#dearwinnie

[dear-winnie]

Sometimes I crave intimacy--

I don't know how to ask for it.

[dear-winnie]

Last Thursday I submitted the last assignment for my entire degree. It's a little nerve-wracking to think about really. I'll get my results in December, I'll graduate in April and then I'm expected to be even more of an adult that uni students are. I don't really have set plans for next year either, and my degree is one that's sort of useless without extra education on top which I've come to accept (and is increasingly common in most fields anyway) but it means that I probably won't get work in my field of study.

I want to keep studying Japanese by myself though! I'm supposed to be at about an N3, but I definitely don't feel it, so my goal would be to get there and sit the jlpt as a concrete goal. It only runs in December in Melbourne, so I have the whole year to work towards it.

Otherwise, I want to save some money, eat good food, and maybe see some nice parts of Victoria with my bestie. I think when you're uncertain about the future it's best to make simple goals, so I just want to have the time to teach myself new things each day, and the money to not worry about having dinner out or going on a day trip every so often

[dear-winnie]

8 Sept

Yesterday I was two steps away from the kind of breakdown that causes you to cut all your hair off, so today was a comparatively good day. Did I do a lot? Not really, but I also haven't cried.

Met up with my team to work on our final year group project

Went to class

Did the in-class assessment for my writing unit (but I skipped the class)

I also called my mum and we talked for almost 2 hours. I'm super stressed about graduating, and while sometimes her advice doesn't help, she always listens and lets me destress by listening to her. She's a primary school teacher so her life is very dramatic 😂

Does anyone else worry that their degree hasn't qualified them for any graduate positions, or is it just me?

[dear-winnie]

It's almost the end of semester and that means it's time to turn all my gross handwritten notes into slightly less gross typed notes and tables. Yay... On the plus side, my birthday is on Sunday???

[dear-winnie]

May 5 🍁☀️🍁

The weather was really nice for the first time in a week, so even though I didn't feel well, I went to class and did some Japanese work with the promise that I'd go out and read at the park for an hour at 4. And that's exactly what I did! Equal Right, tea, and lots of bugs because it's just before sunset, but it was worth it. I really do need to get out of the house more... I should look into buying an outside setting so I can study in the sunshine

📻 アルペジオ by [Alexandros]

[lookingforsomewon]

Why must allo people catch feelings?

[dear-winnie]

It's finished!!!

[dear-winnie]

Girls, she is finishing the essay tomorrow

What can librarians do to be more sustainable? Idk research it yourself