Alright little guy, I’m relying on you to get me through the afternoon.
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Alright little guy, I’m relying on you to get me through the afternoon.
Save me afternoon monster and dexamfetamine.
Me to my friends and family: 'Yeah I'm doing pretty good!'
Me today:
I'm a frikkin trainwreck.
No wonder I have trouble making and keeping friendships.
Update on my experience with amfexa.
It's now 2 am and I had to get out of bed because I kept startling awake feeling very sick. I'm getting heart palpitations, my heart rate is sky high and trying to go back to sleep is pointless because my chest is horribly uncomfortable.
I actually felt good about these meds until tonight. I was cheerful, my memory improved tenfold, and I was able to... PLAN STUFF. Mind blowing. They're extremely helpful with my eating disorder too, since I had no appetite at all (food addiction, my psychologist's official diagnosis is bulimia).
I'm so uninterested in food and bingeing and it feels liberating. Nothing else could ever get me to stop, not even the nausea I had when I was on ritalin. That may not sound too shocking, except I have EMETOPHOBIA!
The good doesn't outweigh the bad though. I can't keep taking amfexa if it messes up my heart rate and leaves me feeling this restless all night. Already so tired of trying to find the right medication and dosage. I guess fuck that. Wouldn't it just be HILARIOUS if my trying medication to manage my ADHD was made impossible by my unrivalled inability to stick to things?! It's ADHD-ception, thanks I hate it. Abandoning all hope.
I got a phonecall from my apothecary. My insurance appearantly no longer covers dexamfetamine, so they're switching to Amfexa, which is the brand version of dexamfetamine. Normally, I'd get a generic version, where each pill contains 2.5 mg of dexamfetamine. I usually take 3 of those in the morning, and then two after a couple of hours, and then maybe two again, depending on whether or not I feel the need. So my doctor always writes a prescription of three pills once a day, then two twice a day.
Now, since they're switching to Amfexa, which only makes pills of 5 mg of dexamfetamine, that changes the way I need to take them. So that's why they called me, to give me the instructions.
I'm pissed. Not only do I now have to pay for my pills out of my own pocket, they're basically toying with my well being. Because, while they have you believe that it's all the same stuff, it's really not. Yes, it's all dexamfetamine, but the helping agents, you know, the stuff that turns it into a pill and all, can be a major influence on the way your body reacts to the medication.
Like with food. Say your buying bread. One brand uses the very basic recipe, the other adds a bit of sugar to make it taste nice. Now usually, you buy the brand that has no sugar in it, but the store currently doesn't sell that brand (they're sold out or something) so you buy the other brand. You make yourself a sandwich, and two hours later, you want another one. And another hour later, you start craving pie, and cookies, and chocolate. Because your body is reacting to the sugar in the bread you bought. You go to the store and you tell them what you're struggling with, and they tell you that it really doesn't matter that much. Bread is bread, so don't worry about it. Yes, the cravings are difficult, but just practice some discipline and you'll be fine.
It's the same with pills. I haven't tried Amfexa just yet, so I can't say anything about how it works for me, but I've read stories from people telling how they switched from a generic brand to Amfexa, and it had a negative effect on their mood. They became more aggressive and lashed out to their loved ones. So I'm a bit scared now. I wonder how I'll react to Amfexa myself.
On the other hand, Amfexa might turn out to be a better choice for me. Perhaps I'll find that it's worth my money and decide to keep taking this, even if my insurance goes back to covering the generics. Who knows...
I have to admit I also kinda felt something like this coming. Since dexamfetamine is a stimulant, it affects my sleep. I've been carful with it for that reason, because I've come to find that I have trouble falling asleep for 12 to 16 hours after my last dose. It wasn't always like that though, there have been nights when I slept even better on the stuff than without it. So I've been mindful about when I take my meds, but even then, I keep having trouble sleeping. So I've been considering to get off of it altogether. Give my body a rest, a chance to balance itself out, maybe eat a healthier diet and live a healthier lifestyle instead.
When you're sailing on a ship that no longer serves you, and you need to get off but you're reluctant to swim, the universe will often help out by poking holes in your ship, so your ship will sink and you've got no other choice but to start swimming. So maybe the universe is giving me that extra push I need to get off the meds. Or, maybe it's giving me a better alternative. Maybe I'll find that Amfexa is worth my money, and maybe it'll aid in my recovery, enabling me to start working for money so I can generate a bigger income, so I'll be able to afford it. Who knows?
I guess I'll just try it and see what happens. I'll be keeping you posted!
Oxycodone trip and amfetamines rehab
Sometimes that extra air is all you need, some oxy(gen) and speed.
Running for the stars while not being able to sit straight up, sweating and shaky.
Have another glass of whiskey.
I’ll sleep well tonight, no matter the speed, oxy now is all I need.
~ Maaike Kamps
~ Written: 30-02-2019
~ About: my rehab from dexamfetamine when I just had knee surgery and was put on oxycodone (an opiate)
Soo I got medication prescribed for my ADHD-PI. Does anyone here has experience with dexamfetamine? I got the lowest dose and started today and so far I've only gotten a dry mouth and I feel really fricking weird. I googled for some reviews and most people said it worked immediately (after 1-2 hours, the time it needs to be taken to the body) quite well so I wonder if more people needed more days before noticing differences concerning concentration and such
Heeft u ADHD?, dan wordt dat bijbetalen geblazen
Heeft u ADHD?, dan wordt dat bijbetalen geblazen
NEDERLAND – 30.000 patiënten met ADHD moeten vanaf deze maand ± 50 euro per maand bij betalen voor het medicijn dexamfetamine. Voor sommigen zal dit bedrag mogelijk fors hoger uit gaan pakken.
De fabrikant Eurocept heeft het medicijn officieel geregistreerd vooor de Nederlandse markt en hierdoor gaat de prijs fors omhoog. Voorheen was het middel vrij verkrijgbaar en werd het vergoed uit de…
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