i feel so awkward trying to text you about this especially since its about emotions and stuff, so i'm just going to put it up here.
im gonna miss you. actually, i've been missing you since that last fight we had. i just don't pine as much as i used to anymore. i've learned to be at peace with this feeling.
i know we haven't talked in months -- like properly talked -- it's not that, though. you're just very special to me. you buried yourself into my being and it's so hard to get you out. "But I have infinite tenderness for you; I always will my whole life," right?
i haven't seen you in so long and i really don't understand why i put you in such high esteem that i think you should know when i'm leaving, and i kind of don't know what i'm saying now but i guess this is like a physical goodbye, because i can't afford to do it anymore.
god, i wanted to see you the other day. i wanted to see you one last time before i leave, to hug you and breathe in the last of your scent and just remember how happy we were when we were together. i wish i could have. i miss you so much.
we were so good together.
my luggage is full so i can't bring the jacket you left me even thought i want to (are you sure you don't want it back?), but i have the necklace you gave me so it's fine.
it's so lame, i'm pining for you like this like i always do. i'm always the last one to move on. i'm so lame. shae keeps telling me to stop because it's so destructive but you were so addictive it's awful. and i miss you.
so yeah. i don't know where i was going with this and i don't know what i'm saying. but this is my goodbye to you. i miss you, i'll still miss you. you're always here, so if you need me just message me on here or something. not like you will, but assurance is a nice feeling.
i don't know how to end this.
