Okay but that bathroom scene
“You just need a reason to be needed...You can’t imagine the reason that I’m with you is because I love you”
It’s often that I question my friends as to why they are friends with me. It’s often that I question my significant other as to why they are with me, because just like Malcom said, i can’t imagine people are with me because they love me. I felt that with every fiber of my being, but the part that got me to cry wasn’t that one, no it was what he said after.
“She loathes herself so much because of all the guilt and shame that she can’t let the good in. Her inability to fathom that there’s someone on this planet Earth that just loves her. Despite her not loving herself.”
That’s the part that hit me because in every relationship I have, no matter if it’s friendship or an actual relationship I wonder “how can this person love me? What do I contribute to their life? Why did they pick me? How can someone love me in ways that I don’t even love myself? How is that possible? How can they see the good when I can’t?” As much as I present myself with this air of confidence and thinking I am the best thing to enter some people’s lives, that’s all it is, a presentation.
This movie isn’t just an observation of the movie industry or a relationship that seems like it’s ready to blow, it’s an insight into the minds of everyone with a mental illness and how they feel and how one single mess up can trigger a fight that has been 5 years worth coming. It is the story that tells multiple stories without even trying to and yet it manages it anyway.
