On the road for work again and honestly, I’m just exhausted. Sometimes I think that I’m “better” and completely “well” but that’s just not true. I’m better than I was for sure, so much better, but it’s still a long road. My sleep is still all over the place. I only have so much I can achieve in a day, and right now, getting my food right isn’t on that list even though I desperately want it to be. The list at the moment really is: basic hygiene, get to work to earn the money so that bills can be paid, spend time with my 3 boys. And that’s it. I want to add to the list: self care, exercise, reading, eating nutritious foods. But like I said the other day, it all just feels too much. And so, I’m going to keep it real simple. A day at a time. Focusing on eating only when I’m hungry, and eating mindfully. Moving my body just a little bit more by parking a little bit further away. Showing myself a hint of the compassion I give to others. I knew surgery wouldn’t be a magic fix to all of the things in life I’m working on, but I also know part of me hoped it would be. #vsg #reallife #depressionrecovery https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbqaj5QhKb7/?utm_medium=tumblr
