Automisia and deitykin alterhumisia(/anti-religion?) is the constant demonization of self-pride. Whenever people are proud of their appearance, their work, or especially who they are, other people are quick to tear them down, calling them shit like egotistical, selfish, and narcissistic (which is also ableist) even if they've done nothing wrong and are just sharing their joy. Meanwhile, people who self-deprecate are praised for their humility (which is harmful to them too). This culture has made me deeply ashamed of not only my attraction to myself, but even worse, my worship of my divine aspect. These are not only parts of who I am, but ways I cope with my mind telling me I'm an evil person. To be learning to love myself through romantic, sexual, and religious love, only to hear constantly that loving yourself in these ways is evil, makes me have to start all over again repeatedly. I just wish people share in others' joy rather than being assholes whenever they see someone uplifting themself and being who they are instead of tearing themself down for validation.