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I feel proud that love is something I am emboldened by now. I am moving through the world with love and I firmly believe that it protects me, in every which way. I know this now. I am loving with strength now, which is not to define the fervency of my love but the willpower behind it—I choose to love, I am an active participant in it. It flows through me and I decide what I want to do with it. I am no longer a victim to love.
The problem is that you were held up by the women who raised you. You’ve already been showered by all the love I want to give you. I can’t do anything for you, and that makes me mad. In some sick way, I wish you had been deprived of sisterly love just as I had, so that my friendship mattered more to you. I wish I could give you the things that that boy can. I wish the hole you needed filled was waiting for someone like me, because if it was, I would make myself readily available to you. I just want to be your friend, but I want in very bad ways. I beg desperately and I wasn’t born a man, so I won’t be pardoned for it. Instead you’ll shun me, as you already have. I’m sorry if this reads like a love poem- it’s because all of my desires are like burning passions. I can’t seem to want normally.
If you really loved me you’d let me read The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka to you and next up would be The Pit and the Pendulum by Edgar Allen Poe please let me read to you pleeeeasseeee
Some recent interactions with the world around me
The truth is there is entirely too much beauty in the world to reject being cracked open bare. With your jaw split open, you can taste everything.
I think I want that, don’t you?
Just watched Cruella (2021) for the first time and my brain rot is intense rn.
BIG fan of this genre of live-action movies that are recontextualizing the villains we grew up with (Joker 2019 im looking at you). PLEASE recommend more titles like these because i am hungry for them
Humanizing the villains??! Like really, truly recasting them under the light of humanity?!??!! In the cases of cruella and joker, they are both still morally condemnable, but understandably so. These adaptations of the previously cartoonishly-evil characters did such a wonderful, MASTERFUL job at developing unique, compelling, and complex backstories that genuinely make a HUMAN out of them! Where the lesson that is jumping out at the viewer the entire time is “surprise! Now you must reimagine this villainous trope through the lenses of nusnce and empathy!” And I think these two examples have been MASTERPIECES.
And fuckk what creativity and intellect the screenwriters demonstrate. To take the PERFECT EXPLANATORY ROUTE THAT IS MENTAL ILLNESS for these characters. THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY TO REPRESENT COMPLEX MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES IN MEDIA. Joker with his pseudobulbar affect (inappropriate, “nervous” laughter due to trauma) and in my opinion being extremely autistic coded, Cruella being the most bpd coded character ever (also explicitly tied back to her traumatic childhood!). Man just, i hope the people that worked on these movies received all the flowers they deserve and more because WHAT MASTERPIECES such powerful stories and characterizations. I could go on about this for days.
And do NOT get me started on the FASHION AND ARTISTRY OF CRUELLA DONT DO IT
I am proud of all the scary phone calls, appointments, and conversations I got myself through this year.
Thank you, feet, for taking us to wondrous places. Even if we’re not happy about it, thank you for believing in us anyways.
