#depression spike

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[lycorisblooms]

I am definitely not feeling very good rn so i’ll be chatty later.

[freeshooterxig]

/made the dumb choice of looking up some old interviews my grandfather did a few years ago. With my luck im probably never going to hear his voice again..

Tomorrow is not promised. No matter how hard or busy life gets make time for the people you care about...

[riz-the-huntress]

Sorry I havent posted a lot of original content recently. I’ve been in kinda a slump and today didnt help much. I think I’m going to take the rest of the night off from effort. I just want to be okay again.

See You Tomorrow

[everythingfallsintoplace]

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What am I supposed to do? I had a taste of perfection with you... I got to see what it was like to have someone droll over selfies, to see what it was like when I was made a number one priority. I got to smile in the morning after waking up to a message from you at 2am, just because you couldn't sleep and I was on your mind...I got cute messages saying how you missed me, how I was perfect in every way...you made me feel so damn special, like I somehow mattered in this fucked up world... I got to experience the stolen glances, looking at you and catching you smiling at me. I got to see what it was like in your arms and I never wanted to leave.... I had a little taste of heaven for those few months, and when I was with you it was like the sky opened up and there wasn't a cloud in sight, even on the rainiest of days... But then it left, you decided I wasn't it...the messages grew shorter, the caring messages suddenly went away...so now what do I do? I'm left with this new friendship, left telling myself you're not the one, that it was all a dream I've awoken from. I sit here, telling myself you don't mean what you say, that it's drunken words and I'll never hear those things from you, not really...because you don't mean them anymore, you don't want me anymore...And now...? Now how do I say I'm happy for you...? How do I tell you to go for it when all I want is to scream that I'm right here...? That I was the one all along...? I'm broken, old, used up. I'm not what you want anymore, and I'm sorry for whatever I did that changed it. I wish I could tell you this but I'm too damn scared to let it out because I don't want you upset with me...because truth is, you were never mine to begin with...that you stopped feeling the same in the beginning...and I hate myself for not seeing it, for being so stupid and believing that something like that was real...and I'm so scared now, because I had perfection. What if I never find it again...?

[group-from-the-nexus]

I'm going back to bed

[zandriaxchase]

In a bad head space today…

[queenbouty-blog]

I don't know what's up with me lately, but it needs to stop. Pretty dissapointed in myself. It's times like these I have to try my hardest not to pull away, and continue life as well as I have been the past few months.