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For Her. I love you, Momma! #Searsly #graduation #DenineSears #4Momma #HonoringHer #LookMomIDidIt #mothersday (at University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign)

[joeacollege]

This is proof that our genes are strong in my family! Check out this pic of my beautiful great aunt, Darleen (my grandfather's sister) and my beautiful mother! Crazy, right!? #FamilyHistory #genes #Searsly #DenineSears #DarleenGoldston

[joeacollege]

So, me and my Paw Paw are the same person. We even have the same lean to the side. Man, I wish he was here. #Searsly #genetics #DenineSears #RaffealSears

[joeacollege]

Today is my mother's 51st Birthday. I'm trying to figure out what I'm feeling at this moment. It's a bit confusing. It's been 8 years since she's been gone and I still have the desire to call her. The longing for her to be physically here is still present. My play is about to open this week. I'm extremely excited, but the experience is bittersweet; she's not here to watch me do what I love. Yeah, I know she's always with me, she can see my show (even in heaven), but ain't nothing like seeing her platinum blond hair, fire engine lipstick, and gigantic hooped earrings accenting her radiant smile in the audience. Ain't nothing like her tears cascading down her cheeks as she hugs me and tells me how proud she is of me. Ain't nothing like wiping away her tears and basking in her motherly presence. That woman was my everything: my best friend, my confidante, my cheerleader, my motivator, my rock, my muse, my protector, my comedienne, my heart. Though she now resides in heaven, ain't nothing like having her here, on earth, in my corner. Happy Birthday, Ma! I hope you are dancing among the stars. I'll look for you in my dreams until the day I'm called to see you face to face again. I love you and I miss you so much. Happy Birthday, Babe! I love you, Twon #Searsly #goodmourningRa #DenineSears #HappyBirthdayMa #Grief #Griefsucks #InMySolitude #missingher #mommasboy