hi again! no prob :3 thank YOU for making it and thank you to chasingfictions for making a hell of a connection. i was wondering -- because back when i made edits (different blog different (pre-covid) times) i would usually analyze the heck out of whatever text i was using to compare to the characters.
what was your thought behind the line "the best that i could offer was to miss your calls"? because we have miss (not intercept)/ miss (to feel the absence of), were you using one definition, both? the best that i could give you was to disappear? the best that i could give to you (while pushing you away) was to feel your absence acutely, to wish you were with me completely and i with you the same way?
not necessarily expecting you to have an answer- once again, just curious. and i think that the ambiguity of the dream sequence also goes perfectly with the ambiguity of that line. "the best i could do was to pull away, to not listen when you called my name" "the best i could do was to love you, even as i tried to tear you apart" which really doesn't that describe them? buffy, begging faith to let her in. faith, running with all her might and hoping buffy will keep reaching for her all the same.
(also "the most that i could give to you was nothing at all" as a line for faith makes me absolutely insane -- but also as a line for buffy. because these two met at a time where they were both so freshly traumatized that reaching out all the way to touch the other (metaphorically speaking) wasn't possible for either of them. the tragedy that if they had just reached a little further the other could have seen how loudly they cared.)
hi again! first of all, please know that your ask destroyed me in the best way possible - "the best i could do was to love you, even as i tried to tear you apart". help.
@chasingfictions said:
oooh ok i love that ask -- personally i was thinking of it in a like, literally not receiving her calls sense? fuffy phone calls are a True and Real trope to me mostly bc of alittlebitmaybe my beloved's fuffy fic (https://archiveofourown.org/works/29335587), and that made me incorporate it into my own faith series. like there's something about faith and buffy orbiting each other so closely for a year straight but never being quite on the right alignment to meet in the middle. and then when buffy stabs faith it's like she knocks them both out of that orbit. they were once face to face so close they were almost fusing into one person and now the closest they have is continually missing each other by just a little bit each time -- meeting in dreams. meeting face to face but then immediately swapping bodies and separating again. reuniting after that in LA but they can't see each other as they truly are in that moment because there's too much between them. reuniting again in season 7 after years of disconnect and it's simply not what it was -- neither of them has a current conception of each other. and to me that translates into the transformative works trope of them communicating in strained phone calls in the interim between s4 and s7.
but ALSO the other reading of "miss" is kind of destroying me??
/the best i could do was to pull away, not listen when you called my name / /the best i could do was to love you, even as i tried to tear you apart/ . personally i think it should be illegal to say that <3
to be honest this was one of the lines where i just went with what jaime said for it, however, i do think it's kind of literal in the way of we're not seeing faith for a longer time?? thanks for sending in that ask in <3
