been a very long time since my last post here, but I hope whoever sees this post have a good life x)!
Several things happened in the last months and I've been struggling about my feelings for this ship and everything in the fandom. Content below can be reaally emotional (imma typical INFP), if you're interested in the video, you can just skip and go watch it xD
I made some videos during the 3 years I spent in this fandom, and I learnt a lot truly - I tried tools I once never thought I'd know how to use and I had never been that passionate and creative for any other characters like I had to Simon. And of course I met a lot of good and talent people here... and yeah I miss you guys.
Despite my inactivity here, I was relatively active in the fandom here in China trying to find some people who simp Simon (also Daniel, Kamski) too, sad there were just so few, and those who did left the fandom soon enough eventually or remain mostly inactive, still I'm glad they showed up and motivated me to make more works for Simon. Maybe that's lucky enough for a fandom (or specifically for Simon) that had its glory back in 2018.
However, the truth is that I'm slipping out of dbh fandom and I'm sure I have good reasons for it, most to do with my mental state and part to do with some of Cage's shitty speech, but maybe up to this day I just decide that I shouldn't care anymore. Sometimes I felt my love deliberately contempted by the creator of my beloved character and it's been hard for me to continue this way, but I still miss that person I'd been two years ago when I could spent almost every night creating works for him out of love.
This is the very first simarkus video I made and now there're 3 versions of it. The first one is crude, the second one is still my favorite, because I made it when I loved this ship more than anything. My editing skills are much better now, so I like the color of the third one x) It makes Simon's eyes look so pure blue.
I don't know if I'd make another video for them or post another thing on this acc. I initially planned to remake every Simarkus video I'd ever done, but after finishing this one I found it just took too much of me. Maybe when I'm better or have more inspirations, I'll do them one by one. If no and this is the last one, I wish everyone good afternoon, good evening and good night.
Thank you for loving them and especially for loving Simon, he deserves more than I can give him, 'cuz I still love him.
