a multi-muse hoyoverse based blog from Genshin Impact and Honkai Star Rail written and adored by Ven.
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A study in 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐜 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬, 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐣𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐮𝐩 𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬.
i. hey, i’m ven. she/they, 25+, est. this blog is open to all. i have a 40+ hour a week job with very odd hours, so my replies will be either queued or at odd times. everything will be tagged accordingly always. I do not follow first.
ii. i am pretty versed with honkai star rail, and I do play actively and I AM CAUGHT UP. (sobs bc that should have been me pointing the spear at luo.cha's neck....anyway) (i'm also fine giving out my UID if you want to add me). I'm less caught up on Genshin but I know everything because I watch everybody. however, I'm not going to pretend that I know everything, as I'm lore-searching like most people in hsr's/genpact's fandom. my take on each character is my take. let's share in the info, if you learn something that I don't know let me know! Just be nice :)
iii. goes without saying but don’t be fucking weird and we won’t have to have a conversation :) i encourage ic drama very much, but ooc drama is a big fucking no.
iv. i'm genuinely very socially anxious and introverted, so i promise i'm not being aloof. I am also traumatized and neurodivergent and due to recent situations, i've had to say this outright where I didn't really WANT to. If you cannot be understanding of any of the above, then we cannot be in contact with each other. I do not tolerate ableism from anyone and I do not TOLERATE my boundaries being pushed that I set down. If I block you, I can promise you I am not talking about you, and I am not badmouthing you or making people choose sides. As adults should, I let things go. Best you do the same.
v. hsr is very heavy on different themes, and explores things like war and death. i'm not going to sit here and pretend blade or jing yuan won't be intense because...iykyk. if you know hsr you know how he is. anything triggering will obviously be tagged, but just keep in mind that threads with him may explore darker themes.
He wanted to beg for forgiveness, for mercy, but he couldn't. All he could do was kowtow endlessly with his eyes. 𝐇𝐞 𝐗𝐮𝐚𝐧 slowly turned his gaze on him. For a fleeting moment, he seemed to have remembered something. He calmed and stopped. The sight was like a ray of hope, and 𝐒𝐡𝐢 𝐐𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐧 let out a breath of relief. The tears welling in his eyes finally rolled down his cheeks. But before he could speak, he heard 𝐇𝐞 𝐗𝐮𝐚𝐧's cruel reply.
no, you cannot fix Blade. You can certainly allow him to exist as is but he will never be that super affectionate not complex untraumatized husbando. however, he will love you endlessly. in this essay i will -
“ In my defense, I simply do not vibe with the law. ” @ stelle
"Of course you don't, why would you?" Stelle is laughing, leaning back against the wall as she's been speaking with the others. Of course, Sampo has decided that her business is suddenly his. Not that she really truly MINDS anymore.
ASKBOX PROMPTS OF ASSORTED QUOTATIONS THAT I HAVE FOUND WHILE MAKING BOARDS FOR MY MUSES ON PINTEREST
CHANGE gendered words if necessary.
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“ Something in me wants more. I can’t rest. ”
“ The sword of destiny has two edges. You are one of them. ”
“ I don’t want worship. I want understanding. ”
“ Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing. ”
“ The truth is, I pretend to be a cynic, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something that she may never get. ”
“ Your heartbeats set the rhythm for my heart. ”
“ Because you feel like home to me. That’s why I love you. ”
“ I feel my soul drawn to you. ”
“ I have for the first time found what I can truly love. I have found you. ”
“ I felt there was no point in telling anyone anything that was happening inside me. ”
“ The world either breaks or hardens the heart. ”
“ Am I supposed to be grateful to have survived this? ”
“ You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering. ”
“ It bothers me that no one has the patience to deal with someone who is just sad. ”
“ I have never understood where the line is drawn, between sacrifice and self-slaughter. ”
“ Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It only hurts. ”
“ The past beats inside me like a second heart. ”
“ My soul and yours are the same. You appear in me, I in you. We hide in each other. ”
“ You are always haunted by the idea that you have been wasting your life. ”
“ I am not cruel — only truthful. ”
“ No one wearing a crown comes in the name of peace. ”
“ I am starved for tenderness and that is what is the matter with me and has been for months. ”
“ You? What could one more splash of blood mean to you? ”
“ Can you hate someone for what they have done, but still love them for whom they had been? ”
“ I'm sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel. ”
“ I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you. ”
“ I am not merciful, and I am not kind, and l am not afraid to make you wish that I was. ”
“ It does me no good; violence has changed me. ”
“ So heartless, yet so full of feelings. ”
“ You blossom under kindness, don't you? Like a rose. ”
“ All suffering originates from craving, from attachment, from desire. ”
“ I look at you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you. ”
“ Forgive me, for all the things I did but mostly for the ones that I did not. ”
“ Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. ”
“ "Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there's no room for the present at all. ”
“ We all romanticize the people we adore. ”
“ I've lived too long with pain. I won't know who I am without it. ”
“ If you know too much, you’ll get old too soon. ”
“ Cowardice is the most terrible of vices. ”
“ I am tired of being brave. ”
“ I have survived. I am here. Confused, screwed up, but here. ”
“ There isn't always an explanation for everything. ”
“ Everything will turn out right, the world is built on that. ”
“ People do not see you. They invent you and accuse you. ”
“ Never have I dealt with anything as difficult as my own soul. ”
“ You are a woman marked for sorrow. ”
“ Rise up, then. Mend your ways, start seeing what you are instead of calculating what you should become. ”
“ Stop punishing yourself for being someone with a heart. You cannot protect yourself from suffering. To live is to grieve. You are not protecting yourself by shutting yourself off from the world. You are limiting yourself. ”
“ Very early in my life it was too late. ”
“ I want to change. I want to stop fear’s subtle guidance of my life. ”
“ You misinterpret everything, even the silence. ”
ASSORTED QUOTES PULLED FROM TUMBLR POSTS, PINTEREST POSTS, AND SONGS.
CHANGE gendered words and in-universe phrases as needed.
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“ Half of seeming clever is learning when to keep your mouth shut. ”
“ I don’t understand … what exactly are you doing? ”
“ Fun isn’t something I’m particularly familiar with. ”
“ I will be gentle with your heart — I promise. ”
“ You are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known. ”
“ If we beat ourselves up after a mistake, we add shame onto the guilt and frustration that we already feel about our mistake. ”
“ Your pain is safe with me and I will stay with you longer than your sorrows if you let me. ”
“ I am broken, and full of contradictions. ”
“ We cannot afford avoiding the fight for growth and understanding, even when that fight is as painful as it’s bound to be. ”
“ At the moment, I am quite busy tearing down who I once was. ”
“ You have to challenge yourself, and keep learning new things. ”
“ I implore you — it’s time to come back from the dark. ”
“ You’re dangerous, but you lack ambition. ”
“ I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. I even fooled myself. ”
“ You will miss so much by being guarded. ”
“ What is destructive is impatience, haste, expecting too much too fast. ”
“ I know what it feels like to lose someone you love. ”
“ By all means break the rules, and break them beautifully and deliberately and well. ”
“ We can't do whatever we want. There are ways we have to act. There are things we have to say. But we can think whatever we want. ”
“ I think I love nearly everyone I have ever met. ”
“ It is the destiny of stars to collapse. ”
“ I belong to you. ”
“ What I was before wasn’t good for me. ”
“ Leave me to my own absurdity. ”
“ I have such trust in you, my heart. My dear, dear heart. ”
“ I’m restless and harsh and despairing. ”
“ You can be better than this. ”
“ I am not arrogant; I simply know my place. It’s quite far above yours. ”
“ Should I regret what I became, or should I regret what I didn’t become? ”
“ You are too nostalgic; you want memory to secure you, console you. ”
“ I am afraid to experience what I don’t understand — I always want the guarantee of at least thinking that I understand. ”
“ My heart is too good to be silent. ”
“ The quiet of the night is astonishingly beautiful. ”
“ When a person tells you that you hurt them, you don’t get to decide that you didn’t. ”
“ I knew who I was this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then. ”
“ It’s frightening that there’s no guarantee you’ll be loved. ”
“ I think too deeply about everything. I still don’t know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it. ”
“ The truth is messy. It's raw and uncomfortable. You can't blame people for preferring lies. ”
“ See, forgiveness doesn't happen all at once. It's not an event―it's a process. ”
“ You must walk alone to find your soul. ”
“ I like flaws. I think they make things interesting. ”
“ People can easily forget that others are human. ”
“ By one act, I have ruined everything. ”
“ My bloodline is irrelevant to my value. ”
“ Everyone says forgiveness is a lovely idea, until they have something that they need to forgive. ”
“ Who are you to judge me? ”
“ Poets — they can be soldiers, too. ”
“ I’m afraid to let go. ”
“ People can’t feel truly loved if they don’t feel seen for who they truly are. ”
“ Grief always grows back. ”
“ Maybe lying is itself a kind of art. ”
“ What thing worthy of love can be found in me? ”
“ I don't know anything anymore. Is that normal? Is it normal for someone to just go blank? ”
“ This was always going to happen. ”
“ I found with you a life force that I thought I’d lost. ”
“ I fear I will be ripped open and found unsightly. ”
“ We cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever. ”
“ If a poem hasn’t ripped apart your soul, you haven’t experienced poetry. ”
“ My life has changed, and I’m changing with it. ”
“ Things are sweeter when they’re lost. ”
“ How foolish we are to believe that we are more powerful than the sea or the sky. ”
“ Grief is really just love. It’s all the love that you want to give, but cannot. ”
“ They think that I’m purely decorative, and they’re fools for not knowing better. ”
“ Isolation is a way to know ourselves. ”
“ How many people am I? Who am I? ”
“ I learned a lot about being a friend when I was alone. ”
“ Stories make us more alive, more human, more courageous, more loving. ”
“ I love you, but I cannot survive you. ”
“ Shame keeps us stuck. It’s a paralyzing emotion. ”
“ I am, at present, wrestling with my own private angels. ”
“ You’re looking for this wonderful thing that you may never get. ”
“ If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life. ”
“ Come on; dance with me. ”
“ If it’s darkness we’re having, let it be extravagant. ”
“ You don't always need to be getting stuff done. Sometimes it's perfectly okay, and absolutely necessary, to shut down and do nothing. ”
“ What would you ask for, if you knew that the answer would be yes? ”
“ Love is also a violence, and it cannot be undone. ”
“ Some things are more precious because they don’t last long. ”
“ You are afraid to die, and you are afraid to live. ”
“ I do understand — and it is terrible. ”
“ How do you become so empty? Who takes everything out of you? ”
“ I can’t abandon the person that I used to be. ”
“ Strength is what I want. Strength not to endure, I have that and it has made me weak — but strength to act. ”
“ I want everything back the way it was. But there is no point, this wanting. ”
“ My guilt will not purify me. ”
“ I guess I thought that by now, I’d be done with shame. ”
“ My father and I are more alike than I’d care to admit. ”
“ I am not asking. I’m begging — please. ”
“ It was a long time ago. It doesn’t matter anymore. ”
“ You people do not understand me, and I am afraid that you never will. ”
“ Endure what you deserve. ”
“ I pity the dark life that you live. ”
“ Don’t be the sort of person who needs to be held. ”
“ I am beginning to despair and can only see two choices: go mad, or go holy. ”
“ We are enemies linked together. ”
“ What lived and died between us haunts me still. ”
“ Betrayal already points to love. You can’t betray an acquaintance. ”
“ The dead only return for love or for revenge. Which did you come back for? ”
“ Every version of the story ends with you being slaughtered. ”
“ How can I ask anyone to love me, when all I can do is beg to be left alone? ”
“ If I didn’t think, I’d be much happier. ”
“ We are nothing more or less than what we choose to reveal. ”
“ How dangerous to finally have something worth losing. ”
“ Peace was never an option. ”
“ I will not water myself down to make my suffering more digestible for you! ”
“ Talent is insignificant. I know a lot of talented ruins. ”
“ Beyond a certain point, there is no return. ”
“ Anger is hard to ignore. ”
“ It is a fire that consumes me, but I am the fire. ”
“ Broken girls blossom into warriors. ”
“ I don’t know if I believe in rage as something always acting in opposition to tenderness. I believe, more often, in the two as braided together. ”
“ But it was too much. All of it was too much. ”
“ Time just gets away from us. ”
“ I’d rather live with a tender heart, because that is the key to feeling the beat of all the other hearts. ”
“ I’m afraid he’s going to hurt me. ”
“ The core of me is untouched. ”
“ I must have been very hard for him to love. ”
“ I understand now that I'm not a mess, but a deeply feeling person in a messy world. ”
“ Why couldn't people's insides match their outsides? The world would be such a wonderful place if the nicer someone was, the more beautiful they became. ”
SENTENCE STARTERS FROM VARIOUS SOURCES FOR PLATONIC DYNAMICS, ROMANTIC DYNAMICS, AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN.
CHANGE gendered words and in-universe phrases as needed.
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“ If I had a flower for every time I thought of you…I could walk through my garden forever. ”
“ You are my fate. ”
“ I'm not whole without you. You are life itself to me ”
“ You mean so much to me that sometimes I don’t know how to handle it. ”
“ Even before I was touched, I belonged to you. ”
“ We are more than friends; we are family. ”
“ We’ll protect each other. ”
“ Blood makes you related. Loyalty makes you family. You’re my family. ”
“ I want so badly to protect you from the world because I know how bad it can be. ”
“ I promise I will find you in every universe. ”
“ I’ve always wanted to live a fairytale, and you have written one for me. ”
“ When I fall in love, I fall to pieces. ”
“ I love you. I’m not just here for the pretty parts — I’m here for you no matter what. ”
“ Something about you makes me feel alive. ”
“ You will never be unloved by me; you are too well tangled in my soul. ”
“ We’re in this together. ”
“ It’s you. It’s always been you. ”
“ I have loved you since we were children. ”
“ I don’t want to have the world’s attention. Yours is enough. ”
“ I broke my rules for you. ”
“ What I have with you, I don’t want with anyone else. ”
“ You have a place in my heart that no one else can claim. ”
“ I’ve been dreaming about you my entire life! ”
“ I’d choose you. Every single time. ”
“ You and me? It’s a forever kind of thing. ”
“ My soul will always find yours. ”
“ If only you knew just how completely and devoutly I worship you. ”
“ I love you with all the broken, blood-stained pieces of me. ”
“ I am your sword, your shield, and your lovesick protector. ”
“ For you, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do. ”
“ Your subconscious seeks me. ”
“ Sleep. I’ll fight the bad dreams off if they come to get you. ”
“ I don’t think you understand the effect that you have on me. ”
“ You saved me in every way a person could be saved. ”
“ Come back. Come back to me. ”
“ You would not believe me if you knew how often you are in my heart and mind. ”
“ Everywhere I go leads me back to you. ”
“ You are so adorable when you’re angry. ”
“ No, I am not angry. I know your thoughts. Your heart is better than your head. ”
“ I condemn you. Yet my heart yearns for you. ”
“ Whatever our souls are made of, yours and mine are the same. ”
“ My heart is, and always will be, yours. ”
“ I’m obsessed. I’m addicted. I will gladly cross every single line if it means making you mine. ”
“ I am so proud of you. You’ve been so brave. ”
“ The love you have in you is the kind of love that will vigorously shake the world. It is also the kind love that heals all wounds and save souls. And I am tremendously in need of it. ”
“ If I know what love is, it is because of you. ”
“ I will look for you in every lifetime, until we finally stay. ”
“ You will find me when you return, even if you're a thousand years late. ”
“ When it was dark, you always carried the sun in your hand for me. ”
“ Having a soulmate is not always about love. You can find your soulmate in a friendship too. ”
“ I have loved you in every life, I think. ”
“ The way to love someone is to lightly run your finger over that person’s soul until you find a crack - and then gently pour your love into that crack. ”
“ I still remember you as a little girl who overwaters plants because she doesn't know when to stop giving. ”
“ You are dear to me. I don't want to let you go, and I won't give you up. ”
“ I'll tell every one in the world that you are the only one that matters. ”
“ The world was made so that we could find each other in it. ”
“ Friends are the family you choose. ”
“ You and only you, can make the rest of my life peaceful. ”
“ I don't want soft or subtle. I want rough, wild, heartache, I want sins, I want you. ”
“ I think I wished for you all my life. ”
“ How could I ever hate you, when all I know is you? ”
“ It doesn't matter who my father was; it matters who I remember he was. ”
“ You did something for me I couldn’t do for myself. You loved me for who I am. ”
“ I long for you. I really, utterly long for every bit of you. ”
“ You are part of my existence, part of myself. You have been in every line that I have ever read. ”
“ You are beyond all the worlds that I have ever known. ”
“ I will forget my name before I forget you. ”
“ No human being has ever stood so close to my soul as where you stand. ”
“ I always have such need to merely talk to you. ”
“ I waited for you my entire life, and you are worth every minute. ”
“ Family means that no one gets left behind or forgotten. ”
“ We both know that he means the world to you. Why are you afraid to tell him that? ”
“ You can become homesick for people, too. ”
“ The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love and be loved in turn. ”
“ She’s my sister; she needs me. ”
“ Never sacrifice your family, your heart, or your dignity. ”
“ Whatever you do, you’re still my brother. ”
“ My identity rests solely and firmly on this: I am my mother’s daughter. ”
“ Family is supposed to be our safe place. ”
“ The warmest light is your body. ”
“ Forgive me for my love — for ruining you with my love. ”
“ "Family" isn't defined only by last names or by blood; it's defined by commitment and by love. ”
“ I beg of you — let us aside our differences, and see each other as our family. ”
“ You are my treasure, my pale gold, the heart of my heart. ”
“ It is too late to turn you out of my heart. Part of you lives here. ”
“ I don’t care; I love you anyhow. ”
“ I shall do one thing in this life — one thing certain — this is, love you, and long for you, and keep wanting you till I die. ”
“ I think I missed you all my life until you finally showed up. ”
“ Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in things we do for each other every day. ”
“ You bring me peace that I haven’t found anywhere else. ”
“ Remember, no matter how foolish your deeds, those who love you will love you still. ”
“ This morning I’m ambitious, proud, energetic and very madly in love with you. ”
“ You give me joy that few men know. ”
“ I suppose that I am too enamored by you anyway. Every time I see you I get more so if it is possible. ”
“ I just want to relax in your arms. ”
“ I never stopped looking for you. I never gave up hope that you were alive. ”
“ I wish I could be as strong as you. ”
“ It’s okay. Everything is going to be okay. I promise. ”
“ The ones that love us never truly leave us. ”
“ The right people fight for you. ”
“ When we heal ourselves, we heal the next generation that follows. Pain is passed through the family line until someone is ready to feel it, heal it, and let it go. ”
“ Even if you fall or falter, I will be with you. ”
“ I’ll always want you more than anyone. You’ll always matter to me more than anyone. ”
“ Anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves. ”
“ Perhaps we were friends first and lovers second. But then perhaps this is what lovers are. ”
“ I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby. ”
“ I love you. I knew it the minute I met you. ”
“ You didn’t break me. You helped fix me. ”
“ It’s nice when someone remembers the smallest of details about you. ”
“ Ever since I met you I want you by my side. ”
“ There's no better feeling than to be here with you. ”
“ When we work together, we are unstoppable. ”
“ Whatever I need, I have when I'm with you. ”
“ I’ve loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you. ”
[So, I know this Dis.cord scam has been going around for a while, but I finally got one. I didn't click anything (or really get sent anything except the screenshot of whatever it says) but I had to share because it was too funny. Here's the scam shit they send:
As I said, I recognized the tactic. Plus, I hadn't spoken to this person since 2018, let alone played games as they seem to suggest with them or had any contact with them in any groups, on here where I think we met based on past convos, or anything. So yeah. You all know this is a scam and this is a reminder.
But it got better. I sent a response of my own while they were "typing":
I waited a few minutes to send the next one. But that reply had me ROLLING. They really tried to make it seem REAL. Then immediately blocked. Which...no skin off my nose. Like I said, I wasn't in contact with this person anymore. But yeah...if you get one of these messages from someone, just cut them off and tell them you know. And then clown on 'em if you want like I did.
EDIT: feel free to reblog to spread the word around! I don't mind.]
“ Women have to think I’m hot or none of this matters. ” hi sunday c:
HALOVIAN siblings are often close, and ROBIN is no exception to the elder. His BELOVED sister, the pride and joy of THE FAMILY. From the moment that she came into the world, his heart was meant for one thing only: protecting HER. Being the voice of reason, but especially protecting her. He was her greatest fan, her greatest SUPPORTER. May the HEAVENS fall on anyone who should destroy his little sister.
Elegant GOLDEN eyes of a HAWK, normally unable to be read, are alight with mirth as he looks up from the paperwork he’s currently combining for the CHARMONY festival. “Sister, I am sure no matter what you do, women will ‘find you hot’.” He wasn’t about to understand, but if that was important to her, he would make sure her plans came to fruition somehow, though he wasn’t sure how he’d help in THAT regard.
“ Currently considering becoming a bother and a nuisance, maybe even a menace or a rascal. ” @ kaveh
Perhaps if it were anyone else, he might have been curious and annoyed. However, this is not who it is. This is Sampo, this is his beloved, and his behavior is something that the BIRD OF PARADISE has found to be almost amusing. LAUGHTER bubbles in the man’s throat, sliding his arm around Sampo’s waist.
He really does have a small waist, fingers find small give in a hip window. “What happened now? It’s probably valid but…” Laughs.
“Someone, somewhere has failed you miserably. You were supposed to be loved, protected and cared for but you never were.“ slaps this down for Blade
There is a short and solid pause, the way that BLADE pauses as he stares at the woman. Of course she’s right. Of course she is. Someone has failed him. AMBER is cold fire, staring. He hated how easily that idea could be read from him.
Indeed, he can name every person that has failed him. [ The SINNER, the SCION. The SCION…. ] Anger burns like a flame in his heart. How dare she mention it. How DARE she bring it up. YINGXING has long passed, betrayed by THE SCION. He ought to destroy that one with his own hands.
Hands grip the sword, pointing it at the woman with ill intention burning in his eyes. “Who are you to say anything about how I was supposed to be treated?! Who are you to say anything! You weren’t there!” You didn’t see the way she BURNED out. You weren’t PROMISED to make things better, to bring back his BELOVED SISTER. The FOXIAN PILOT. Eyes narrow.