#day unit

[orbobit]

day unit // night unit

[seokjin-ish]

go into orbit - 이달의 소녀

(i took all the logo text out myself so please don’t claim as your own)

[ahsokajedi]

up unit // line unit

[thenewsmag]

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[leaving-anorexia-behind]

15/09/14

Another day at the unit, staff questioning me how I feel about leaving for uni. Asking me whether I am ready for such a change. I just want to be settled in and freshers to be over. I know that's meant to be the best part of uni but I put myself in the most stupid positions when drunk, I hate the initial period of settling in and just the whole initial meeting of everyone. It's always so awkward!

I literally feel like I am going to re- learn how to be in society. My current roles are a patient at a ED day uni 4 days a week (although I try to make it 3 most weeks!), a loaner for a pony whom I love to pieces and a member of staff at a local MH charity where people listen to my advice. I'm such a hypocrite. That is pretty much it, my life revolves around MH and soon it will be around ''normal'' people. So yes I'm terrified but if I don't go I may just get stuck in my anorexia and depression, potentially getting worse. I cant allow that.

To be honest I don't think I will miss the unit, I'm so bored of it. It isn't helping me anymore it is just becoming normality and that is not what life is about! I will miss a couple of the staff especially my ED nurse and the friends I have made but I wont miss how predictable my day will be. Today has been hard after yesterdays binge and tbh yes I have restricted today, but I will get straight back on track tomorrow. Just feel so crappy at the moment and my anxiety is so high with the whole planning to move etc.

[leaving-anorexia-behind]

Who am I?

TW

In group today we spoke about trust and hope, I want to think I will fully recover but at the same time I have no idea who I would be without it or if my depression comes back as badly as it did. The nurse said to think of who we would like to be, so here is my list;

kind

caring/ giving

happy

someone who is easy to be around.

None of these have anything to do with anorexia. I saw my nurse later and she got frustrated with me again. Unsure of what I wanted, whether I was scared to go to uni, whether I wanted my ED etc. I explained that I feel like I need atm, with the transition along with all the other stressors. She told me that there will always be stressors and I'm just using excuses. She is right.

So my main thing is consistency, 3 meals and 2 (ideally 3) snacks per day and a fortisip/ extra snack after exercise. We spoke portion sizes for breakfast and mine need to be a third bigger than what they are. I told her I didn't want to be weighed anymore unless she weighed me backwards.

I am scared of letting go of something I have held onto so closely for so long. It was odd as she told me that I need to accept that it will always be a part of me, I don't want it to be. I just want all the thoughts to go, I want a life.

[cheeeseandpickle]

i feel nauseous and i'm late (bc i woke up late and the waiting times for trains/buses was unusually long) and i want to go home. i just want them to tell me to go home when i get there bc it screws with other patient's heads. they should kick me out of their services already like all i am is a waste of resources and space

[cheeeseandpickle]

treatment today was ok, i went on the shopping trip which was pretty cool and i had a nice chat with my keyworker which might make talking with her/asking for 'time' a little easier and it was one of the girl's birthday so we had cake for pudding and it was a small portion so my stomach is happy(ish) and I'm going clubbing later which ought to be fun so i'm gonna try to just eat my snack in like 4-5 hours so that the bloating isn't too bad