#deardepression

[islam-reflections]

[tanricasblog]

Sevgili depresyon ve anksiyete;

İçimi adeta kemiren derin bomboş bir hiçlik hissi var. Buna ansızın sebep olmandan nefret ediyorum. Yanlız kalmama sebep oluyorsun. Yalnızlığı sevmeye zorluyorsun.

[tanricasblog]

Sevgili depresyon ;

Artık bedenimde seni taşıyor olmak zor geliyor. Her an beni mutsuzluğa ve karamsarlığa sürüklüyorsun.

Gerçekliği değiştiriyorsun. Acı çekiyorum. Önceden "yalnızlık" kelimesine hayrandım. Şimdi ise o kadar da ışıltılı ve güzel gelmiyor. Delirmek üzereyim ya da deliriyorum. Zihinsel olarak yorgunum. Bir çıkış yolu arıyorum ama göstermeyeceğini de biliyorum.

[pattysnacks90]

Some days are harder than others. Sometimes you cry for no reason. Sometimes you smile and other times you don't. You can be the loudest person in the room and life to any environment, while other times no words come to mind and it feels your suffocating in a room. Some days its more real than you know. #deardepression (at Jacksonville, Florida)

[mrsmorgana-blog]

Sra. Cabeça de Batata

Eu me corto,

Não, não pense que me corto com giletes e facas

Não pense que o sangue que vejo escorrer é algo físico, é pior

Eu me corto com olhares, com palavras, com pensamentos

Eu me vejo e não consigo me enxergar

Eu procuro a perfeição que eles me impõem

Eu a quero, eu preciso dela para não sofrer, para não deixar espaço para os julgamentos

Sou uma Sra. Cabeça de batata

Eles escolhem o que devo mostrar

Qual rosto hoje devo usar

Como devo me portar

Eles determinam minhas falas

Eles determinam até quanto posso sorrir

Quando posso sorrir

A quem posso sorrir

Eles me cortam

Eles cortam minhas asas

Minha alma

Eles me fazem sangrar

[dear-depression-beyond18-blog]

Entry - 13/09/2017

So it has been a while since I posted last I’ve just had so much happen and now I’m questioning absolutely everything and I don’t even know where I’m going to end up anymore and it’s scary I have had few people tell me I should let some of my friends go because they don’t seem to care like I do for them but for me losing people in my life that I care about is petrifying. I’ve already lost a really important person in my life and to think I could lose anymore people well I don’t know how I would cope cause they mean so much to me and I love them all they just unfortunately don’t feel the same way anymore even if they did I never really got showed it. I do so much for people and I offer my support all the time cause I never want anyone to be left alone or down but yet some people are heartless enough to not offer it back or say they are to tired to put effort into you tonight. But I still stick around......WHY?

[dear-depression-beyond18-blog]

Entry - 30/06/2017

I was thinking about having a birthday party and inviting all the people I love but I cant see to many coming to be honest and I know its quality over quantity but somehow when your standing at the table with the cake and you look over and see all those people that came for you.....cause they care, cause they love you and cause they want to be there for you. Yeah maybe I just hide in my cave (my room) like I do every other day and maybe hope someone messages me saying “Hey I hope you have a fantastic day today cause you deserve it I know things haven't been easy but you are doing a great job at keeping yourself up”

[dear-depression-beyond18-blog]

Entry 22/06/2017

You know who you are. You made me fall for you and our whole friendship has been a bit weird from the start, but I didn't think much about it till 5 months ago and you just happen to be there and my heart turned a new page. But now fast forward to today and I’m here, thinking about you; waiting for a response but I’m to scared to call you or even send you a question mark in our texts to remind you I am here and I am alive, but you may as well just forget. I’ll be gone soon and all you will have is the memories of me; whether it be as stupid as lying on a porch with me at the late hours of the night, but by now the other times we shared are probably far gone from your head, because who I am? I know who you are and yes I still think about you all the time.