i remember how i lived for 4 years loving a boy who didn't love me back and my life was bearable and it was like this because i was curious, i was continuously descovering new things, new people, i was full of hope.
and the depression was always with me. before you, before that boy, before everyone. it's something i lived with all my life.
and i remember another thing: i was amazing before you, i was so fucking amazing. i let myself be defined by you. i thought that the best thing about me is you, your love and our relationship. bullshit. i always told you that the fact that i'm in a relationship doesn't define me, but i started to define myself like this. i was amazing before you, before him, before that boy, before everyone.
so baby, get your shit together. depressed, fucked up, loving someone you have no chance with, but get your shit together, the bad (the worse) and the good you have in you and fucking live your life. childish, adultish, in between-ish, pink, black, blue, however the fuck you want, switch them, idc, just live, cause there's nobody who's gonna live your life.