Davao guy
07202022
I met a guy during my first solo travel. He almost ticked off everything that’s on my ideal guy list (a finally moment too!!), some of which are: he’s taller than me, nice job, family oriented, does hiking, plays sports, and likes pets. And since I know his soc meds, I learned that we have the same likes in some things, one is that he likes the stars bec he’s been sharing NASA posts. He also uses expressions that I use a lot too.
But since I know his soc meds, I’ve found things to make me think twice. He has lots of girl friends in FB — albeit some of which are from dating sites and every time I look at his friends/followers list I always see a girl with big boobs, he’s anti-Leni, he posted a video during his Cebu trip that for me felt like nabastos yung girl kahit di kita face nya, and his tiktok posts.
I’m so confused tbh. I really like him a lot because we have so much similarities but I feel he’s bastos or medyo fuckboy. But ughhhhh we kinda did my ideal perfect date (sit or lay down while watching city lights or stars then kwentuhan about anything) on our first meetup (we sat and watched the city lights while having kwentuhan) and also his height!! He’s the first guy I’ve dated who’s taller than me. Tapos yun nga check na check kasi halos lahat ng nasa list ko. Then we’re supposed to climb Mt. Pulag on September, I don’t know yet if it’ll really happen. But right now iniisip ko na what will happen next if matuloy nga yun? Or pano na pag di matuloy? Like do I unfollow him na sa IG and forget him? Like he’s just a memory na lang… (well medyo sanay na ko kasi ilang guys na rin ang naging ganto na but it’ll still hurt).
If the end of all of these will be just memories, I couldn’t help but to ask lots of questions. Why would you let me just have a taste of someone I’m dreaming and praying to meet, instead of keeping it? Do I not deserve what I want? Because at the end of the day, even if it’s a perfect and joyful one, I would still wish for someone whom I could tell about my day.