Rhys - losing Deomas
Rhys swallows hard.
"I already lost him," he says quietly. "I still wake up some days and for a moment I think- "
He shakes his head.
"If he's up first, if his side of the bed is empty, sometimes I get this horrible, sick flash of panic, like he's gone, like someone's taken him, like- "
Rhys trails off. Looks away for a long moment in thought. His hands flex where they rest against his thighs.
"I guess it's guilt, partly. For a long time he needed help, he needed me, and I wasn't there. He spent months in Merrion's service before I found him, almost a year, and if I lost- if I lost him again- "
He has to pause, to collect himself.
"I'd never forgive myself."
On a scale of one to ten, this fear is an eleven.
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