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Therapyyyy🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 today might be a bit of a heavy one😅 cus I felt absolutely miserable these last few days (starting to feel better) preparing myself for my evaluation tmrw morning 😭 AHHHHH I'm happy that the ball is finally rollinggggg
(ﾟoﾟ;; write 1,000 words of rough draft with me ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁
it’s nearly midnight and guess who is panicking because she didn’t finish her rough drafts… it’s okay, I’ll take you guys along with my journey to write 2 rough drafts of 500 words within the span of 5 hours (we will try to get one sleep cycle in at least).
I’ll provide 5 updates so stay tuned, hopefully I never have to do this again lol
Last night, I did EFT tapping and started this morning slowly. Listening to my wakeupwakeupwakeup playlist instead of scrolling through TikTok like I usually do. Ahead of my interview, I did some light chores and kept my body busy, so I didn't ruminate on all the worries and what-ifs. When I felt some anxiety creeping in, I did some wall pushes and did a few rounds of Bhramari Pranayama.
The way I felt like a whole new person is actually insane. My pre-interview nerves were nowhere near as bad as they usually are. I felt a reasonable level of anxiety, and even during the interview, it felt so much easier to collect myself and gather my thoughts before giving an answer. This is actually revolutionary for me. I'm not too confident in my ability to maintain this level of ~*zen*~ but I'd really like to challenge myself to incorporate at least one method of nervous system regulation daily.
I'm truly shocked at how different I feel, with such minimal effort... like wtf. Is this how normal people feel on a regular basis? I actually have room in my mind, and I'm not scared to allow myself to think.
I don't know if anyone cares but I will be posting digi cam photos as a form of my 2010s nostalgia -and honestly, I wanna make this blog my digi diary. I make movies and cool videos sometimes too.
Throwbacking myself to my teen years. Deleted Tiktok and Instagram and it's time to make a girlblogging come back.
