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Kiss of Death: Chapter 2
Friends with the Monster series
Fall Out Boy Fanfiction
Summary: After nearly killing your best friend and Patrick, you try to fight off the demon taking up residence in your brain. She still haunts your dreams. She knows more about the cult than you or Patrick originally thought. And is it true that she doesn’t have emotions?
Warning: language and graphic smut near the end
Words: 6022
A/N: I’m really sorry for not updating or posting new stories. Fanfiction just hasn’t been coming easily to me recently. I’ll try to get the next chapter up in a more timely fashion.
Read on AO3 // Masterlist
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The dreams persisted through the next couple days. This other me is trying to take over my head and it’s not comfortable in the slightest. It felt like I always had a migraine. I can hardly focus anymore. It’s even worse because I keep waking Patrick up in the middle of the night. He says it doesn’t bother him but I wasn’t blind. I could see the dark circles forming.
I’ve had to put my editing services on hold until we could figure out how I could control the other me. So that’s less income and makes it harder to pay bills. Patrick has a job too but he doesn’t work it often.
When we first started dating, I had asked him how he managed to pay his bills while only working part time. He seemed embarrassed to admit he could be considered a ‘trust fund baby.’ His parents left him quite a bit of money when he decided to move out. He said he tried to not touch it but it pretty much covered the amount of times he moved around.
I shot upright in bed. Sweat dripped down my neck and I ran a hand through my hair. It was always bloody. Always images of people I love coming after me then me killing them. Patrick snored softly next to me. He must be exhausted. With both work and now trying to deal with my episodes and figure out what’s wrong with me.
I crawled out of bed to get water from the bathroom. The little nightlight covered the room in a soft blue glow. I splashed my face a couple times, hoping that it would help chase the night terrors away.
I met my own gaze in the mirror. If I look hard enough, could I see her? The dark hallway seemed to stretch behind me. I shivered and shook my head. No need to freak myself out.
I hurried back to our bedroom where Patrick still laid peacefully. I looked down at him and smiled. I reached down and brushed a piece of hair out of his face. He could be an angel.
Just wrap your hands around his throat. It’d be so easy…
I jerked my hand away as pain ripped through my skull. I let out a whimper and stumbled backward. Her claws sunk into my brain as she tried to climb out. My back hit the dresser and knocked an alarm clock to the floor.
“Stop… please,” I begged, falling to the floor.
A pair of arms wrapped around me and I thrashed. She couldn’t have me! Tears streamed down my face. Why me?
“Hey! (Y/N) you’re ok. I’m here. It’s Patrick.” His arms wrapped tighter around me, restricting my movement.
Get away from him. He’s going to hurt you!
I didn’t know how to reason against her. Patrick wouldn’t hurt me. But what if he did? But he wouldn’t. Not if you kill him.
“Get out of my head!” I yelled and dragged my nails down my arm, the pain serving as an anchor.
My ears rang and I could feel her retreating for the time being. My shoulders shook and I began recognizing my surroundings again. Patrick still had his arms wrapped tightly around me and I slowly relaxed against him. He pressed his lips to my hair. I wasn’t sure how long we sat there.
“I’m sorry,” I mumbled. One of his hands ran through my sweat soaked hair.
“You don’t need to apologize.” I tried to push away from him but he only held me tighter. I tried to protest but soon he was lifting me up and placing me on the bed. I finally looked up at him.
I couldn’t see him very well but his face looked puffy, as though he had been crying too. I reached up and placed a hand on his cheek. He turned towards it and kissed my palm.
“I’ll go get you some hot chocolate.” I nodded and pulled the blankets around me. I was a mess. I didn’t understand how Patrick could put up with me.
He walked back into the room holding a steaming cup. He set it down on the nightstand before sitting on the bed with me. I reached for his hand. He pulled me forward into another hug. He was my safe space. But lately, I was a danger to that.
“Patrick?” Another tear slipped down my face.
“Hmm?”
“I love you,” I sniffled out. He pulled away from me and held my face in his hands. He smiled gently at me. He leaned forward and kissed my head.
“Drink some of the hot chocolate and then get some rest. I’ll stay up until you fall asleep.”
“You deserve rest, too. Maybe you should spend some time with the guys so you can sleep,” I said, holding the warm cup in my hands. He shook his head.
“I told you that I wouldn’t let you go through this alone and I meant it.” I frowned and took a sip of the liquid. I just wanted to take care of him like he took care of me.
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I woke up to sunlight peeking through the blinds. I cracked my eyes open and saw my cup from this morning. My back was pressed against Patrick’s chest. I heard him snoring softly. I remember laying down and him petting me. At least he didn’t stay up all night.
Thankfully there were no more nightmares. At least for the night. I turned in his arms to watch his face. I hadn’t seen his face so relaxed in a while. The guilt of my condition creeped up on me. I tried to move away but his arms tightened around me.
“Trying to sneak away from me?” He cracked an eye open and smiled softly at me. I couldn’t help but grin back at him.
“Never. I was just feeling a bit hungry.” Patrick closed his eyes again but pulled me tighter against him. He leaned over and kissed my head.
“Eh, that can wait for now.” I giggled as he rolled on top of me, kissing my face. I could have sworn I heard a fake gagging noise come from my head but I tried to shove it back.
Patrick’s hands were all over my body, tickling and squeezing. I let out a small gasp as his lips trailed over my neck. I ran my hands through his hair as he moved lower, leaving small nips as he went.
“Did you need something, Trick,” I teased?
“Just you,” he mumbled. His hands found their way under his t-shirt that I wore to bed. His fingers set my skin on fire as they worked their way to my breasts. I arched my back into him, making him groan.
His lips found mine again as he moved the shirt up, only breaking from me to remove it. Our chests pressed against each other and I wrapped my legs around him. He chuckled and his hands returned to my hips, moving them against his.
We both jumped at the loud knocking from the front door.
“Just ignore it,” I said, pulling him back down to me. He shrugged and kissed me again but whoever was there was no going to be ignored. They knocked again, but harder. I groaned and released him.
“I’ll just make sure it’s nothing important,” he said, climbing out of bed and pulling on pants and a t-shirt. I pulled the covers around myself and willed the person to go away. I heard Patrick open the door and talk to whoever it was quietly. I picked up my phone, to check the time. It was well after 9 but who was knocking on doors this early?
“Y/N, it’s Kayla,” Patrick called from the front room. I shot out of bed and grabbed whatever sweatshirt I could find. Hopefully she didn’t mind me looking like a bum.
I rushed out to the front room, tears pricking my eyes. Had she forgiven me? I stopped at the doorway, trying to make sure I didn’t scare her.
She looked exhausted, dark bags, frumpy clothes, messy hair. Whatever she had been thinking about the last few days, it certainly wasn’t sunshine and rainbows. Her eyes ran over me, her body tense. I took a cautious step forward and she held her hand up to me.
“Stay right there. Who are you?” Patrick started to talk to try and calm her down but she shushed him too.
“I’m me. Your best friend. Y/N.” She shook her head in disbelief.
“Last time I checked, best friends didn’t try to kill each other,” she said, voice shaking. The tears threatened to overflow.
“Kayla please understand. That wasn’t me. It was something else. Like I was possessed.” She let out a humorless laugh.
“Right. So, you’re not even human now or something?” Her voice raised an octave, her body shaking. I glanced over at Patrick. I didn’t know how to explain this. Was I allowed to explain it? Or maybe I should just let her think I’m crazy to keep all of this a secret. Her gaze followed mine and she backed up against the door in fear.
“Did you do this to her? You wanted her to hurt me?” She glared at Patrick. The she pulled a pocket knife out of her hoodie. Patrick jumped back, raising his hands in surrender. I jumped forward, rushing to explain.
“No! No, Kayla please. This isn’t his fault.”
Stay back. She’s going to hurt you.
I shook my head and winced at the sudden throbbing. She was not going to get the best of me. I could feel her scratching at my brain but I shoved her down, of course only increasing the pain. I noticed a look of worry pass over Kayla’s face.
“Please Kayla. What you saw wasn’t me. It was something else,” I said as calmly as possible.
“What else was it,” she asked, lowering the knife slowly. I glanced at Patrick again. He shook his head and shrugged. He wasn’t sure either. I didn’t want to lie.
“It’s like… an alter ego. A different personality.” Her hand gripped the knife. I vaguely wondered where Don was and why he let her out in this state.
“Like… that disorder that has multiple personalities?” I nodded slowly. I was more than comfortable sticking to a scientific explanation right now. “But doesn’t that come from… like… extremely traumatic experiences?” I nodded again. Her shoulders relaxed slowly.
“Can you put the knife down Kayla? Please,” Patrick said gently, hands still raised. He moved slowly and placed a hand face up, asking for the weapon. Kayla looked between us and closed the knife, but she didn’t hand it over.
“Where’s Don,” I asked.
“He’s at work. Why?” Her shoulders tensed again.
“I just wanted to make sure that you didn’t go home just to be alone with your thoughts. I know this is a lot. And I know you’re freaked out. But I can swear, that I won’t hurt you. Never again. I’m getting help.” I took another cautious step toward her. She didn’t back away this time so I slowly walked toward her until she was arm’s length away.
“I want you to trust me. Because as far as I’m concerned, you’re still my best friend and it would really suck if I lost you.”
She cracked a small smile but was gone as soon as it was there. She lifted a hand and reached toward me, resting it on my arm. She still trembled but seemed to be fighting it. I smiled at her and rested my hand on hers. She glanced over my shoulder at Patrick again.
“He didn’t hurt you, right?” she whispered. I shook my head.
“No. He’s trying to help me.” She nodded. “Why don’t you get some rest? You look like you haven’t been sleeping well.”
“I could say the same for you.” I laughed awkwardly.
“Can I come check in on you later?” She thought for a moment then nodded. “Go home and sleep ok?”
The door clicked shut behind her and my shoulders sagged. I hadn’t realized how exhausting that whole situation had been. Patrick’s hand rested on my lower back and I relaxed against him.
“That was more than I wanted to deal with today,” I mumbled.
“Well why don’t you take your own advice and go rest some more. I’ll make some eggs.” I glared at him.
“Only if you leave the jalapeños out this time.” He laughed and pushed me gently toward the bedroom.
“I promise I’ll leave all semblance of flavor out,” he teased. I made my way towards the bathroom, deciding instead to shower. It should help me relax.
The warm water ran over me as I rubbed the tension out of my shoulders. Maybe I should have asked Patrick to do that. Self-massages never work as well.
Ugh you really make me sick. You don’t need him.
The pain wasn’t as sharp. As though she didn’t want out. She was just talking? I shook my head, trying to ignore her.
You can’t ignore me. Sadly, we’re stuck together. And the least I could do for you is make you realize that you don’t need anyone.
“That sounds lonely,” I said out loud.
No. It’s just safer that way. Emotions are worthless. They do nothing except hold you back. There are only urges. Food. Water. And survival.
‘We’re not feral animals.’
Who says? Science? People are too comfortable. When those people come for the world, everyone will die. Unless they know how to survive.
“Wait. What do you mean ‘when they come?’” Silence. Damnit. I finished rinsing and hopped out of the shower, nearly slipping on the wet floor. I rushed to pull on jogging pants and a tank top, hair dripping down my back.
“Patrick! We have a problem,” I said as I walked out.
“I said I wouldn’t put—” He stopped when he saw my face. His head ticked to the side. “What happened? Did she try to get out again?” I shook my head.
“No but… She did speak to me.” He raised an eyebrow. Patrick looked over me, as though something might have changed.
“That’s weird. It took forever before me and the other guy could communicate. Literally years. Are you sure you’re ok?” He ran his hands over my arms and up to turn my head gently. I knew I was completely sane. At least I thought so.
“I’m fine. She just said some weird stuff. Like, I really don’t think she has emotions. And I think she knows what those people are planning.” His eyes could have fallen out of his head. He blinked a few times and I saw the yellow creep out around his pupils.
I backed away from him, not entirely trusting the other him because of what he had done last time. I thought I heard a satisfied snicker from inside my head but I couldn’t be sure. That bitch wanted this to happen.
Patrick took a couple steps toward me. And I put my hand up to stop him.
“Stay right there. You don’t get to come near me right now.” He let out a heavy sigh but kept his distance anyway.
“Look, I’m sorry for what I did last time but hey, we learned stuff.”
“And almost killed yourself in the process,” I pointed out. He snorted and rolled his eyes.
“Babe, I find it really funny that you think you or that little demon in there could take me.” I glared at him then flinched. Her claws started scratching at my head. Not hard, but noticeable.
This guy pisses me off. Why can’t I just rip his throat out?
“Shut up,” I groaned out, holding my head. I noticed Patrick’s feet in front of me and his hands ran through my hair gently. I looked up and the bright yellow was still there but I could almost see the real Patrick behind it.
I wanted to be angry with him for trying to kill me. I wanted to shove him away. But his hands touched me so gently I found it hard to believe he would have ever hurt me like that. I leaned my head on his shoulder, relaxing against him.
God, stop! He’s going to fucking kill us. If you don’t let me deal with it…
‘No. This isn’t danger. This is where I feel the safest.’ I wish I could have seen the shock that I felt from her. My heart racing wasn’t from panic or fear. I just needed the safety of the person I loved.
Patrick pressed his lips against my head as his fingers ran down my spine, giving me chills. I felt his head tick but wasn’t sure which one was still holding me so gently. I looked up at him, getting lost in the golden blue pools.
Don’t get any closer!
I flinched and I watched as the yellow took over again. Good. He seemed both angry and worried. But I needed his methods of distraction.
“Kiss me. Please.” I don’t think I ever saw this Patrick blush but the pink on his cheeks didn’t lie. I giggled softly. “Why are you blushing?”
“The way you looked at me… it just… fuck just shut up,” he said, grabbing my face gently. His lips found mine easily, enticing me to respond. I wrapped my arms around him, running my hands through his hair.
Hands off!
“No,” he growled. I could feel her resolve wavering. Patrick poked around my head but I didn’t care. If he could fight her in there, I’d much prefer it. Grabbing a handful of his shirt, I pulled his body flush against mine. I nipped at his lip and found myself against a wall.
“Are you trying to make me lose control?”
“Would that be so bad,” I said, running my hands down his chest.
Yes!
Instead of responding to her, I kissed him again. His hands ran over my hips and under the sweatshirt. I sighed and he took the opportunity to bite my lip.
“Have I mentioned how intoxicating you are?” I giggled at the compliment. His hands moved to my thighs and he lifted me up effortlessly. I wrapped myself around him as he carried me to the bedroom. There was still scratching against my brain but I didn’t care. I’m to focused on the man above me.
Patrick tossed me on the bed, sending me into another fit of giggles. He was feeling playful today. Fine by me. He stood at the foot of the bed, staring at me in wonder. The heat from his eyes transferred to the space between my legs.
I sat up and pulled my shirts off, left in leggings. I bit my lip, beckoning him to me. He crawled onto the bed after me, looking every bit like a demon. He stopped in front of me, placing a hand behind my head. His fingers gripped my hair, pulling it gently. He smirked as I moaned softly.
“What do you want, Y/N? All you have to do is ask.” I smirked at him and launched forward, tackling him so I was on top. The only reason it worked was because he let it. But I appreciated him letting me take control.
“I want to please you. So lay there and let me,” I whispered seductively. He groaned and let his eyes fall closed as I leaned down to kiss his neck. I kissed every part I could reach that wasn’t covered by his clothes.
I pushed his shirt up and he helped with the full removal. But he still let me do as I wished. Kissing down his chest and stomach, his hands brushed over my arms. I couldn’t have that. I grabbed his hands and trapped them with mine. He chuckled.
“So that’s how you want to play this?” I hummed in response, releasing his hands so I could pull his sweatpants down. I looked up at him through my lashes. He watched me with a cocky smirk, but I had a plan to get rid of that.
After I tossed his pants to the ground I crawled back up his body, littering kisses everywhere. He groaned as I pressed my lips against his again. His cock pressed against me, making me grin. I let my hand wrap around him, moving slowly. He nipped at my lip.
“You’re teasing. That’s not very nice,” he mumbled.
“I never claimed to be,” I said sweetly. Leaving his lips to fall open, I ran my fingers over his body. His cock throbbed in my hand. I hushed him as I ran my lips over his hips and down his legs. I glanced up at him as he groaned, eyes shut in bliss.
I traced my mouth over his dick, leaving dry kisses. I felt his hand moved and I retreated, grabbing his wrists and holding them down. He could break out if he really wanted but I hoped he’d let me play for a bit longer. I thought I heard him growl but decided to ignore it.
Returning my attention to his cock, I took the head into my mouth, licking it slowly. I string of curses slipped from Patrick’s lips. I grinned at his impatience.
“A man only has so much control, baby girl.” His pet name sent shivers down my spine. I released him long enough to taunt him.
“And I expect you to exercise all of that control,” I said sweetly. I took him into my mouth again, suckling the head before moving my mouth farther down him. Patrick gripped the sheets and I chuckled, causing his hips to jerk up. I couldn’t have that.
I removed myself from him completely except for my hands on his wrists. Bright yellow glared down at me and the scratching in my skull returned. Get out! Run! I shook my head and smiled at Patrick.
“No moving. Otherwise I stop.” He let out a dry laugh. I was almost scared, but more turned on. I knew I wouldn’t complain if he lost control. I may have even wanted him to.
“Are you really trying to give me orders? It’s cute. But I can’t promise I’ll follow them,” he said smugly. I shrugged and wrapped my had around him again, squeezing. He groaned almost involuntarily.
“I’m prepared for that.” Without a warning I wrapped my lips around him completely. I did my best to relax my throat as he hit the back of it. He cursed again, hands and fingers twitching. I moved slowly, feeling his hips flex but never move. My tongue traced patterns over him.
“Fuck, Y/N. If you don’t stop I’m gunna come.” His words only served to make me move faster, taking him as deep as I could. His hips started to roll, probably without his consent, but I removed myself. A frustrated growl ripped from his throat. I licked my lips as I looked at him.
“I said not to move. Besides, didn’t you want me to stop?” His fingers dug into the mattress as he glared. I crawled up his body, touching him as little as possible. I placed a soft kiss on his mouth, then nipped at him. His eyes were pleading, almost looking like the real Patrick. I moved my hands to cup his face, touch feather light.
“You’re playing with fire sweet thing.” I smiled and moved my lips to his neck. I kissed until he tilted his head to give me better access. I bid down on the spot I had been kissing and sucking. I grinded my hips against his, the need between my legs becoming too much.
I stared up at the ceiling, arms pinned above my head. Patrick settled between my legs, a wild look in his eyes. I tugged my lip between my teeth. I was never scared of him, even though she seemed to think I should be.
“I warned you. Now it’s my turn. Are you going to let me mark you like you did me?” My eyes wandered to the bruise forming on his lower neck. Not exactly the easiest place to hide. But to be honest, I didn’t want to hide it. I turned my head, exposing my neck. He cursed and released my arms, though I didn’t move them.
He hooked his thumbs into the waist of my pants, yanking them down along with my underwear. I helped kick them off and Patrick grabbed my hips pulling me against him. I gasped at the contact against my core. He didn’t enter me but I could feel him throbbing against me.
Patrick lifted me up so I was sitting on his thighs, my legs wrapped around him. He kissed my neck, tongue leaving a wet path up to my ear. My arms wrapped around his shoulders, nails digging into his back.
“I’m going to lose it if you don’t stop. I’m going to take you and I won’t be gentle.” He bit my neck to emphasize his point. I rolled my hips against him, making him growl. “Y/N…”
“I don’t want gentle,” I mumbled back to him. He grabbed my face, bright yellow stared into my soul. He was looking for uncertainty where he wouldn’t find any. “Please. I want you. Please.”
Patrick crushed his mouth against mine and I wished I could fuse my body to his. He moved my hips, lining my entrance up with his cock. I had teased him to the point of orgasm but somehow I doubted this was going to be quick.
He was inside in one thrust, making me moan and pull him as close as our bodies would allow. I felt his teeth on my neck again, biting and sucking a bruise onto my skin. My mind went blank as he began moving inside me.
His hips jerked forward with every gasp of air. I dragged my nails over him, making him groan. I definitely missed this. He felt so good. Knew exactly how to make me want him more. He lifted his head to meet my eyes. Blue and gold swirled and he was so beautiful.
“Talk to me babe. Tell me who you belong to,” he said, hand winding up into my hair. I moaned as he tugged on it and stopped moving. I tried to move my hips but he held me still.
“Fuck… you…” I panted out. He pulled harder on my hair and bit my neck again.
“That’s not an answer,” he growled.
“You! Damnit Trick. You own all of me.” I watched the smirk spread across his face then he was gone. I couldn’t feel him inside of me. I suddenly faced my dresser and met my own eyes in the mirror.
Patrick’s arms were wrapped around me and I met his gaze. One hand gently griping my neck, the other running over my stomach down to my clit. My back arched as he touched me. I tried to focus on him. But that damn scratching in my head…
I’ll give him this. At least he knows how to fuck.
I blinked at myself in the mirror and watched as one of my eyes changed to yellow. But I still had complete control over my body. Nothing hurt. Everything became so clear.
I could feel every callus on his hands. Every breath he took felt like silk on my skin. I could hear his racing heart. Everywhere he touched me felt like electricity. It wasn’t enough. I needed more.
“Patrick please. I need you inside me again.” My legs shook but he held me up. He smirked, moving his hand and pushing his fingers inside me. My back arched toward the feeling.
“Like this? Or maybe you wanted something else?” I wanted to choke him. He’s teasing. And he would tease me until I came. I met his eyes in the mirror. “Oh, look who came out to play. Tired of the teasing?” He chuckled and pushed a third finger inside of me. I rocked my hips against his hand, needing more stimulation.
“I swear to god if you don’t fuck me right now, you’ll regret it.” He gripped my throat tighter but not enough to hurt.
“Giving me orders now? Of course, I can never say no to you,” he said. He removed his hand and pushed me forward, grabbing my hair. I could still see him grinning down at me but I couldn’t focus on it for long.
He pushed his cock into me with little warning. My head fell forward but he pulled it back up. Every thrust made the fire burn hotter. I could feel the impending orgasm and there was no stopping it. I was so close…
Then he was gone again. I glared at him in the mirror, my legs shook and my body screamed for release. I balled my fists in the sheets.
“Beg.” My eyes went wide. The half of my brain that she occupied revolted. I ground my teeth, trying to silence her curses.
“Trick. Please,” I whined. He shook his head. Not enough. “I’m so close, please. You can’t just leave me like this,” I pleaded. He pushed just the head inside me. I tried to move back onto him but he just moved away.
“I wanna come too so you better get to begging,” he said smugly.
“Fucking hell, Trick. Please! I need you inside me! I want to come with you inside me. I need it. Please!” He laughed and thrust inside me.
“That’s a good girl.” He grabbed my torso, pulling me up so my back was against him. I felt like I was going to explode. He slammed inside me again and again. No chance of slowing down. I felt his fingers against my clit again and I pressed against him, moaning his name. I could hear him whisper my name in my ear. “Fuck do you know how crazy you make me?” Every word pushed me closer. “Come on baby girl. Come for me,” he whispered, nipping at my ear.
As if my body was waiting for his permission, pleasure raced through me. I moaned loudly, feeling every movement he made. My legs shook but he didn’t stop. He growled as he thrust into me rougher. His hand never stopped moving and I didn’t have time to finish riding through my first orgasm before the second ripped through me.
“Fuck, Y/N,” Patrick groaned. He shoved himself deep inside me and I could feel him throbbing. He moved slowly, riding out the waves of his orgasm. I could feel his body trembling along with mine.
He started placing gentle kisses along my shoulder, still holding me up. He pulled out of me, maneuvering us to lay down. I turned in his arms, and he had his eyes closed, smiling so adorably.
I ran my hands over his face and giggled. His eyes fluttered open, gold still taking up most of the color, but the blue was creeping back in. He pressed a kiss to my forehead.
“I’m jealous of me sometimes. Is that a weird thing to say?” I rolled my eyes.
“Very.” He ran a finger over my left eyelid gently.
“Not yellow anymore. How did she slip out?” I shrugged as much as I could while laying down.
“I don’t know. I just suddenly felt everything about ten times as intensely. I was still in control through the whole thing.” Patrick pulled me against him, pressing kisses against my hair.
“Yea. Perks of being a demon. Heightened senses. It sounds like she actually did something nice for you.” He chuckled.
Don’t get used to it. But if we’re gunna share a body then I’m going to make it feel good for me.
I winched at the rough scratching. She might not have emotions but she must feel sensation. Otherwise she wouldn’t have bothered.
“She talking to you?” I nodded.
‘So, are you done trying to kill him now?’
He’s still a threat. If you let me out fully I could eliminate it.
“She still hates you,” I said, annoyed. Patrick snorted a laugh.
“Use me then throw me away, huh? Didn’t know you were so cold babe,” he said sarcastically. I shoved him lightly.
“I don’t think this is the time to be making jokes.” He rolled his eyes at me. His head ticked to the side. “How long have you been shoving him back? Let him out,” I scolded. He sighed and let his eyes fall closed.
“Like I said. Jealous,” Patrick muttered. When his eyes fluttered back open, he smiled, pulling me against him.
“At least he listens to you,” he joked. I tucked my head under his chin, ignoring the scratching at my brain.
They’re going to come for us. You lying around isn’t exactly helping our chances of survival. Get out of here. End his miserable existence and leave.
‘You mean the cult, right? Patrick and his friends are figuring that out.’
I wouldn’t trust them. And I’m sure that pig demon is just leading them on a goose chase.
‘Patrick said they found some shallow graves and masks. That doesn’t sound like a goose chase.’
Then they’ve already started. You need to figure out your priorities. Living or this stupid boy.
‘Started what?’
Remember that invasion I talked about?
A chill ran down my spine, entire body going stiff. I heard Patrick say my name but I couldn’t bring myself to respond. Did they want to kill everyone or just let demons like the one in my head run rampant?
“Hey! Are you ok? What’s going on?” I blinked a few times and looked up at Patrick. His eyebrows were drawn together.
“They’re coming. Those graves you found. It was the beginning.” The color drained from his face. He rolled away from me and out of the bed, grabbing his phone. I followed his lead. Pulling on the clothing that had been discarded around the room.
“Pete. We have a problem… It’s the cult. We think the invasion already started… Call Joe and Andy and we’ll meet you at the river.” Patrick looked over his shoulder at me.
“What’s the plan,” I asked. Ignoring the fact that he hadn’t put any clothes on yet. It was not the time to be thinking of a round two.
“I know you promised that you would visit Kayla later today but you might have to reschedule. I’m afraid the end of the world might be more important.” He pulled on underwear and pants with alarming elegance. A quick flash of gold caught my eye. Back already? I guess the impending end of the world justified that.
He pushed past me, pulling on his shirt and grabbing a leather jacket in one fluid movement. I didn’t move for a moment. I looked around our room. It had become a safe haven for both of us. But we might never get to spend time in here again.
“Y/N. We gotta go.” I shook my head and turned on my heels. Patrick was pulling on boots when I walked up to him.
“Patrick,” I said softly, pulling on my own shoes. He finished lacing the boots and stood in front of me. He seemed closed off, like he was looking through me. I lifted my hands to his face. He blinked a couple times before his gaze softened.
I pressed my lips against his softly. I hoped it wouldn’t be the last time. But I knew as soon as we walked out the door, it would be a quest to save the world from complete chaos. He wrapped his arms around me tightly.
“I love you,” he said, pressing his head against mine.
“And I love you.” He kissed me one more time before tearing away from me and walking out the door. I didn’t blame him. I didn’t want to go either. But this could be bigger than both of us.
Kiss of Death
Friends with the Monster series
Summary: Time jump to a few months after “Friends with the Monster.” Your relationship with Patrick has been going great. It was almost going too well. He has his demon alter ego under control and he doesn’t really shift between his two personalities anymore. At least, not unwillingly. But something feels off. Strange dreams keep you up at night. You don’t want to worry Patrick, so you don’t say anything. After all, this stuff was supposed to be in the past.
Warning: violence and angst
Words: 6495
Masterlist // Read on AO3
A/N: I decided to continue this story. Inspired by a song and a comment. Let’s see what happens!
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Tapping away at my computer was getting frustrating. I’d been working on the same scene in my book for over a week now. I’ve deleted and rewrote it I don’t know how my times. I groaned and grabbed my computer, shaking it, as if it would help. I feigned hitting it against my head. At least, that what I was trying to do.
I smacked myself in the face with my laptop. Right on the bridge of my nose. I yelped in pain, tears welling up in my eyes. This was just not my day apparently.
“Hey! What happened? You ok?” Patrick rushed into the room. He looked between me and my laptop that I was glaring at, and chuckled.
“It’s not funny,” I said, pouting. It was a struggle to keep the smile off my face. Who hits themselves in the face with a laptop?
“It’s a bit funny,” he said, sitting on the edge of the couch. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me into a hug. I relaxed against him, wishing I could fall asleep. He reached for my laptop and closed it.
“Why not take a break for a bit? You work on it so much. It’ll get there.” He kissed my head. Then he was scooping me up in his arms and carrying me to the bedroom. I laughed and squirmed as he dropped me onto the bed. I laughed harder as he climbed on top of me, covering my face in little kisses.
“Knock it off, Trick,” I playfully scolded.
He stopped and rested his forehead against mine. I giggled as I ran my hands over his shoulders and up to cup his face. He pressed his mouth against mine gently. He was excellent at distractions, but of course I wasn’t exactly fighting him.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and nibbled on his lip. I felt him grin against my mouth. He nipped back at me but pulled away too soon. He shook his head slightly. It had become his tell when his alter ego felt like speaking. I raised an eyebrow at him.
“What wisdom did he bestow upon you this time?” Patrick rolled his eyes at me.
“Nothing. More complaining that I keep you all to myself.” He nuzzled my cheek. It was my turn to roll my eyes.
“How does that make sense? We did have the whole, ‘we’re the same person’ talk right?”
“You ask me like I would know,” he said.
“I would but that requires dealing with a horny demon.” Patrick snorted and rolled off me.
“Man, way to kill a guys vibe.” I laughed and snuggled up against him. He kissed my head again. “I love you.” His phone went off from the dresser. Patrick sighed and pulled himself up. I kicked his butt as he walked away, and he glared as he answered the phone.
“What’s up Pete? I was a little busy… oh shut up… yea, I’ll come check it out… be there soon.” I sat up and tilted my head in question. Patrick slipped his phone into his pocket.
“Sorry for needing to run out, but the guys think they found something relating to that cult.” I nodded in understanding.
“Thought that was supposed to be in the past,” I teased lightly. He sighed and gave me a look. I lifted my hands in surrender.
“It is. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to bring the rest of them to justice.” He grabbed my hand and kissed it. “I’ll be back for dinner.” I smiled as he walked out the door. I waited until I heard the front door click shut before flopping back on the bed.
I know I should try to nap but I didn’t want the nightmares to return. They’ve been going on for a few weeks now. Awful images flashing across my mind, of death, blood, straight jackets, white rooms painted red. I was tempted to call it PTSD from the incident a couple months back. But why it would take this long to surface and with no known triggers is beyond me.
I glanced around the room. Patrick and I moved in together about a month and a half ago, determining it made more sense than us alternating between apartments. I ran a hand through my hair. I could feel my eyes drifting shut. I just prayed that the nightmares would give me a break.
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I was back in the chair. The same one. Black figures floated around but I couldn’t really make out any shapes. Red flashed in the corner of my eye. I tried to turn my head, but I was too dizzy.
“…out.”
I lifted my hands to my face; the voice was like nails on a chalkboard. The chair I was in was gone. I stood in the middle of an empty room.
But was it really empty? I couldn’t tell. I thought there was a person. They keep going in and out of focus.
The figure was rushing at me. I screamed, thrusting my hands out in front of me to stop them. Glass spilled onto the floor. Over a body. I finally focused on the face.
No. no. no. NO!
Blue and gold. And red. Red. Red.
I jerked my head back up and stumbled away from the demon in the mirror.
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My eyes sprung open as I jerked upright. Tears slipped down my face as I ran a hand through my hair. Someone had moved me farther up on the bed and draped a blanket over me. Pans clanked from the slightly cracked door. I glanced over at the clock. I had been out for a couple hours. No wonder he was home.
I furiously wiped at my eyes. I really hope I wasn’t talking in my sleep or something. Maybe I should tell him but what would be the point? Probably just hormones or some other shit. I crawled out of bed and wandered out to the kitchen.
“I would have ordered something you know. You didn’t have to cook,” I said. Patrick turned toward me, holding a can of pineapples. I raised an eyebrow.
“Well you were completely out when I got here so I figured I’d be nice. It’s just pineapple chicken. No way I can screw it up.” I laughed and hugged him, careful of the food.
“Don’t jinx it, babe.” He finished pouring the juice and slices into the pan before putting it into the oven. He pulled me into a hug and stroked my back gently.
“You were breathing pretty hard when I got home. Bad dream?” It was an innocent question that caused all the vivid imagery to rush back. Thank god he couldn’t see my face.
“Yea, probably. Can’t even remember it now though,” I said, trying not to sound freaked out. Patrick tensed, and I felt him shake his head slightly. I pushed away from him gently to look at him.
He blinked a couple times as the blue faded from his eyes. I did not want to deal with this side of him right now. It was like he could read my mind. I sighed in annoyance.
“Don’t give me that shit. There’s somethin’ you’re hiding.” I rolled my eyes and turned away from him.
“You’re delusional. You like to think you know me.” He appeared in front of me again. I wasn’t scared of him anymore but that doesn’t mean he didn’t have superior abilities.
“Well it’s been a while since you’ve wanted me out. And sorry darling, but that’s a bit strange,” he said smugly. I pushed him back. I didn’t want to deal with his mind games.
He was right, but I couldn’t let him know that.
“Maybe I’ve just gotten bored of you,” I taunted. He visibly flinched. I cursed myself. I sometimes forgot Patrick was still in there. The cocky look was back on his face in no time.
“Sorry hot stuff but I doubt that. It’s probably more because whatever you’re hiding in that pretty little head of yours, will come spilling out if I kiss you.” Hence the reason I thought he could read my mind. We’ve had a connection ever since he put his own visions in my head. He can get whatever information he wants out of me. I glared at him.
“And I told you I’m not hiding anything,” I bluffed. I crossed my arms as he raised an eyebrow. He took a couple steps toward me. Bright yellow eyes searched my face. He ran a hand through my hair tenderly.
“So, you wouldn’t mind if I kissed you right now?” His head ticked to the side. They were the same in some sense. They had the same giveaways.
“She’s hiding something… I don’t care what you think she wouldn’t do…” He squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head. When he opened them again, they were still gold. I swallowed and tried to back away. He had shoved Patrick back.
“Patrick will be mad at you,” I said, voice shaking slightly. The demon rolled his eyes.
“Oh no, whatever will I do,” he mocked. He moved like lightning, trapping me against a wall. “There’s something up. I intend to figure out what.” His mouth inched toward mine. I could feel the pull of our connection. I wanted to kiss him.
I let my guard down for a moment. It made me relax, run my hands over his shoulders and chest. A low growl threatened to make me melt. His lips brushed against mine. I could almost feel him tugging at the walls of my mind.
Focus!
His lips pressed firmly to mine as he rooted around in my head. I kept up as many mental blocks as I could while trying to behave naturally. I couldn’t get lost in him now. His teeth tugged at my bottom lip. I sighed happily as he pressed himself against me. I let my hands wander into his hair, making him groan.
I kissed him until I couldn’t feel him poking around anymore. I pushed him away, but not hard. I looked into his golden eyes.
“Satisfied,” I whispered. I ducked away from him. It was one of the few times I could catch him off guard and get away. A horny demon was also one with lower reflex times.
“Not when you leave me like this, babe.” He looked down at his pants. I caught myself before I looked too.
“Get Patrick back out here,” I demanded. He stared at me a moment, still doubting. He wasn’t the type to keep quiet about these things. If he knew, he would confront me. He sighed in frustration.
“Don’t keep secrets from us. You know we’ll find out sooner or later.” His eyes closed and fluttered back open as the yellow retreated.
“Trick?” I moved forward to steady him if he got dizzy. He shook his head.
“I’m fine.” I smiled at him, but he looked troubled.
“What is it,” I questioned.
“Just… remember that you can talk to me about anything ok?” I nodded and hugged him.
He couldn’t know about this. There was already too much that he had to worry about. The cult that fucked him up so much was still out there. Probably looking for a new leader. Of course, I’m assuming the other freak didn’t just revive.
“So, what was the lead? Anything useful?” He played with a strand of my hair.
“It was something but not sure if it was useful per say. We found some shallow graves, marked with the masks they would wear. Problem is, no bodies. The graves had been dug up.” I raised an eyebrow at him.
“Police maybe?” He shook his head.
“No. They wouldn’t have left the masks. Whatever it is, it’s extremely fucked up,” he said.
“Even I coulda figured that out,” I said sarcastically. He looked at me, a curious expression on his face.
“I know I’ve asked you this a million times but… you’re sure they didn’t do anything to you when they took you?” I opened my mouth to come back with my usual answer, but hesitated. I wasn’t so sure anymore.
“I don’t think so. But I was unconscious for a lot of it.” He tugged his lip between his teeth, thoughtful.
“Promise me that if you notice anything, you’ll tell me,” he said. I didn’t want to lie to him. And I never did. But I had to this time.
“I promise.”
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Patrick P.O.V
The guys and I wandered down the riverside. We hadn’t come across any more graves but that doesn’t mean they weren’t here. We didn’t see the mask of the leader. And I can only assume that means he’s not dead.
“What exactly do you think we’ll figure out if we find their graveyard,” Joe asked?
“I don’t know. Mating rituals?” They all chuckled. Most of our efforts thus far had left us with more questions than answers. All we had left was light banter and jokes.
And yet you don’t like mine…
I groaned, and Pete looked over his shoulder at me. I shook my head, urging him to keep walking.
‘I do not need your color commentary today. Especially not after that little stunt yesterday. We have an agreement.’
And you ignore every warning I give you about her. Something ain’t right.
‘As you’ve mentioned. But I trust her. It’s not my problem if you don’t.’
I stepped down some rocks to get closer to the river. I thought I heard his voice groan but I couldn’t be sure.
Well I wouldn’t be thinking this way if you trusted her completely.
‘You’re the one connected to her head. You would have found it when rooting around yesterday.’
No. She was keeping walls up. Of course, I don’t know how, I’m too amazing of a kisser to not distract her.
‘I’ll ask again but she’ll get mad if I keep talking about it. And she’ll think I don’t trust her.’
But you don’t?
“Hey, Trick! I know you’re kinda buddy buddy with your alter ego now, but we found more upturned graves,” Pete called. Enough arguing with a damn voice inside my head. I hurried over, almost tripping on a mask in the process.
“You know, I’m beginning to wonder if maybe no one was actually buried. Just some ritual thing,” I said. Joe snorted.
“Yea, it’s just a ritual for when their younger members go back to college or otherwise have to leave. They gave you a literal demon alter ego and you think it’s just ritual?” I shot a look at him and shrugged.
“Not to mention their leader not dying when being shot point blank,” Andy tossed in.
“Ok! I get it! We’re dealing with magic and shit.” We walked a few more steps before he spoke again.
Listen to where they walk. Something sounded different.
I paused and focused on the footsteps. He was right. There was metal somewhere under us and it was hollow.
“Hold up!” They turned back. I walked slowly, trying to hear where there might be a door. I braced my food on a larger bolder. The resulting squeak was almost loud enough to hear without the help of a demon. “We gotta start digging. There’s hollow metal under the rocks.”
The three of them shared looks of disbelief but they moved rocks with me anyway. With the four of us, it didn’t take long to find the black door. It was like a cellar door. Of course, it was locked but at least this was progress.
“So, what do we do now? We didn’t exactly bring tools to pick locks. Unless your demon wants to be helpful and kick the door in…” I shot a look at Pete. Even with enhanced strength, I don’t want to break a leg opening a steel door.
“No, we’ll have to come back. I don’t want to draw attention to us unless we’re really ready,” I said.
“I agree. Caution is always best with these things,” Andy added. We laid a thin layer of rocks and dirt back over the door so no one would stumble across it.
I’m insulted by how much you doubt me.
‘I don’t need to break any body parts before trying to take down a black magic cult.’
You’ve ripped people apart before. If that kind of strength didn’t hurt you, then a steel door should be no problem.
I flinched. I didn’t need to remember that. It was a dark point and I refuse to repeat it. My phone buzzed in my pocket as we made our way back to the sidewalk. I smiled at her name.
I’m going out for a bit with Kayla. Won’t be late. Love you.
“Dude, you are so obvious,” Pete teased.
“Who cares? She’s his girlfriend so he better be into her,” Joe tossed back. I chuckled and shoved Pete. He warmed up to her finally. At least there was that.
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Your P.O.V
I ran a hand through my hair and zoned out. Kayla was talking about some coworker that she couldn’t stand. I felt bad that she was still stuck in customer service but I supposed she’s been there long enough that she gets paid well.
“Like honestly, I’m amazed she hasn’t been fired. Someone calls corporate on her at least once a week. And she doesn’t do anything. Fuck, I don’t know how she can’t pick up that no one likes her.” I chuckled and sipped from my drink.
“Well you’re nice to pretty much everyone, Kayla.” She scoffed. “Hey that’s a good thing. The world needs nice people,” I said smiling.
“Yea yea, whatever babes. Excuse me! Can we have a refill please?” The bartender nodded.
“Of course. But could I interest you lovely ladies in something special? An experimental drink if you will,” he said as he mixed another margarita. Kayla thought about it for a moment. I wasn’t too crazy about the refill anyway, so I would probably pass.
“Only if it’s on the house,” Kayla said. She never flirted with the bartender because she was married but that doesn’t mean I didn’t see the way she pushed her chest out. Being a girl was nice sometimes. I snickered but covered it by taking another sip of my drink.
“I wouldn’t offer something experimental and make you pay for it. Just hold on one second.” He hurried off to grab different liquor.
I shook my hair at Kayla and she shrugged. We watched with curiosity as he through a couple different mixes together. I thought I saw a couple different vodkas but wasn’t sure. The labels weren’t in English. I pulled my phone out of my pocket to see if Patrick had responded. I know he’s busy but I still wonder if I could convince him and the other guys to join us. Kayla hasn’t interacted with him much and I wanted her to. She was one of my best friends after all.
Have fun! And love you more
I ginned a bit. Dork. I messaged him as the bartender set his concoction down in front of us. You and the guys are welcome to join us, just so you know. I didn’t even have a chance to put my phone down before it buzzed again.
Perhaps…
“Not like I’m sitting right here or anything,” Kayla joked. I poked her.
“Oh, give me a break. I was just inviting them to join us. Not like you aren’t allowed to invite Don.” I picked up the new drink and took a sip. I just about choked.
I had to refrain from spitting it out. Not that it tasted bad, but it hit me way harder than I expected. And it was instant. What the fuck did he put in here. Kayla clutched her stomach as she laughed. I coughed and tried to find the bartender who was clearly trying to kill us.
“Oh, come on, it wasn’t that strong. I know you’re not a lightweight.” I shook my head and lifted the drink to inspect it.
“There is nothing normal about this. It’s way strong. No way you didn’t get hit this hard.” Kayla shrugged and took a sip of hers. Not even a cough. “Let me try yours,” I said, reaching.
I took a sip of hers and I was right. It was nowhere even close.
I looked around for the bartender. He watched us with curiosity. I tried to glare and stumbled out of the chair. Kayla stood to try and help me.
“Y/N what’s wrong? Don’t try to walk by yourself.” I gripped her arm as my head started becoming fuzzy. Other people were watching now. No one moved to help, at least not that I could tell. I thought I heard Kayla say something else, but my head was ringing.
You’re going to die.
Tears streamed down my face as I gripped my head. I recognized that voice. It was mine… but not? I couldn’t feel Kayla’s arms around me anymore. It was just cold.
Kill him.
“No! Why?” I screamed.
Because he tried to kill you. And he’ll succeed if you don’t wake up.
I couldn’t tell if the darkness was because my eyes were squeezed shut or if I had gone blind. That bartender, there was something off.
His image flashed in my mind. Scars. Expertly covered by makeup. Cold eyes. Black covered by contacts.
Something clawed at the seams of my brain. Muffled voices began floating back to me. But she had begun ripping her way out of the depths of my mind. Only one voice made it through the ringing. That damn bartenders.
“Let me help her. We have stuff to help with alcohol poisoning.”
My eyes flew open and I couldn’t focus on anything. Was I looking at the ceiling or the sky? What were these brown blobs?
Stop… fighting… me!
My senses sharpened. It was the sky, I determined. My eyes darted to the two faces looking down at me. Who were they? I didn’t have control over my body anymore. It was as though I retreated to a passenger who could only watch. Her thoughts bubbled to the surface, taking over mine…
My hand shot out and grabbed their throat. I used them to pull myself up. I studied the horrified expression on their face. Good. They should be scared. Because I was going to kill them.
“Y/N! Stop! What are you doing?” They pleaded. Some semblance of a conscious tugged at my brain. Stupid bitch was still fighting. She would be dead if it wasn’t for me. Why should I spare this one? She was just as much at fault as the fucking demon. She was stupid and didn’t notice a little something extra was slipped into my drink.
“What does it look like? I’m going to kill you. Worthless excuse for a friend,” I hissed. Tears ran down her face. I squeezed my hand and she started clawing at me.
“That’s it… just a bit more,” the guy whispered. I don’t think I was meant to hear it. But if he wanted me to kill her… well fuck that. He was my real target. I dropped the girl and turned toward him slowly. She coughed on the ground and scrambled away from me. Lucky bitch.
“Oh, so you’re the one sent to kill me?” His smile faltered. His hands raised as if that would stop me from ripping him apart.
“Please understand. Not kill you. Awaken you!” I scoffed. Is that how we were justifying it now?
I took a step toward him, chuckling as I watched him stumble back. Away from me. She tugged at my thoughts. God, I wish I could strangle her of all things. She’s making this way too difficult.
You can’t kill him!
I hated that I flinched. I froze and held a hand to my head. Fucking hell, go to sleep or something.
‘Why the fuck not? And how the hell are you still conscious? So annoying.’
He might have information on the rest of them.
I paused. Oh, so she was a rational thinker? That explains why this is so difficult. Why was I damned to this body then? I hate her logic. But it is logic and I don’t consider myself stupid. I shook my head and glared at the guy in front of me.
“Guess today is your lucky day buddy!” I grabbed his shirt and tossed him against the wall. “Of course, you might not be thinking that way as I torture information out of you.”
Stones scattered behind me, making me turn. Another guy. Probably just some drunk passerby. Worthless. He’ll be dead in a second.
“Excuse me,” I said sweetly. I took a step toward the new one and cracked my knuckles.
Pain shot through my head, making me scream out. I pulled at my hair in an effort to make the pain stop. Why is she doing this now? Damn her and her so called morals! What about self-preservation?
“Y/N! What’s wrong? Look at me!” He grabbed my arms, holding me still. I did my best to glare and shove him away. Not successful.
Patrick! Please, get away!
Ugh, she knew this one too? I snarled at him, thrashing and avoiding his eyes. It hurt to look at them. Damn emotions! Nothing but an inconvenience. Just kill him and I won’t have to deal with it anymore. The blonde-haired boy forced me to look at him. I noticed his jaw clench.
“What are you,” he asked?
“I’m in pain from looking at you, that’s what,” I snapped. Pain tore through my scull again. She was trying to claw her way out.
“So they really did experiment on you when you were in that place. I’m so sorry,” he said, eyes filling with sadness. I wanted to reach out to comfort him. Fuck. I wasn’t getting away from this right now. I closed my eyes, retreating into my head…
You can bet that I’ll be back. But make sure this one’s not around.
I was thrust back into the real world. I felt my body go limp against Patrick as his arms wrapped around me. That voice was the same one that I heard in my dreams. I just never imagined the words would come from my mouth.
“Y/N?” I slowly looked up at Patrick. His brow furrowed as he looked over me for injuries.
“I… I didn’t know… I didn’t know that’s what the dreams were telling me,” I stumbled out. Patrick glanced over my shoulder and yanked me against him. The deep chuckling reached my ears.
“So, you fought off that beautiful creation for so long she had to attack your dreams? How rude. And now our two most valuable creations are together. Only difference is she is an improved version. She is the embodiment of chaos. She will steal the breath from your very mouth if you’re not careful.” He sauntered past us and disappeared into a shadow.
Patrick gripped my arms. A few beets passed before he really relaxed. He pressed his lips against my head as tears slipped down my face. That wasn’t me. He had to know that.
“Y/N?” I pushed away from Patrick at Kayla’s voice. God, I was going to kill her. She stared at me in horror and when I tried to take a step toward her, she stepped away.
“Kayla, I’m so sorry. But that wasn’t me! I promise! I would never hurt you,” I pleaded. I could see her shaking.
“I… think I need some time…” She turned away and ran off. I wanted to chase after her, but Patrick grabbed me before I got far.
“Not a good idea,” he said quietly. “We should go home.” I looked back at him. There was no way he wasn’t scared of me. I was going to kill him. Then my dream would be a reality.
“You don’t want me there. I’ll kill you.” Patrick laughed but there was no humor there.
“Talk about de ja vu. Let’s go. We need to talk.” He pulled me along and out of the back ally where I had been moved.
The ride was mostly silent. He was mad at me. But that shouldn’t be his concern. That guy said I was some improved version of whatever Patrick was. My memories flashed back to the night they busted me out of the hospital. Patrick had killed so many of those cult members, including their leader. And if I was anything like that; I didn’t want to be near anyone. It was too dangerous.
I followed Patrick up to our apartment. I looked over to Kayla’s door and almost started crying again. Patrick took my hand gently, pulling me inside. The apartment was dark and neither of us turned on a light. I didn’t want to see the anger and disgust on his face.
“I’ll… um… start packing my stuff. I need to get out of here.” I moved around him. I don’t know where I planned to go.
“No.” I stopped midstep. The growl was strained, like when he was fighting to stay in control. I didn’t hear him move but I felt his warmth behind me. His arms slowly came around me, trapping me against him.
“I’m angry. But the last thing I want you to do is leave,” He whispered against my neck. His breath startled me and I couldn’t help but jump.
“You heard what that guy said. I’m dangerous. I shouldn’t be anywhere close to you or anyone,” I said.
“No. I won’t let you do the same thing I did. You won’t run away. Not from me.” He lifted me up to carry me to the couch. He sat with me in his lap, holding onto me as if his life depended on it.
“Now talk to me. What was the dream you mentioned?” I held onto him, trying to recall the nightmares.
“Well, they usually start with me being back in that place. I’m too dizzy to move. Then I hear a voice. I guess mine… then someone’s attacking me. So, I think I… kill them. Then I look at who it was and it’s… it’s you. Then I see my reflection, then I run, then I wake up,” I explained. Patrick was quiet.
“Looking back, I know I should have said something. But I didn’t want you to worry,” I mumbled.
“Didn’t want me to worry? This is the exact thing I should be worried about! God, Y/N, why wouldn’t you say something? Maybe we could have figured this out before you almost killed your best friend.” I flinched at his words. I looked over at him, surprised by the tears that rolled down his face. He turned away from me to wipe them away. I turned in his arms to kneel between his legs.
“Patrick, I’m so sorry. Please don’t cry for me,” I said, cupping his face.
“I’m going to fix this. I’m going to kill all of them,” he said, voice low. I noticed flakes of yellow in his eyes. I should deal with the other him too. Before he drives Patrick crazy.
“I need to talk to the other you. I’ll keep him calm,” I said slowly. Patrick nodded without argument. That’s a first. He blinked a few times as the yellow glowed bright in the dark room.
“Give me a reason to not kill you right now,” he said, glaring. I shuffled away from him, on the off chance he actually meant the threat. Of course, I guess I could be just as deadly now.
“I didn’t need either of you worried about me,” I said. He scoffed and stood from the couch.
“I hope you realize that the whole reason we’re still looking for that cult, was to make sure this shit didn’t happen,” he snapped. I stood slowly.
“I get that. But this happened when I was abducted, remember?” He stood in front of me again snarl on his face.
“Exactly. And for some reason you thought that you having dreams wasn’t worth mentioning.” I tried to push him back.
“I thought it was just PTSD or something. I thought it would go away.” He rolled his eyes.
“Bull shit. If that was the case, you would have let me poke around in your head.” I turned away from him. “Actually… that’s a good idea. Let’s see if I can find this ‘other you.’” I shoved him away from me.
“That thing wasn’t me! And no poking around in my head.” He laughed a humorless laugh.
A tugging at the back of my mind said to run. But there was a hint of curiosity and an echo of a laugh. I recognized it from earlier. It was her. She was back. I shook my head trying to chase her away.
And who is this prick?
My eyes squeezed shut as the headache returned. I’m not giving up control again. She won’t hurt anyone. Strong hands gripped my arms and I looked back at Patrick. Eyes still yellow but there was just a bit of worry. Nice to know he still had feelings.
“Is she trying to get out? Perfect timing, I suppose. Let me talk some sense into her,” he said smugly. I shook my head.
“No, she hates you. And I refuse to hurt you,” I said, teeth clenched. His head turned to the side slightly.
“So you do like me. Too bad it’s not productive right now.” His hand came up around my throat. My eyes widened as I scrambled to get away. He wouldn’t try to kill me. No way.
If you let this fucking asshole kill you, I swear I will torture you in hell.
She clawed at my head harder now. Screaming to take over. Self-preservation.
“Come on now little girl. Let’s see what you got. It’d be a shame to lose a beautiful mind like hers,” he taunted. I saw his eye twitch, but he didn’t let up as his hand began to squeeze. God why was he like this. My head was splitting in half and he didn’t even care.
The black around the edges of my vision creeped in. It’s too much…
This guy really needed to get his hands off me. I should just break his hand. My eyes fluttered open as I grabbed him and shoved him back. He looked surprised but not scared. I could even call his expression weirdly excited.
“Would you look at that. While I still like the other version better, the yellow suits you.” Ugh, damn perv.
“Go fuck yourself. Give me one good reason why I shouldn’t kill you,” I snarled. He just laughed. I hated him already.
“Oh, the irony. You think you can get rid of me? I seriously doubt she’ll let you. She’s a fighter.” I rolled my eyes.
“Yea I noticed. A pain in the ass.” He sauntered up to me. I clenched my fists, ready to destroy him.
Something isn’t right. My heart shouldn’t be beating this hard. Damn this girl. She can’t actually find this demon attractive. God, she has horrible taste.
“You see. Y/N has these things called emotions. And she happens to feel them very strongly for me. And the other me.”
“Good thing I don’t have to deal with those.” He smirked at me. What was he planning? I can’t read him.
“This has been fun, but I think I’d like the other one back.” He leaned forward and pressed his mouth to mine. I felt my heart skip a beat. Damn her!
My body responded without my consent. I pulled him closer to me, and I could feel the asshole grin. I was actually going to kill him.
Patrick! Please! Knock me out or something!
I could feel something other than her thoughts. It was like someone was rooting around like a file cabinet. Could he… could he see inside my head?
‘Get out!’ I shoved her back. I bit his lip and kissed him harder, trying to distract him. I heard him growl in response. His hands ran up my arms and grabbed my face. He seemed to be retreating. I grabbed his shirt, pulling him against me. Just a bit more…
I moved my hands up and over his. I sighed against his lips. That stupid grin was back. This was my opportunity. I pulled away from him slightly.
“Did you taste the kiss of death?” I opened my eyes and gripped his hand. I bent it backward and squeezed, crushing his fingers. He cried out in pain and I moved my other hand to grab his throat. I smirked at him.
“It’s been fun, but you need to die now,” I said sweetly. His eyes faded in between blue and gold. Too bad they would never see the light again.
Suddenly I was being yanked away. The darkness consumed me and I had no control over my body.
You will not hurt him. Not anymore. You bitch.
I released my grip on Patrick’s hand and throat. He gasped for breath, holding his hand against his body. I couldn’t tell which one was looking up at me. Just that there was fear. I fell to my knees in front of him.
“Patrick… I… god I’m so… god I told you!” Tears spilled down my face and he clutched his hand.
“Fuck. I underestimated her,” he said, eyes squeezed shut. I crawled toward him and took his hand gently in mine. The fingers were bent in odd directions. I should have fought harder against her.
“We need to get you to a doctor. Get that set,” I mumbled. He looked at me again, the gold retreating slowly but still taking up most of his eyes.
“No. I can fix them now. I’ll be fine by tomorrow,” he said, gripping on of his fingers. I looked away as he moved it back into place. Silence followed.
“At least we know what we’re dealing with. She’s clearly not affected by your thoughts and emotions like my other self is.” He lifted my face with his non-broken hand, making me look at him.
“But I still love you. And I promise I will fix this. You don’t have to do this alone,” he said gently.
“What if I hurt you again. Or worse, kill you?”
“You won’t. I won’t let that idiot of an alter ego make the decisions again.” I couldn’t help but laugh a bit. He pulled me against him, pressing a kiss to my head, then my lips.
I melted against him. I wanted to forget all of this. I wish we were a normal couple. But I suppose we wouldn’t get that lucky. But I loved him with everything I had. I believed him when he said he would help me.
Been working back and forth on both mob boss au and my continuation of “friends with the monster.” It’s making both go very slow. But I’m always working on one and suddenly I know how to continue the other and I have to write it before I forget and yea. Life of a writer
Friends with the Monster: Part 1
Summary: Demon Patrick AU. New neighbor moves in and even though he’s a bit strange, he’s friendly. One day when dropping off some mail that was given to you by accident, you encounter a side of him that he can’t control.
Patrick x Reader
Words: 5172
“Three bodies have been found at the abandoned hospital. They all appear to have been strangled with their necks broken. No prints were found on the bodies and no one is in custody. All of them were convicted felons. The police are working around the clock to-“ I shut off the tv. This is the second time in three weeks that there have been bodies found in some abandoned building. They were always criminals but did that really make it ok to kill them?
I walked over to the oven to check on the cookies. Snickerdoodles made from my grandmother’s cookbook. I missed her every day but she left us some awesome cookies at least. I don’t usually bake but there was someone moving into the apartment across from me. Our building was only two floors so everyone was pretty close. I know Kayla and Don, who were in the room next to me, were making some wall hangings. Marie, the old lady living next to the vacant apartment, was probably going to make a flower arrangement.
I opened the oven to pull out the cookies. The aroma filled the apartment. I had to restrain myself from eating one too soon. My phone buzzed in my pocket and I pulled it out to see Kayla freaking out
Ok, I know I’m married but holy fuck. New guy is H O T.
I laughed at her excitement. She said that about almost every mildly attractive guy she wanted me to get with. More matchmaking attempts. She was 27 and thought that it was weird that I wasn’t married at 24. It’s not like she forced stereotypes on me but that’s just who she is. I grabbed the decorative plate I bought at the dollar store and arranged some of the cookies on it. After wrapping it in plastic, I went and knocked on his door.
I waited a few moments before the door swung open. He wore a plain red t-shirt with some black jeans. Dirty blonde hair swept to the side. Ok, Kayla was right this time. He was hot. His smile was beautiful and kind. I almost forgot to speak.
“Hi! I live across the hall and just wanted to welcome you to the building,” I said, handing him the cookies. He seemed to get a bit flushed and let out what sounded like a giggle. It was cute.
“Thanks. I really appreciate it. You’re like the third person who’s stopped by. I’m Patrick. You’re all so nice, it’ll suck to have to leave.” Leave? I guess he’s one of those people who have to move a lot.
“I’m (Y/N). Do you move around a lot for work?” His face dropped for a second but then he was back to smiling, though it seemed sad.
“Not work. It just always seems I can’t stay in one place for too long. Sucks but at least I get to meet a lot of people.” I nodded. Maybe he just had a bad case of wanderlust.
“I’d invite you in but it’s a mess right now. Thanks for the cookies. Snickerdoodles are always good,” he said. I smiled at him.
“Yea, no problem. I could help you unpack if you’d like. I know moving is a hassle.”
“Oh, no that’s ok. I can handle it. My friend is coming by later to help. Thanks for the offer.” He seemed to shrink back into the door. Maybe I overstepped the boundaries a bit.
“Alright, well I hope to see you at the barbeque this Saturday. It was great to meet you Patrick.”
“I’ll be there. Nice to meet you, too.” I turned and heard the door click shut. He seemed nice. I hope he stuck around.
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I killed some time by working on my novel. I was an editor for an online editing service. I worked on all types of things from school papers to business letters to creative stories. But my ultimate goal was to get something of my own published.
I glance at the clock on my laptop and it was close to six. I pulled myself off my couch and rummaged through the kitchen. Looks like it was leftover pasta tonight. I heated up a plate of spaghetti and flopped back down on the couch. This will forever be the best part about living alone. I turned the news back on and there was more coverage of the hospital murders. They now believed the two incidents were connected. I watched for a bit and then remembered I needed to get the mail.
I stepped out my door and noticed a Patrick and another guy talking at Patrick’s door. I couldn’t see the guys face but I bet that was the friend Patrick was talking about earlier. It seems I caught the tail end of their conversation.
“You gotta watch yourself, Patrick. The people around here are good. Try to not drag them into this.” Patrick had a serious look on his face. Much more closed off then earlier. He noticed me over his friend’s shoulder. I quickly averted my eyes and hurried to the stairs.
Way to make an impression…
I hurried over to my mail box in the entryway. I glanced through it briefly, noting the cell phone bill. The rest of it was adds and junk. I turned and ran into someone. It was a guy I hadn’t seen before. He had dark brown hair that was cut short and gelled up, olive skin and tattoos covering his arms. He was hot. This must be Patrick’s friend that I saw.
“I’m sorry. You startled me. I’ll just be going.” I tried to push past him but he wouldn’t budge.
“I’m Pete, Patrick’s friend. (Y/N), right? Patrick seems to like it here so far. He’s a good guy, too,” he said. This was a bit weird.
“Well he seemed like a good guy. I didn’t need you to tell me that. In fact, that just makes me question my judgement. Excuse me.” I pushed past him and he let me. He called to me as I started up the stairs.
“Be careful with him. He’s a bit troubled. Past relationships not ending well and all.” I blushed and hurried up the rest of the way. I hardly knew the guy. Why would his friend bring up relationships? Weird.
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Saturday came quickly. I only saw Patrick a couple times since he caught me eavesdropping. Not that I looked forward to seeing him or anything. I had knocked on his door to apologize and let him know it wasn’t my intention to be nosy but he never answered.
I pulled the baked mac n’ cheese out of the oven and set it on the counter to cool a bit before I brought it downstairs. I stared at myself in the bathroom mirror for a bit, trying to decide if I should wear makeup or not. Patrick said he was coming but who knows. Maybe I scared him off. I shook my head and settled for plain eyeliner. Why did I care what he thought anyway? I threw on my black tank top with dark blue shorts and black converse.
I rushed back to the kitchen and grabbed the still warm pan. I held the placemats under my arms and used my foot to open the door. Patrick stood there, looking like he was about to knock. He looked at me and chuckled a bit.
“Hey, Patrick. What’s up? Would you mind getting the door for me?” He nodded and closed my door.
“Here let me carry that for you. Sorry for laughing when I should have helped right away,” he said sheepishly. I let him take the pan from me and I shrugged my shoulders.
“Don’t worry about it. I’m sure it looked pretty funny,” I said, laughing. We headed down the stairs together and into the front lawn area. Everyone was there already and food was being set up. I signaled for Patrick to follow me and where to put the pan. I clapped my hands and took a breath. My part of planning was over.
“Want a beer? Or there’s some harder stuff by the ‘bar’ if you’re feeling adventurous,” I said. Patrick laughed a bit.
“Um, depends what kind of beer. If it’s shit then I’ll go straight to the whiskey,” he said. I rolled my eyes at him.
“Well then I guess you better get to the bar because Jack is in charge of beer and it’s usually the cheap stuff.” I never drank it myself because of that reason. Patrick and I headed over to the makeshift bar. I made myself a margarita and poured Patrick a glass of whiskey. He seemed to stick around me as we socialized. Girls would flirt with him and he would be as polite as he could. Kayla came up to me while a redhead had his attention.
“Soooo? You kissed him yet,” she whispered to me. I almost spit out my drink. Is she crazy?
“Of course not! I hardly know him. All I know is that past relationships haven’t ended well for him. He’s probably not even looking right now.” I glanced over at him. The redhead was really trying. It was sweet but it was easy to see Patrick wasn’t interested.
“Well he’s totally looking at you. He’s been hanging around you for the whole party. I could drop some hints to let him know to ask you out.” I shook my head at her. Patrick freed himself from the girl and hurried over to me.
“I may go hide out inside. I feel bad turning these girls down.” He laughed at himself a bit. Kayla threw an arm around me.
“You wouldn’t turn her down, would you? I mean, she’s beautiful and smart and-“ I pushed her off, laughing nervously. I can’t believe she actually did that.
“That would depend on (Y/N). I’d be more than happy to take you out sometime. As friends, of course.” I glared at Kayla and she skipped away. I turned back to Patrick.
“I’m sorry about that. She thinks that I need to go out more. I wouldn’t force you to take me out.” I chuckled but Patrick looked completely serious.
“You wouldn’t have to force me. Any guy would be lucky to have you in their company for a night.” He tucked a stray piece of hair behind my ear. I couldn’t help but blush and turn my head away.
“How’s Tuesday night sound?” I can’t believe this is actually happening. I smiled at him and nodded.
“I think I would like that a lot. Are we still going with the whole ‘just friends’ thing,” I asked? He chuckled and shook his head.
“I think I’ll let you know on Tuesday,” he said. Then he set his glass down and walked back into the building. I tried to keep the grin off my face but Kayla made sure to tell me that it was noticeable. So, I liked him. That wasn’t a crime. Besides, he was a good guy. Maybe he had a troubled past but that doesn’t make him crazy.
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Monday afternoon I sat at the local coffee shop, trying to fix a kid’s paper. They claimed it was a high school paper but it sounded like something a sixth grader would write. I was pointing out careless mistakes and even plagiarism. It seemed like the kid just wanted me to write the paper for him. I finished reading it through and emailed it back to him. I shut my laptop and put my head down. They can’t all be easy.
The chair across from me moved and I saw a pair of gym shoes. Lifting my head up, there was a guy. He looked like he hadn’t shaved in a week and hungover. A day drinker. Great. I tried to be polite.
“Can I help you with something?” I took a sip of my coffee.
“Now that you mention it, I would love to hang out with you somewhere more private. So we can get to know each other,” he said. He wasn’t even trying to be subtle about it. Creep.
“Sorry. Not interested.” I started to pack up my laptop but the creep grabbed my hand.
“But I could make it worth your while. We would get along so well,” he pleaded. I yanked my hand back.
“I said no. Get lost.” I pushed my chair back and stood up to get out of there as fast as possible. I heard his chair move and I glanced back to see him following me. Then I ran into someone.
“Patrick? What are you doing here,” I asked? I noticed Pete was with him and they both looked over my shoulder to the creepy guy following me. Patrick’s face darkened. It was a bit freaky. Like the night I first saw him with Pete. He pushed me behind him and confronted the guy.
“What do you want?” His voice wasn’t normal. It was cold and disconnected. Not the one he used with everyone at the apartments.
“Come on now. Ya can’t keep ‘er all to yourself.” He started slurring his words a bit. Patrick grabbed his shirt and shoved him back. He stumbled and fell. This had gone far enough.
“Get lost. She doesn’t want you,” Patrick said. Only it sounded more like a growl. I hurried over to him and grabbed his arm.
“Patrick, that’s enough. He gets the idea.” I tried to get him to face me but he wouldn’t budge. I walked in front of him. For a split second, I thought I saw yellow in his eyes. Maybe it was just a trick of the light.
The creep had pulled himself up and ran off, looking terrified. Patrick took a deep breath and relaxed. He smiled sadly at me.
“Hey, you ok?” His normal voice was back. Maybe I just imagined it all. I nodded. He looked relieved. Pete came over and slapped him on the back.
“What did I say about saving pretty girls from creeps? You gotta let me be the assistant at least.” Patrick rolled his eyes at him.
“Yea well, you can sometimes be one of the creeps that they need saving from,” he said lightheartedly. I chuckled at their back and forth banter. They were clearly close.
“Thanks for the help guys. But I do need to get going. I’ll see you tomorrow, Patrick. Pete, pleasure seeing you again.” They both said their goodbyes and I was on my way.
The rest of the night, I couldn’t get the way Patrick looked out of my head. He looked mad but it was more than that. Something not human. I know that it’s impossible. I suppose I could ask him about it tomorrow but that doesn’t seem like good first date talk. I also could come off as sounding crazy.
I let myself fall onto my bed. There was nothing to worry about. Yet there was this nagging feeling that something just wasn’t right. I pulled out my phone to look through social media and to get my mind off this feeling.
Within the first few posts, I learn that another body has been found. Another former criminal dead. Strangled and their neck broken. I tossed my phone down. Why couldn’t there be something good happening in the world? I crawled under my covers and let my eyes drift closed. I couldn’t tell exactly what I dreamed about. But it had something to do with the beautiful, sweet, and mysterious new neighbor.
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The day dragged. Patrick had texted me to wear something nice and that he’d be knocking on my door around five forty-five. I haven’t been on a real date in a while and I had no idea what to wear. I know he said “something nice” but what kind of nice? The someone died nice or party nice? I guess somewhere in between.
I pulled a crimson dress out of my closet. Kayla made me buy it for a date I was supposed to go on but then I was stood up. I pulled it over my head, pleased that it still fit. It fit me well and flared out at the bottom. It came down just above my knee. Long enough to be presentable, short enough to tease. I pulled on some black heels and threw a leather jacket over it. I let my hair fall naturally, hoping it would behave. There was a knock at the door and I glanced at the clock. If it was Patrick, he was about ten minutes early. I mean, I was ready, but I wouldn’t have time to mentally prepare. I hurried to the door and pulled it open. I saw the flowers first. Then I noticed who was behind them. I tried to shut the door but he stuck his foot in.
“Wait, (Y/N). I know you don’t want to see me but you have to hear me out.” My ex-boyfriend stood at the door. Ben. He dumped me for a rich airhead and when she stopped putting out, he came back to me. He was a dick and I can’t believe I ever loved him.
“No, I don’t. You made it very clear that you didn’t want me if I wouldn’t fuck you. And that hasn’t changed. So, get lost and shove those flowers up your ass.” He went to say something else but I slammed the door. He infuriated me. I considered sleeping with him but I am so happy that I didn’t.
I got some water to cool myself down. I hope he didn’t hang around. But knowing him, he would. He probably noticed that I was dressed nice and wants to pick a fight with whoever comes to the door. Patrick was supposed to be ready to go soon. I would go to him before the douche in the hall started something.
I grabbed my bag and opened the door just as Patrick was opening his. And sure enough, Ben was still here. He tried to talk to me but I pushed past him. Patrick took notice.
“Hey Patrick. You ready to go? I hope this is nice enough.” He looked at my outfit and smiled.
“You look beautiful. Breathtaking even.” He let his hand rest on my back to guide me. He wore dress pants with a grey button down. We didn’t get two steps before Ben stood in front of us.
“That’s my girl you’re touching. I suggest you go back inside before things get ugly.” He got right in Patrick’s face. Ben was a bit taller but Patrick didn’t look worried in the slightest. In fact, he smiled. I would not want to be on the receiving end of that one.
“You’re right. I’m sorry.” He turned to me. “We should just stay in tonight. I’ll cook. He turned and unlocked his door again, he pulled me inside and shut the door in Bens face. My mouth hung open for a moment before a smile broke out on my face.
“Holy hell. I can’t believe you just did that. That was amazing! Thank you, again.” I turned to him, laughing. But he had his head resting against the wall. Confused, I rested a hand on his shoulder. “Patrick? Are you ok?” He seemed to be breathing deeply. Then he straightened again and smiled at me.
“Yea, I’m alright. Just a bit of a head rush. Did the dick leave?” He looked out the peephole then opened the door. Ben was nowhere to be seen. “All clear if you still want to head out.” He scratched his head nervously. I rolled my eyes and stepped into the hallway with him. Before I could rethink, I kissed his cheek.
“Well you saved me from creepy guys twice now so I think it’s the least I can do,” I said. I thought I saw him blush but it was gone quickly. He offered me his arm and we were off.
He took us to this nice Cajun place. We had a corner booth to ourselves and everything was closed off. It was personal and I didn’t know how to act. Patrick ordered us wine. We talked about everything. From work to friends to family. We shared some tastes in music and clearly food. Of course, at the end of the night he wouldn’t let me see the bill.
“Patrick, this place is so nice. I couldn’t make you pay for the whole thing. Please just let me split the bill,” I begged. He just shook his head and handed the check back to the waiter with a credit card.
“I wanted to take you out. I wouldn’t have brought you here if I couldn’t afford to cover it.” I sighed and slumped down in defeat.
“Fine, but I will find a way to pay you back.” He grinned. And signed off on the check. We stood and as I was pulling my jacket on, I saw him throw a couple twenties on the table. I told myself to not think about it.
As he drove us back to the apartment, he asked about Ben. I ran a hand through my hair. I suppose it was a reasonable question. Considering Ben threatened him.
“He’s my ex. He broke up with me basically because I wouldn’t have sex with him. He was a jerk and I want nothing to do with him. But he’s always been possessive. I’m sorry he threatened you.” Patrick was silent for a moment.
“Well it doesn’t excuse his behavior but I can see why he’d be possessive. You’re a catch. Beautiful and smart and fearless.” He looked over at me and smiled. The sweeter stuff he said, the more this felt like a date. And definitely not as friends.
I grabbed my mail as we passed through the entryway. Patrick was the perfect gentleman and walked me all the way to my door.
“I had a really nice time tonight. I hope we can go out again,” he said as I unlocked my door, tossing the mail on the table just inside.
“I would love to go out again. Oh, and did you ever decide if this was just as friends or no?” I teased him and he just loosened his tie a bit. The act was innocent but it looked hot as hell.
“Honestly, I really hope we can be more than friends.” He took my hand and kissed it gently. How could a man be so perfect? He began to turn away and I rushed to say something.
“Do you want to come in? I have ice cream,” I said. I tried to keep my voice neutral but I’m sure the hopefulness came through. Patrick face me again.
“Why not? I’ve got time.” I stepped to the side so he could pass. I shut the door behind me and shrugged off my jacket. Patrick wandered around my living room, looking at pictures. I made my way over to the freezer and pulled out some vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup. I set them down on the table and went for the bowls. I turned and saw Patrick examining the ice cream.
“Not good enough for you? I have sprinkles if you need them,” I said as I set the bowls down. He laughed and set it down.
“No, this is fine. Was just checking how bad Andy was going to yell at me for cheating on a diet. He’s a good friend of mine. Loves working out and being healthy.” I nodded. I knew people like that. I dropped a couple scoops in and we made some light conversation.
“Hey, you got some chocolate on your face. Let me get it.” I almost jumped when his thumb ran over my bottom lip. I felt my face heat up but his hand was gone before I had time to enjoy it. He licked the chocolate off his own finger, never breaking eye contact with me. I thanked him and stood to put my dishes in the sink.
He came up behind me, placing a light hand on my waist. “Need help with anything,” he asked? I turned to him, his face inches from mine. I couldn’t believe what I was about to do.
“No. Thanks though. But you do have some chocolate on your face. I’ll get it for you.” He looked confused for a moment. Then I kissed him. I had surprised him and he didn’t respond at first. I pulled away after a few seconds. I blushed and turned away from his now hooded eyes.
I continued washing the dishes but when I went to put them away, he took them from me and trapped me against the counter. Then his mouth was on mine. It was soft but urgent. I wrapped my arms around him and his hands gripped my waist. I nibbled on his lip gently. He lifted me up onto the counter without me realizing at first. I pulled back from him for a moment.
“So, you’ve been hiding how strong you are, huh,” I joked. Then I took note of his eyes. They weren’t the normal bluish green but starting to shift into a deep yellow. “Patrick? What wrong with your eyes?” His face changed immediately. He turned his head away and was blinking rapidly. He stepped away from me and headed toward the door.
“I’m so sorry. I have to go. See you soon,” he rushed out. His voice had changed too. It was deeper. It was more like growling than talking, just like yesterday. I tried to stop him.
“Patrick, wait. Talk to me.” He shook his head and hurried out the door, slamming it behind him. Something was clearly wrong. Maybe I should just let him call me when he’s ready. I ran a hand through my hair and grabbed the mail off the end table. I sifted through it. Mostly junk. One thing did catch my eye though. It was Patrick’s name. I should bring this to him.
Maybe I was just looking for a reason to go over there and check on him, but I didn’t care. I changed into jeans and a black tank top and went to knock on his door. I could have slid it under but I needed to know he was ok.
“Patrick, it’s me. I have some of your mail. Please open the door.” There was no reply. I knocked again, more urgently this time. “Patrick. Please don’t hide from me.” There was a thud on the other side of the door. Now I was really worried. Then there was a voice.
“Please just go away. I don’t want to see you. It’s for your own good.” It sounded like Patrick but it wasn’t right. But one thing was certain, no one told me what was right for me. I was the only one that decided that. I pushed the door handle and was amazed that it opened. I shut the door behind me.
The apartment was dark. I walked a few feet in and saw a figure standing in front of the window, their back towards me. I took a couple cautious steps forward.
“Patrick?” My voice was almost too loud. A laugh rumbled out of his chest. It sounded almost crazy. Then he turned toward me. The only thing I saw, were his eyes. Bright yellow and staring right at me. Fear rose inside me but if this was Patrick, I had to help him.
“Oh, you should have listened to me. Well, the other me. The one who is so concerned with being nice and making a life.” He was suddenly in front of me. I could see him clearly now. This was Patrick. The only difference was the eyes and personality. He ran a hand down my face and I tried not to flinch.
“You are a glorious kisser by the way. How I wish the other me hadn’t stopped. Of course, I could just finish it now…” He trailed off and he started kissing my neck. I tried to shove him off but he was much stronger than me.
“Patrick, please… This isn’t you. Stop.” He shoved me against the wall and his fingers dug into my skin. “You’re hurting me, please… Patrick…” Suddenly he shoved himself away from me and held his head in his hands. He groaned in what sounded like pain.
“Damn bastard is actually fighting me. Finally grew some balls, huh? And all it took was a girl. God, he’s pathetic. I’m sure we’ll meet again, darling,” demon Patrick said. He threw a menacing grin at me before he fell to the ground.
I rushed over and kneeled next to him. I lifted his head to my lap and pet his head. He had a pained expression on his face. I sat with him for a couple minutes until he started to shift and groan. I moved the hair out of his face as his eyes fluttered open. They were back to their normal blue.
“Hey there. You ok? Don’t try to move too much,” I said softly. He ignored me and sat up almost instantly. He grabbed my shoulders and looked over me franticly.
“I didn’t hurt you, did I? Oh god, why didn’t you listen to me? Are you crazy?” His hands came up to rest on my face. I mimicked him.
“I’m alright. I promise.” He rested his head on mine and let out a sigh of relief.
“I could have really hurt you, (Y/N). And now I’m sure you never want to see me again. Don’t worry. I’ll get out of here as soon as possible.” He sat down and placed his head in his hands. I shook my head.
“I don’t want you to leave.” He looked up at me in shock. “No matter what you might think, I’m not afraid of you. You wouldn’t hurt me.” He shook his head.
“You don’t know that… I don’t have control when I’m… a monster…” he said sadly. “What did I do to you?” There was no point in lying to him. That wouldn’t help the situation.
“You told me that I should have listened. And that you wish you hadn’t stopped earlier. And then you kissed my neck and pushed me against the wall. Then I called out to you. And the real you came back.” He ran his hands through his hair and sighed.
“Fuck. I’m sorry. I heard you call to me. I fought harder than ever to wake up. But there is no guarantee that I’ll be able to do that every time,” he said.
“I trust you. And I want to help. I don’t want you to hide from me.” I thought I saw a tear slip down his face but I’m not sure. He nodded.
“But on that note. What the hell is going on?”
part 2






