‘ 𝐈 𝐂𝐀𝐍’𝐓 𝐃𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 , ‘ 𝐋𝐄𝐈𝐀 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐔𝐏 𝐒𝐎 𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐘 , 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐍𝐎 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓. fought her budding feelings of hatred for her brother , fought the drowning emotion of grief && loss━it’d piled up on her , repressed so much && so quickly that she thought perhaps it’s what’s best for the moment. they had bigger problems to deal with && while she knows her mother would listen to her words of sorrow , of anger for her brother , lydia felt as if it weren’t right to place such feeling on her mother when she has so much going in personally , but also with taking charge of the resistance ! han solo is dead , it burns a hole in her mind every time she even thinks of allowing herself to remember , but the cause && the resistance don’t halt. life goes on && eventually she will to , but isn’t she 𝙰𝙻𝙻𝙾𝚆𝙴𝙳 a moment of mourn? she lost her father && at the hands of her brother no less. ; lydia can sense , even if it’s for a moment , her && rey’s foce signatures align with one another with heaviness in their hearts. when the others arm wraps around her lydia doesn’t hesitate to return the embrace , leaning into her more than she might need but she can’t help it as everything spills out little by little. ❝ but i’m not , i’m not strong ! ❞ head shakes , tears running down reddened cheeks. ❝ i’ve caught myself trying to not hate ben for what he did , but i-i do. ❞ ( lydia knows deep deep down she can’t hate him , she never could ) ❝ i feel like all of this hurt , all of this pain , is gonna . . explode out of me ! i’ve tried so hard to be 𝖘𝖙𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖌━ ❞ there is no shame , no weakness , in hurting young solo. / @dawnsabered continued from HERE !