yandere!Doctor x reader
Summary: You lost your memory and you're so glad the Doctor found you. He can help you, and he's so fun to be around! It's just kind of weird you haven't regained any of your memories from before meeting him. Oh well, you're sure that's normal.
Warnings: yandere behavior. mind invasion/erasure/alteration against your will. you're disabled, but the disability isn't specified beyond the fact that you can't run and that a connection to the Tardis basically cures you as that is a specific fantasy of mine lol.
Notes: I wrote this with 11 in mind, but I don't think there's any details that make it super specific to him... it just definitely can't be 13 because I'm using he/him pronouns for the Doctor. No pronouns or gender mentioned for reader (unless I made a mistake, in which case please lmk!). Might play around more with this concept in the future, this is just my first try.
You love the Doctor. Of course you do. He's fun, and smart, and beautiful, and also pretty much the only person you really know.
He says he found you because of some kind of space time anomaly. It brought you to a planet far away from earth, to a different time, and apparently also erased most of your memories.
The Doctor says the memories have to come back by themselves, so you don't get overwhelmed.
Too much of a push to help you remember, or simply too many memories at once, and your mind might shut down completely. Otherwise he would have helped you with his telepathic abilities already. He does check up on your mind sometimes, to make sure everything is still okay in there, and if he can maybe, very gently, get you to remember something that you're close to remembering, if it's not too much. That hasn't worked out yet, but he keeps trying. It's very nice of him.
That's also why you can't go back to earth, because that might trigger too many memories at once.
Sometimes, you feel like you almost remember something. Or like you definitely should be remembering something. A certain sight or feeling or smell will just make you start crying, feeling like you're missing something. Like there's a hole in your mind, and your soul remembers what was once in the empty space, but your memories are just out of reach. So you get overwhelmed with feelings, usually grief, and the Doctor has to calm you down. You're so lucky his telepathic abilities can help with that.
The Doctor takes you to visit countless of fun planets, at different times, letting you see the most spectacular things. But you can't stay out of the Tardis long, because of your disability. The Doctor says you've probably had it before your accident. You're pretty much cured when you're connected to the Tardis, but that does mean you can't stay out of it for more than a day. That's fine with you, the Tardis is your home.
Today, you're on a planet where the air smells like vanilla, the sky is purple, and the people are green, and it's beautiful and idyllic and lovely, until it isn't. People start screaming and pushing each other to get away from something you can't see yet, something you won't ever see, because the Doctor spots it before you can, and yells at you to "Run!". So you do. You take his hand, and together you run back to the Tardis.
He makes sure you're safe inside, and then goes back out, to help the others, but not before making sure you'll definitely stay inside. You will. Why wouldn't you listen to him?
Although, now that he's gone, you think back on how he told you to run. It sounded awfully familiar. Something about that exact word, and the tone he said it in. And not just because you've been in dicey situations with him before, but of something more important you can't quite grasp. Usually the Doctor would be helping you with your memories at this point, so they don't overwhelm you, you're already crying, but he isn't here right now, so you keep thinking. And thinking.
Until something clicks, and you remember.
You remember now. How you first met the Doctor.
Ironically enough, you were at a doctor's office for an appointment, alone in the waiting room, and suddenly there was a lot of chaos outside. Somebody poked their head through the door and told you to run. You almost started laughing, because you couldn't run, which you told him. So he stayed and outsmarted the threat from inside of the waiting room instead, keeping you safe, because you couldn't outrun the aliens. The somebody was the Doctor, who asked you to travel with him right after letting you know that his space ship could help with your disability a thousand times better than any doctor on earth, especially in this century.
So you'd definitely already met him before the space time anomaly that made you lose your memories. If that even happened at all. But why would he lie about the existence of that? Then again, why would he lie about only having met you after? Did he lose some of his memories too?
The Doctor isn't back yet, and the more you think, the more of your memories come back. First slowly, but then it gets faster, until you remember pretty much everything.
Everything the Doctor made you forget.
How traveling with him was fun at first, but sometimes he got weirdly intense and angry at others, so you almost became scared of him sometimes. You became aware of how much power he had over you, it's not like you could leave unless the Doctor let you, he's the only one who could fly the Tardis.
It was a hard decision, but you asked him to take you home. What you told him is that this couldn't last forever, and you didn't want to get too used to being able-bodied before being forced back into your previous life and being disabled. Or dying before that happened.
Which was all true! But inwardly, you were thinking about how you weren't sure you trusted him anymore, with all his anger, and didn't want to become too dependent on him. Leave while you still could, before his moods turn to you.
It was too late. He didn't let you leave. Said you were too important, too precious, too vulnerable.
Instead, he erased your memories. A painful experience. Like your mind was being ripped apart, invaded, even though you tried your best to fight him.
When you woke up in the medbay of the Tardis, he pretended like you were meeting for the first time, and that he was pretty much your only hope for survival. You trusted him. You came to love him.
This isn't even your first time remembering. Every time, he erases those memories again, and then tells you that you got overwhelmed by almost memories threatening to push through, but that he was able to help you, so you're okay now. And then he takes you on adventures like nothing happened. He also erases every instance of you getting scared of him when he gets angry again and decides to destroy somebody who almost managed to hurt you. In your head, he was always fun and sweet and kind to everyone.
You have no way of knowing if you have all of your memories back yet. What if he's hiding something even worse from you?
You have to get out of here.
But how? You can't fly the Tardis, and doubt she'd cooperate. Can you send a message to someone? Make a phone call? But who would even be able to help you? Maybe you should just leave the Tardis right now, and try to hide on this planet? Or just walk as far as possible into the Tardis and hide there until you can think of something better?
Before you can try to start working on any of your less than thought through plans, the Tardis door opens. The Doctor has returned. You've run out of time. You quickly wipe away the tears from your face.
"Darling! I'm back!" He sounds happy and excited. You wonder if he's just acting. Or is that actually a part of the real him?
"It didn't take nearly as long as I thought it would, and basically took care of itself. It was a big misunderstanding, really—" As he walks closer to you while talking, probably to hug you like he always does, you take a step back before you can think about the consequences.
The Doctor notices immediately. He looks into your eyes, and you think he never looked so cold before you got your memories back.
"Ah. You remember, then." He sounds disappointed. "Again. That's been happening in increasing frequency, lately. I might have to erase everything and start from the beginning again! Maybe if I think of a different lie, it'll last longer. Leave some original memories, to make it more convincing. Maybe taking away everything was a bit much."
He keeps walking towards you while he's talking, seemingly mostly to himself, not caring that you can hear, while you keep taking shaky steps away from him.
"I should let you remember something after some time, maybe, so you don't get suspicious as to why none of your memories are coming back. Only memories involving me, of course. You don't need to remember anyone else."
Your eyes flicker towards the exit. "Why are you doing this? Why not just let me leave?"
The Doctor places himself between you and the door, having noticed your wandering eyes. "Do you not remember? I love you. I can't let you get hurt. You're too vulnerable without me. You can't even run without a connection to the Tardis! How could I possibly let you leave, knowing you could get hurt? I can't let that happen. Not to you. Not again." He lets out a shuddering breath. "Now, hold still for a second darling, will you?"
Right. That's your cue to run.
You spin on your heel and take off, not even caring which direction you're going in, just trying to get away, but the Doctor is faster. Of course he is. You knew he'd be, but you're still surprised by just how fast he catches up to you, grabs you and effortlessly wrestles you to the floor, pinning your legs down with his own and holding onto your wrists, so you can only uselessly arch your back to try to fight back, but the Doctor doesn't budge an inch.
He sighs, like this is only a tiny inconvenience.
"You're better at listening to me when you don't remember anything. Don't worry, we'll have that fixed soon."
He presses his forehead against yours.
"No, wait, please, don't–" You try to twist your head to the side, but his hands move to hold your head in place. You try to push him off of you again, but he's a lot stronger than he looks, not bothered by your pushing in the slightest. You resort to clawing at him, but even that has no effect.
He shushes you. "It will only hurt if you don't stop fighting me. Just let me in. Make it easier for both of us, okay darling?"
You, of course, try to prevent him from entering your mind anyways, but as humans aren't a telepathic species, you're at a disadvantage. He was right, fighting really does hurt, you think, right before everything goes black, and you're thinking nothing at all.
You wake up in bed. Is this some kind of hospital? What happened? You feel fine, except for a slight headache, and the fact that you don't remember how you got here. Or a lot of other things. But you do remember the man sitting next to you.
"Doctor? What happened?"
He smiles. "Unimportant. All that matters is that you're safe now. Trust me."
