I miss the children. So much. I hope they're doing okay. Knowing they're not here with me, it makes me panic. Paranoid. I can't sleep as much. I don't know if they're safe or not. Allen is here, that I'm glad for, I can keep at least one child safe. And the other system littles..
But the other orphans. The children I helped raise. Knowing that they all had that monstrous disease, knowing they could be in danger. It makes me sick to my stomach. I could hardly afford to protect them there, what makes me think I can protect them here? Now? But I still want to see them, even if I know I'm useless.
I was a bad teacher. I just want to apologize to them, at least. It fills me with so much pain knowing that Allen would grow up and take after me. I was so useless, I couldn't protect any of the children. I subjected Allen to those horrors because I didn't try hard enough.
I want my children safe. I need to know they're okay.
- Teacher/David 🎻 (Alice Mare)