#dev moves

[penvisions]

dev has some good news c:

trying not to let the latest drama on here get to me (but as someone who's had their fics stolen a few times it's rather hard) so i'm focusing on the good of today:

dev got hired at a company in CA!!

moving in a week and a half

finally got an oil change and got my car checked out for the drive

[penvisions]

so…i might be moving again. dev gets personal under the cut

there’s no job prospects where i am in ar and my dad said he can clear my old room i was in during the pandemic in ca. it’s been over two months and the only place that hired me just last week already let me go due to “over staffing”

it’s not ideal, it’s going to take a lot of planning and effort and funds i don’t have to get out there but there’s more opportunity and still no rent or big bills like it to weigh on my shoulders while starting over again for the third time in as many years

i dunno y’all, i feel so beat down and just hopeless that this is seems to be the only solution

[penvisions]

totally didn't have a mini breakdown about both how close and far my move date is last night

i am tired and sore from pacing around my room trying to take stock of everything i have and what i can fit into the back of the truck. i'll have to leave my loveseat behind and possibly my camping stuff. which sucks, but the stuff for the cats and clothing are the most important. everything else is just books and collectibles, which i do love dearly but aren't essential

all i'll have in my room when i get to ca is a bed and the stuff i left behind when i lived there last. just...it's all so mentally tiring when we haven't even booked the two hotels for the three day drive yet despite having the dates set in stone

my under the table job has closed for the summer, so there's no hope of making anything to help fund the trip between now and when i leave and that's....a lot to process. i cannot stand being so reliant on others for this particular move financially but it is what it is

[penvisions]

y’all, moving is going…well it’s going

my entire body is sore and my hip is pretty much numb (on top of a dysplasia flare) and a lot of breaks are needed. it sucks, bc i essentially had to move an entire rooms worth of furniture out of my room (at my mom’s house) to the shed in the backyard before i could move my stuff in and scrubbed the walls and floor too cause cobwebs and dust, gross

not to mention the feeling of utter failure of having to move in with a parent (again) after only branching back out after the pandemic on my own a year and a half ago 😞

idk a lot of it is internal and fickle and i know it was the right move for the moment but yeah, just a lot of feelings and i have no internet yet to check my online status of finals / unemployment / potential jobs and lose myself in writing and sharing fics

but i do see all the lovely messages! they are so appreciated and i will slowly respond around everything going on! love and cherish y’all 🖤

[inlovewithhisaffection]

Back from Argentina! It was a lot of fun, and I miss the family already. Now, time for getting ready to move in three weeks!