#devoted mirror

[kyowuin]

using clothes i like, taking care of my body and face, triying to make tasks easier, triying to love myself... makes my life easier... just that, i'm still metally ill and have a bad time almost everyday, but... i'm triying, and i'm not gonna sabotage myself just for that!

[penwrythe]

Anyway, I'm gonna be very very very gay for myself for the next 72 hours.

[bladebreecada]

Oh, deepest mirror, hold me in your endless light.

Wrap me in my arms

Hold me to my chest

Bathe me in your shimmering reflections

There onto eternity

May I gaze upon my visage forever

[bladebreecada]

Valentine's is next week.

I don't have anything to give myself, yet. No candy (need to take a break from eating that). Maybe books? Or...a nice mirror. I don't know lol. Still need to make that love letter, tho (I forgot lol)

I'm just happy with me!

Well, I do have this idea for my sfw main where I draw an autospec/autosexual art of my objectsona celebrating Valentine's day. Not naming her here but you can find a link to my main through my carrd. I think that would be a good gift to myself, lol.

Oh, and for my reading pillow, Brutus, some nice fabric spray. He's spot clean only, so I can't really wash him. To keep him clean, I avoid anything like drinks, food, or other things that could make a mess near him. But just the odors around the house could still get absorbed into him, so yeah fabric spray and maybe a day to air out in the outdoors.

For Pyrrhus, a dinner and a movie. Maybe daydream a bit to venture around my paracosm. It's been a while since my last immersion.

[bladebreecada]

// discussing something a little explicit here

Autosexual and daydream pretend sex is hot lol

So, pretend sex with an imaginary lover, using a pillow to simulate one's invisible partner/self, and imagining their thrusts and moans are so so so very good.

I'm... not sure if irl sex with someone will ever appeal to me. I'm not sure of my safety in a sexual relationship, but this (yes, masturbation with extra steps) feels right for me. When I imagine an imaginary partner, like my para Pyrrhus, with me, I feel comfortable with them. Like, for a brief moment, my carnal desires feel satisfied. Deeply satisfied.

I know they will never be real, but that's okay. I feel my love is for me. Through them, I feel loved, supported, and cared for.

[bladebreecada]

Self-indulgent reflections on myself and my daydream para, Phyrrus/Pyrrhus.

~I forgot that I kept using Phyrrus instead of Pyrrhus in a few posts in my blog, lol! Anyway, either spelling is fine with me.

Text reads as follows:

Oh, to you my beloved You are me loving you loving me loving you Through you, I love myself fully Your heart, though imaginary, sings for me You are a reflection of my love of me, of you, and of me loving you loving me loving you May you sing forever for me My most beloved reflection My dearest Pyrrhus

Pyrrhus goes by he/him/they/them. They are 28 years old, trans, and an anthro Riftia Pachyptila!

[bladebreecada]

I Love Me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me not doing strikethrough lol

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

I love me

[bladebreecada]

Oops

I kissed a mirror and left a grease mark on it with my forehead.

Annnd I just cleaned it, too!

Will clean it again, but idk might use paper towels on my forehead next time.