#different choices

[gaydhros]

thinking about maedhros salvaging a single bloodstained golden ribbon from the mire of anfauglith where fingon fell. there’s nothing left of him, no body to bury, but there’s this. maedhros braids it into his own hair. he wears it as a reminder of fingon, of his own failures, of the cost of trust misplaced. keeps with him always this last remaining piece of fingon and clings to it even as he spirals so low, as he maddens with grief and desperation and his oath, until at the end he’s become someone fingon would hardly recognize. and at the last he casts himself into the fire with fingon’s ribbon woven through his hair, but it’s become so marred with rusty blood and grime and filth that there’s nothing left of its golden luminance, its shine, any of the things fingon had so loved about it. maedhros who destroys himself and with him the last remaining piece of who fingon had been, who they had been; maedhros who through his own actions turns both himself and the memory of fingon into something utterly unrecognizable.

[hatboyproject]

I noticed that a ME1 romance is acknowledged in your mod, but what if I have a Shepard that did not romance anyone before Joker? I hope I don‘t miss too much dialog then - the I lied to you line would be missing then right? I guess I have to play at least two new Shepards then for him - which is totally fine :)

If Shepard didn't hook up with anybody, then he of course never had any reason to lie about interrupting the nothing that never happened, so that line will not trigger. (He also has a variant for if Shepard romanced a female - I've kept it vague, to account for someone who may have used Rondeeno's Same Sex romances for FemShep/Ashley in ME1.)

Instead, if Shepard stayed single up to now, Joker just never wanted to screw things up for Shepard professionally. He never came to her with it before because he felt she had enough to deal with already, and didn't need to contend with the affections of a snarky rule-breaking subordinate. Bless his cotton socks, eh?

Hmm. Come to think ofit, I suppose it would be nice if Shepard could actively say she'd held out for him, if that was indeed the case, no? Hmm. I'll see about adding that in somewhere. If not for the initial release, then definitely for the Legendary Edition release. We should make that boy blush if at all possible.

SHEPARD: I've... actually been holding out for you. JOKER: Wh-Y-Wh-You mean this whole time we've been dancing around each other and I didn't even know!? SHEPARD: Maybe we're both better dancers than we think? JOKER: I've seen you dance. I get that we're having a moment right now, but…

[hanthecatnine9]

Well will u help me choose the first ending ??? ∆ or X ?? P/s : :(( a bit sad that i cant use the colors in my phone...Also drawing in the papers is not easy for me. I will draw both ending anyway. Thanks for ur notes 😘

[what-strange-lives-we-live]

The way you react has been repeated thousands of times, and it has become a routine for you. You are conditioned to be a certain way. And that is the challenge: to change your normal reactions, to change your routine, to take a risk and make different choices.

Don Miguel Ruiz

[tanyaluca]

Different Paths of Different Birds...

[xtrablak674]

Was the last decade really that awful?

[Taken from an AOL Instant Message conversation originally published on Livejournal on Friday, January 1st, 2010 at 5:47pm]

Trevor Brown 5:31: Everyone is talking about how horrible the last decade was, and I just don't feel that way. Even with the recession.

JP 5:31: that's good right?

Trevor Brown 5:33: I guess, but I guess it makes me feel like even more of the iconoclast that I am chilling in DR for the next 19 days, having not been gainfully employed since April of 2008, and everyone else is looking at me crossed eyed for taking my fourth trip of the year. I guess I shouldn't be so concerned about the choices other people have made for their lives and not be ashamed that I am happy with my own.

JP 5:34: exactly

Trevor Brown 5:34: Well I think you understand how it is to go against the grain, and then everyone is mad at you because you are doing OK with that. I just knew I didn't want any burdens in my life anymore, and I wanted to make money, and I did just that, why is everyone mad at me?

JP 5:36: jealousy

Trevor Brown 5:37: Like my brother "chose" to have seven kids, I didn't. His sister chose to take care of 3 of them. I choose to travel and I am doing just that. People need to be happy with the carpet in their apartment, and not covet other people's floor coverings

JP 5:39: You got it, they don't know how to do what you did, and they think you are breaking the rules by doing it, and being happy. Problem is those are their rules, not yours and the alternative is play by their rules to make them happy, but be unhappy yourself, or play by your rules makes you happy and let them figure it out for themselves...

Trevor Brown 5:39: This is why we get along.

Just because I learn from all the stupid lessons on TV and do things that make me happy, people shouldn't hate, they should appreciate.

JP 5:40: you will never make everyone happy, so best to focus on making yourself happy instead

Trevor Brown 5:42: I think we have to be responsible for our own happiness. We really can't be responsible for other peoples. But for some reason we are taught that we need to be, or else we are being selfish. I just don't agree with that methodology.

[Photo by Brown Estate]

[jankadank]

That Damned Door

I never opened that door.

I jumped out the window, Feet hit the pavement With a whispered crescendo.

Like a gunshot in a basement.

Booked it down the alley, Through freezing rain And the wind sliced cleanly.

Like a sharp knife through clotted veins.

Guided by gold streetlights, The shadows deceived And danced into the night.

Like a lover's gift not received.

Cars shot through inky black, Blinding brightened eyes from finding a path back.

Like an ember before it dies.

I should've opened that door.