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[zuzsenpai]

[ using gif making tests for AAI2 & DD as an excuse to be emotional about these two ]

[dip--dye]

The urge to selfie has been encouraged, so here i am. i got to see my tiniest siblings, and I can’t get over how big Dotty and Ern are getting. 

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[parkinjungs]

— ♡ 200719

lazy day. i haven’t been able to do much all day, but i finally read quite a lot! i finished reading ferrante’s brilliant girlfriend and it was quite a nice read. but now i really feel like i need to have a few days off and travel to some unfamiliar land alone. but of course i don’t want to spend money and also because of the virus i’m kinda meeeh about travelling abroad. it sucks, really. 

lately i’ve been feeling really warm towards him. i want to spend most of my time with him and i like it. i even watch him play ghost of tsushima which is quite of unheard of me but i’m enjoying it and i know it makes him very happy, too. i’m also trying to watch lots of things with him as well and say okay everytime he wants to do something. i don’t know how long it’ll last, but we’ll see. 

i also initiated today. i’m trying my best, although my libido still isn’t really existing. it’s weird because p*rn and h*ntai do hype me up, but i don’t get why real people don’t. is it really because of him? but i don’t remember anyone making me horny in the past few years. well, maybe besides her. but no male, that’s that. i don’t know, i’m not sure what i’m supposed to do anymore. it sucks, really, not only for him but for me as well because i know how much better s*x is when i’m actually into it. but i just don’t know how to get into it. 

we’ve been playing board games lately!!! and it makes me so happy. i love that he’s trying. we’ve been playing forbidden desert and ganz schön clever and the first turned out to be pretty easy and kinda boring, only for us to discover we haven’t been playing it properly kadjadjasd. oh well. NEXT TIME!

i’m being demotivated for work again. now that citroen’s hype went down, i find myself not very into work even though i definitely have stuff to do. also my superior will be on holiday all week and i’m just not sure i am up to task to handle this project alone. grrr. oh well, it will all prevail.

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I need that person, much worse’n just bad ... I’m half alive, and it’s driving me mad

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The best way to describe this story is Batman meets Oliver Twist: Please, Sir? Can I have some JUSTICE?

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