I can’t be more grateful and appreciate for everything that has happened to me by far.  Setting up ADAM has been quite an experience for a year and a half. I’m grateful because I was given an opportunity to create some thing that I never did in my life, however, it may seems it is not what I’m expected. The company that I’m working for may have the resources and mainly the funds. To realize this, but it has it’s owned conditions and unforeseen factors within.
The problem with this company is because it has too much voices, and structure, and this organize workflow, which primarily causes the downfall or even the operations to be so poor at the current moment. There are definitely solutions out there in the market, which can turn the tide around and resolve the problems.  unfortunately I don’t think the company or the head of the management will be interested in spending more money for a flat business entity in their perspective. 
Honestly, I was promise with something that seems to be a dream yet a nightmare of reality. Therefore it did not set my expectation right from the beginning. This has gotten me really disappointed and upset throughout this period of time.  I have been trying really hard in any way possible to bring in the revenues through the jobs and projects, but it seems to be futile.
With my team shrunken it means that I will have to be getting myself more involved doing all the work that my guys were doing previously. Sometimes I’m asking myself is this the right choice to be taken away from the start?  But what really kept me going is the desire to make things happen to proof that I can. And mainly for the sake of my family especially my newborn baby that’s coming soon. Hence, I’m caught in between the stability and uncertainty. I’m now not even sure this is sustainable and stable enough to bring me to my end game 10 years from now? I need to retire outside of this dreadful place and toxic culture and people!!!
Let’s see how long I can stretch myself. Even rubber bands have their limits to snap.