression, in his usual self deprecating way. I thought the examples of being sad were hecka funny? "when a bird poops in something you're about to eat: Why? And how?! I'm inside!"