HELLO FRIEND! I saw your young aces post--I'm a young adult ace, so I figured you'd be okay with a question or two. I know I'm ace, no problems there, & also sex-repulsed. I grew up Christian, & remain Christian by my own choice. How do I know if I'm sex-repulsed because that's who I am, or because I was raised in that sort of teaching? How do I mentally manage testing that (if I choose to) in a same-sex romantic relationship (given Christianity's rocky relationship w gay sex/relationships)?
Oh gosh, see, this is the kind of question I don’t think there’s one true answer anyone else can give you, but I think the best way to go about this (as a fellow ace in a same-gender relationship who was raised and remains Christian! glad to know we’re out there) is asking yourself and God the hard questions regarding what you feel is and is not permissible.
In other words: do you feel guilt regarding sexual activity or judgement of other people when they choose to have sex? Those are signs that you might be operating under the sex-negative teachings you may have grown up around rather than just being sex-repulsed–although you still might be sex repulsed outside of that, but it’s the sort of framework you can and should work through before doing further examination of your own feelings. Sex-repulsion is a perfectly normal and okay way to be ace, but that has to do with you and the kind of behavior you find unenjoyable or unappealing for whatever reason. Sex itself, unrelated to you, does not carry inherent moral or spiritual weight one way or another (at least, that’s how I see it).
The experimenting part, if you choose to try it, is tricky because we as asexual people often have trouble with the common scripts for how sex works; a lot of the culture around sexual activity is based in attraction, and when that’s not what’s driving whatever we’re choosing to do, the whole thing becomes a little more complicated. As always, consent and comfort for both you and your partner are key.
The other day I was reading an article that I think has some solid advice (although it’s a few years old):
https://prismaticentanglements.com/2012/03/28/how-to-have-sex-with-an-asexual-person/
Fair warning: its intended audience is the non-ace partner of an ace person, but it provides a decent guideline for you and your partner to keep in mind.
As far as Christianity and same-gender relations goes, people way smarter than me have spent way longer than I’ve even been alive talking and thinking and writing about how God does not hate us for who or how we love. Same-gender sex is no more sinful than sex between straight cis people, and neither are we. I have a whole tag for queer people of faith that has affirmations if you feel like perusing that.