I thought I'd revisit 2003. Since i barely remember last year properly, however, i headed to yahoo mail where i have old emails from as far back as 2002 between my besties and myself. It's BLOWING MY MIND. Sometimes looking back is a good way to reorient yourself towards the present and the future. My footing is uneven and I've felt it for months. Like a skirt that's juuust too short, or pants just slightly too snug, it's uncomfortable and has served to make me self conscious and uneasy, which may very well be the point. This little bit of time travel is precisely what I need to remind myself how far I've come, how much of myself I inadvertently let fall by the wayside in the pursuit of goals I'm not sure were ever mine, and petty concerns I became fixated on out of habit or fear or simple spiritual laziness. Life experience is a double edged sword, it would seem, though we rarely talk about the negative impact it can have; the horrible lessons and dumb junk you accumulate without noticing, like so many barnacles on your hull. It's giving me the means and awareness to readjust my sails and heading to point, again, towards the proper shores. Thanks for getting us this far, Good Ship Ammo. What a ride.