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— ♡ 200719

lazy day. i haven’t been able to do much all day, but i finally read quite a lot! i finished reading ferrante’s brilliant girlfriend and it was quite a nice read. but now i really feel like i need to have a few days off and travel to some unfamiliar land alone. but of course i don’t want to spend money and also because of the virus i’m kinda meeeh about travelling abroad. it sucks, really.

lately i’ve been feeling really warm towards him. i want to spend most of my time with him and i like it. i even watch him play ghost of tsushima which is quite of unheard of me but i’m enjoying it and i know it makes him very happy, too. i’m also trying to watch lots of things with him as well and say okay everytime he wants to do something. i don’t know how long it’ll last, but we’ll see.

i also initiated today. i’m trying my best, although my libido still isn’t really existing. it’s weird because p*rn and h*ntai do hype me up, but i don’t get why real people don’t. is it really because of him? but i don’t remember anyone making me horny in the past few years. well, maybe besides her. but no male, that’s that. i don’t know, i’m not sure what i’m supposed to do anymore. it sucks, really, not only for him but for me as well because i know how much better s*x is when i’m actually into it. but i just don’t know how to get into it.

we’ve been playing board games lately!!! and it makes me so happy. i love that he’s trying. we’ve been playing forbidden desert and ganz schön clever and the first turned out to be pretty easy and kinda boring, only for us to discover we haven’t been playing it properly kadjadjasd. oh well. NEXT TIME!

i’m being demotivated for work again. now that citroen’s hype went down, i find myself not very into work even though i definitely have stuff to do. also my superior will be on holiday all week and i’m just not sure i am up to task to handle this project alone. grrr. oh well, it will all prevail.

#dd;

lunosamentelunitoo

* ☾˙ ˖✶ 「 1/100 days of productivity 」

so with my exams coming up, i might as well attempt this challenge. i’m probably going to fail after a week or so, but... it never hurts to try, right? so on the first day, i have started making a table of all the japanese verbs and their forms i have learnt so far! there are quite a lot of them and i honestly didn’t get too far, but taking into account my usual attitude towards studying, this almost two hours of writing down japanese words were definitely an improvement on my part.

#100op;

fuckyeahsurveys

Get to know me.

A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom? tamás; hazamentél edzés után vagy már nem? B) What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom? jani; de mehetünk C) What time do you wake up most mornings? 6:10 D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night? yes E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day? sleep F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom? my room, gf G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school? no H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so? yeah I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos? yeah J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined? no K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking? yeah L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted? yeah M) Tell us something weird that turns you on. N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual? karin O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately? that i should break up P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation? cant remember but was prolly smth sexism-related Q) Do you usually initiate hugs? no R) Are you a very affectionate person? not at all S) Can you roll your own cigarettes? dont smoke T) What are you looking forward to? graduation U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more? dont but want V) Are you mentally strong? i guess W) Are you physically strong? nah lol X) Do you think you’re a good person? not really but im not bad either Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now. rate of girls and boys in class Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast? sandwich

— ♡ 150425

soon.

— ♡ 150423

she’s early.

way too early; she’s got on the train an hour earlier than she should have. damn. she has approximately ten seconds to think it through: to arrive at her destination an hour earlier and do nothing or go back home for about thirty minutes.

she chooses the latter. her dad isn’t too happy about it, though; of course he isn’t, she made him drive her home after all. he’s going to be late, and he’s pissed off, but he takes her home nevertheless.

she’s late.

of course, she’s late. she always is -- it’s truly a part of her persona. she can’t even imagine her as someone who just once arrives in time. that just simply so wouldn’t be lola anymore.

janette calls her over and over again, but lola doesn’t pick up. she wonders; did she get lost? or is she just purposefully ignoring them to get on their nerves? she has no idea. but janette is surely unnerved; and when lola finally picks up, she yells. she’s not genuinely mad, though, of course. lola’s her best friend. they could never be truly mad at each other.

then she finally appears; janette makes a hand gesture urging her to move faster to which lola replies with an enthusiastic wave. she laughs; janette laughs along, because they both think that lola thought janette waved at her.

but she didn’t.

they get a package full of food; two sandwiches and ice tea. one of them is a sandwich with eggs and cheese, the other one is cheese and ham. lola asks around if either of the two girls wanna trade her cheese-egg sandwich for their ham one; she wants to. but only so that she could make her happy. as if she could make up for all the time she had lost with the two best friends in the past years. as if she could make it all up to them; drifting apart, her fault.

but she knows that they don’t really mind things ended up this way, which hurts just a little.

she refuses to trade after all.

“that’s way too much pizza!”

“you’re wrong. there’s never such thing as too much pizza. period. it just doesn’t exist.”

it does exist, though, she knows that. she’s been waiting for this part; and yet she fears it. she fears it because she’s doing something she’s going to regret later again, but damn, the pizza looks way too good. she just can’t refuse.

“you’re all red.”

she looks up at janette. “me?”

she shoots her a “no, Obama, duh” sort of look.

“oh. i must have got burnt outside.” damn it. she knew this would happen. she knew it already when they were outside. she could feel the hotness of the sun rays bathing against her skin. and yet she hoped. she hoped it wouldn’t come to this.

it’s not even summer and yet she already looks like a bloody lobster. amazing.

but hey, at least she did have fun today. for another couple of days, girls’ day has managed to convince her to pursue an engineer career. thankfully, it really doesn’t last for more than a couple of days. ever.

#oh

staypozitive

#dd;

— ✦ 150312

really bad day. bye

#dd;

— ✦ 150304

i had a pretty good day. there weren't any tests and the classes also weren't boring! except for access, but ya...

i got a Martin selfie today~

also i'm getting impatient and nervous, what if i don't get the job...

#dd;

— ✦ 150303

WOW it's been such a long time! but i'm gonna try to get back to writing this, yes.

can you believe that i got caught cheating for the first time in high school? it was really awkward gdi we have a new teacher in history because our history teacher replaced our literature (sobs dorci;;;;;) and daaang. he was really really fair and nice tho, he said "it's our first meeting, i don't want to give out ones on the first day, but this mustn't happen again" so in the end i didn't get a punishment or anything. so yeah. i was lucky af.

i had a job interview today! it would be real nice to get the job... at the sweet shop only 10 mins away from home. also the lady was really nice and also quite pretty, I LOVED her eye makeup. seriously. and she was reaaaally nice truly.

#dd;

— ✦ 150211

oops been a bit long since i've been here, hasn't it? but hey anyway i had a good day. 4 classes only, maths was pretty fucking awesome and i wrote a programming test and got a 5 for it.

and i also finished dai. and now i feel empty.

like, really empty. truly empty. i dont know what to do with myself. im way too deep in

#dd;

— ✦ 150127

murányi is a fucking moron lmao. since physics was cancelled yesterday (YES, IT WAS FUCKING CANCELLED BECAUSE WE WERE AT THE DENTIST. EVEN THOUGH WE FINISHED EARLIER, WE WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO ARRIVE BEFORE 4TH PERIOD NO MATTER WHAT SHE SAYS) and since "instead oh going to physics, we went to ikea to eat", we're not going to have a revision class but we will write the test. uh. ok. whatever bitch.

https://twitter.com/titsyeon/status/559493756895129600 / https://twitter.com/titsyeon/status/559493792425054208 / https://twitter.com/titsyeon/status/559493888659185664 / https://twitter.com/titsyeon/status/559493990056464385

#dd;

— ✦ 150126

going back to school, yay.... #no. but hey, we went to the dentist today so the first three classes were cancelled, kinda, we were finished long before the third class started but since we didn't have to attend only from 4th period, we didn't go back immediately. instead we went to the mall and i ate a really really good sandwich (parmesan bread, barbecue chicken, mozzarella, füstölt, salad, tomato, jani treated me), otherwise... it was a pretty useless day. i had ONE proper class because in network/php bálint didn't really think he should study considering it was only a replacement class.

#dd;

— ✦ 150125

we went to the theater today! rebi came too, we watched the padlás and it was so good. it was v funny because the main guy looked totally as if he was from neumann lmaoooo the light in his eyes has long died i kept laughing because of it... also speaking of funny, rebi's extremely funny like really. i don't know why she doesn't have many friends, i love spending time with her because every second word she says is funny. it's amazing. i'm so jelly i wanna be like her.

#dd;

— ✦ 150123

what a horrible day. not only did i wake up to dad staying at home (this actually ruined my entire day lmaooo) but i was feeling extremely shitty the whole day and it was so boring and then we had to go to grandparents' place to celebrate my brother's birthday which wasn't that bad but as i said, i wasn't feeling too well. then grandma announced that they're going to canada this summer and that just fucked up my mood completely and then martin also asked for new selcas because he's leaving to austria tomorrow... like. horrible. an extremely shitty day, i'm telling you.

#dd;

— ✦ 150122

i had a pretty great day! i was home alone all day (until parents came home duh), drank a huge amount of coffee so i was hyped up, i even danced a little bit though i totally shouldn't have, and i think i even had good convo w martin? i'm not sure though lol i don't really remember because i'm writing this on saturday oops (actually it's almost sunday but who cares amirite)

#dd;

— ✦ 150121

so like i went to school and all but my side isnt really getting any better so i decided to come home after first lesson (i admit, i kinda also didnt really want to write the programming test...........) and went to gubacsi where mu picked me up and she took me to the doctor. she sent me to gyártelep for sebészet ('twas funny bc the doc was the same who i went to when i had that lil finger accident in 5th grade l o l) and he sent me to get an x-ray which was just a total mess whatever.

#dd;

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