#desperation tag

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so if we won’t get buckynat in the What if...? season 2 do not despair, my people, they already announced a season 3!

We could get disappointed not once, but twice! yeeeek

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Once upon a time back in March a photographer friend of mine said I’d look good in b/w pics. Just a therapy post about not being afraid to show my face.

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for honesty hour: one biggest regret and one biggest achievement?

Biggest regret - I’ve fucked up something wonderful this year and hurt someone wonderful in a way that’s probably irreparable. Biggest achievement - I have an awesome job that gives me enough money to have nice things in my life and leaves enough time and energy to do important things. This job has nothing to do with art. I’ve realized that sometimes a good answer to ‘what do you want to be when you grow up’ is ‘well-paid for my efforts’. 

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Hey sweet friend! So good to see you about 💕 What's a goal you have for 2018? And what's one of your favorite indulgences?

Heeey you cute little fruitcake you! Always good to see you too! I’m often lurking here and watching out for you and all that ) 

for the answer - my big goal is to move. To another country. To Greece, in fact. To Athens, to be more particular. I have just enought to buy a small apt. there. Flats are cheap as dirt in Athens. I’ve already started learning Greek. I can say ‘a pretty letter omikron’ and know a few pick-up lines for bars. What else do you need to live on, right? But before I go, my other, smaller goal, is to have a little exhibition. I don’t really believe I will, but a gallerist friend of mine offered, so I should believe they have good taste.  And my fave indulgence is designer clothes. Vintage, esp. Or catching something really awesome on sale. Like, I got an original vintage Etro bag a month ago. I still get turned on when I put it on my shoulder.

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Best fanfiction read this year? If you read fanfiction :-)

Ooh, I DO read fanfiction, lots of it. I used to read a lot of Fantastic Beasts fanfics in the beginning of the year, but can’t think of anything that struck me as best-best-best. I’ve read quite a few fics in Russian this year, some were fantastic, I think they are the best I’ve read this year, although the name of the fandom probably won’t tell you anything, the canon is in Russian.

I’ve also reread the Starless Road by @emilyenrose it’s one of my go-to fics in the moments of despair and one of the best fics I’ve read as well.

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hello friend! i've missed you a lot! anyway, what is one of the happiest things that happened to you this year?

Hello, my friend. I missed you too, so very much, all of you, in fact. I’m still quietly stalking y’all’s twitters and get happy and sad with your lives’ ups and downs. As for your question, I got divorced. It’s also one of the saddest things, too. And I also fell in love. And that is also one of the saddesed things.

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I might be late for honesty hour, but hi! I'm a bit of a shy lurking fan of your works and I also follow you in IG! How will you celebrate New Year?

Heeey-heey! So good to hear from you and thank you! Please don’t be shy, I really appreciate your support and cheer, it helps me through a lot )

I think I also know you on IG )) always nice to see posts from you on my dash there )

as for New year, I’m cooking tiramisu for tomorrow, I have prosecco and I’m going to start on it tonight. In the morning we’re going to go snow-tubing, then I’m going to get faced with a few people I love, fire up all the fireworks we have, drink more champagne if I’m still capable and fall face down into some salad or canape dish and sleep )) 

I hope you have a great night as well and Happy New Year to you!

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What are you most looking forward for 2018?

Oh, I think to moving and to moving on from a few things that bit me in the ass in 2017 )) actually, I’m just looking forward to 2018 in general. 

Happy New Year to you, friend and anyone who reads that as well )