#darkxchina

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Unplug me

Numb me

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Putting earplugs in so you can comfortably talk to yourself in public...

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i don't want to be here anymore

life is like being at party that you had no interest in attending,

stuck in a meeting that you're miserable in,

trapped on a journey you never asked to be on.

i am unamused by everything and everyone, and everytime i try to entertain the thought of life actually being interesting, i always end up back here.

i am not depressed or suicidal or sad.

i am bored. i am so fucking bored

and not even just with my life but in general.

i feel like i've been here before, many times actually, and that i'm just sick of the fucking storyline.

i want out. too much evil here. too much darkness. and not enough of anything else

I

Want

Out

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Making love off of this song. I’m calling it....

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Walking away with parts of me and I

Want

My

Shit

Back

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I just firmly believe that life is what you decide it is. 

i’ve lived dark days; days that i didn’t think i’d come out of. Days when my chest was so heavy with pain and grief and loneliness. And astonishingly, as they fade in they fade out. i cannot point the day life wasn’t as heavy. 

I’ve lived bright days; days when smiling feels so good. Days when my feet felt light. When dancing naked in my room was joyous.

My point is that I’ve lived both my best and worst days to date, and they were all the same dates. Perspective shapes reality. Decide to want to be better, to want to feel better. 

I look at my notes from 4 to 5 years ago on here and I was in one of the most depressing states in my life, but those were some of the most transformative, life-evolving experiences I have ever transcended from. I am so grateful for those days when my love for life was tested. When my self-identity was being defined. And the love and appreciation I have for myself is like no other. 

I love you darkxchina, and am so grateful for all that you were because it’s made me who i am today.

thanks babygirl.

- tee (25yrs, 2020.)

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Does anybody know how to make friends?

Asking for a me....

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make art of me