I'm sorry for such a down and sullen post, especially during pride.... but the truth is depression and mental health struggles don't care what time of year it is, or how badly you just want to be happy.... please don't take this as me excepting defeat, nothing could be further from the truth.... I've got a summer full of memories to make with my Sons, and collabs to look forward to, Tutorials to film.... A GIVEAWAY to plan.... and a REALLY important project with my son to film, edit, and upload to my YouTube channel.... I cant even begin to explain how scared but ready I am to share my story with the world. I hope it helps people.... All I have ever wanted to do is help people.... To live a good life, be a good person, good mother, good friend.... But we all have a breaking point, and sadly when I broke, there was no net.... before I even had a chance to understand what was happening to me I was lost in a world so dark, it seemed impossible to break free from.... it rips my heart out to think about all of the people still lost in that darkness, drowning in shame, and stuck in the cycle of fear and self-loathing.... I cant say I have all the answers or even have it all figured out.... But what I do KNOW unequivocally!! Is that recovery IS possible, LASTING sobriety IS possible.... I pray so hard people will find hope in my story.... But that is still a little ways off.... I definitely still have alot of work to do &I am SO DETERMINED to find my way through this, it's just really hard when your fighting alone.... there are days like today when it gets so dark that the sadness is actually suffocating... the feeling of being pulled down, and the fear of losing control again is beyond terrifying... on days like today when I am feeling especially fragile, and begin to recognize those horribly toxic thought patterns... it is SO important to stay present, speak your truth, stay accountable, find outlets, and continue to work towards your happyness... thats all we can really do... Thank you for listening,Love you guys!! 💋 #itsoknottobeokay #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #depressionisnotachoice #hopeinstruggle #onedayatatime #yourlifematters #mylifematters (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQPWn4zp0Z3/?utm_medium=tumblr