Time was like a rock bed with a lot of layers, she said, then took a moment to find the word she wanted: strata. Even the most unbearable things became fossils, after a while.
— Patrick Ryan, Buckeye: A Novel (Random House, September 2, 2025)
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Time was like a rock bed with a lot of layers, she said, then took a moment to find the word she wanted: strata. Even the most unbearable things became fossils, after a while.
— Patrick Ryan, Buckeye: A Novel (Random House, September 2, 2025)
🎱🍓 🌵🕯️ Hii I got into uni!! this was my first week and id say it was nothing short of pure and unadulterated hell.
Awww, baby's first college semester. You're doing amazing sweetie! It only gets better worse from here! :D
🎱 - post your AO3 total stats.
Oh, wow. Going straight for my jugular, are you? Alright, you beast.
I am ONE off from getting the funniest possible number. Nice.
🍓 - how did you get into writing fanfiction?
I've been into writing as long as I can remember, tbh. Back in middle and high school, I was one of those freaks that GENUINELY enjoyed writing essays for class (back when profs didn't ask for 10 scholarly resources and 8 page minimums, sigh) (true story, that paper was hell). I still enjoyed writing my college essays once I got a flow going tho, and, actually, I am CONSTANTLY under threat of enjoying writing anything. I deadass just love the act of writing.
How I got into FANFICTION specifically was through roleplay, I think. My friend and I had a greek gods roleplay going on, and we were REALLY into it, enough for me to wanna write it. That opened the gateway for my first ever ninjago fanfic, and then the rest is history :P
🌵 - share the link to a playlist you love.
Not to flex on main, but I'm pretty fond of my Ed playlist. My sweet, darling, depressed sunflower boy <3
🕯️ - on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? Why is that?
Answered.
Enchantment, even for a day, can make a whole life bearable.
-- Larry Colker
(Aesch, Switzerland)
The more that's revealed about Sephiroth's story...and the more I look back on my edgy journal writings from childhood to adulthood, the more vindicated I feel about how right I was about us being "the same."
We were both sad, lonely, maladjusted kids aged by traumas. Only, I had friends and family who kept me grounded. And that's the major difference between us.
I had my mother (who I love more than my father at that...not that I hate my dad), but he did not. I had my friends, but his were gone.
And the fact that Lucrecia was just out there wallowing in her own guilt made the lack of having his human mother in his life all the more painful for the tragedy that was his character.
"He never should have been evil. He should have been an antihero"--that sentiment comes from anguish over Sephiroth's fate rather than something that would have been best for the game. (Though I do think anti-hero Seph would have been more interesting since he could have challenged Cloud and the others more over "fighting for the planet" and what that really meant in the grand scheme of life's harsh reality, but I digress).
It hurts to watch...because being in that much silent emotional anguish is like a black hole you don't escape unless you have others giving you hope for better, and he just didn't because, for Sephiroth, hope did not exist anymore after his discoveries in Nibelheim.
And once a person loses sight of hope, there's no helping or saving them.
"I know exactly how he felt, and it hurts that he suffered and had to die for a reality he never asked for. God...do I know how that feels. If only we could have been friends. If only we had been friends...because not being alone might have saved him."
(Note: This is before Angeal and Genesis ever existed. And even after they came into the picture, it never shook me of the feeling that "Sephiroth needed better friends.")
i've been lightly diseased for the past few days and i think i might be developing a fever which doesn't feel great i'll tell you that
What's yours?
In order not to find life unbearable, you must accept two things: the ravages of time and the injustices of man.
Nicholas Chamfort
She had studied the universe all her life, but had overlooked its clearest message: For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love.
Carl Sagan