#disapp

[farwiayas]

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[cushydiet-blog]

Menlo Therapeutics' stock plunges over 50% after disapp... - https://goo.gl/hyQbLo - #Disapp, #Finance, #Menlo, #Plunges, #Stock, #Therapeutics

[farwiayas]

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[coco-manus-blog]

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[littleinsecure]

Being a disappointment

Disappointment to someone can be the result of his/her selfishness. And when you feel like you disappointed someone, you just feel guilty for doing that. Is it possible to say that you're just trying to do what you like to do and not do what you don't? Is that being selfish in the sense that you're trying to make your self your own priority? Is it that bad to not being able to please your friends with your true self? It's tiring being a disappointment on pleasing them.

[lostinthought-summer2011-blog]

Day 2: Hurtful Words

I would like to start off by recognizing that today was not all bad. It started off very well. I rehearsed this morning with my high school band and I was very pleased with it. I stuck around for the next class and sat in with their trumpets. Going back to your high school band as someone who is studying music education is always nice; I always find myself in observation mode and my band director can be very resourceful and insightful. Afterwards, I came home and unintentionally took a 4 HOUR nap!!! (woops...) I only meant to sleep for about an hour...

I woke around 5 and my mom was already home. My brother was sitting there working on some math homework and then my mom started talking about how disappointed she was in him. In my opinion, it got a bit carried away. She had said things like "thanks a lot" and "you've made me so upset that I threatened someone's life today at work. I said 'Don't mess with me; I'll kill you'" Hmmmm...

This is yet another one of the frustrating things about being home. As I said yesterday, my brother is not doing well in school and I could understand the yelling... for yesterday. It's hard when you don't agree with the parenting styles of your parents. I mean... they're my parents. But seriously! I began to reflect on the way that my parents talk to him and I don't understand how they can treat him like they do. They always say that they have to be harder on him than they were on me because I was more self sufficient. However, they don't have any trust in him. I listen to the way that my step-dad talks to him and about him and the way that they will both yell at him. It pains me to watch. I think that if I were in his situation, I would've given up a long time ago. A person can only take so much. 

Aside from the constant yelling from parents and their negative words, they have also managed to take nearly everything away from him. I fear that he may develop a mindset in questioning what he has to live for. He doesn't even have a bedroom and has actually taken on more responsibilities around the house, mostly in regards to watching my sister. 

When I looked at my family today, I saw something I had never so strongly seen before. The relationships in my family are very close to, if not, dysfunctional (illogical at the least). I have a step-dad who is addicted to poker, had recently been drinking more, isn't very understanding, and has a need to be "one of the bros" whenever possible. My mom will do everything she can to make him happy, which disappoints me, and she sometimes fails to see the bigger picture. I have always seen my brother as a good kid, but have recently developed disappointments in him. His work in school, attitude with my parents, lack of effort, he's beginning to hang around the wrong kids and I don't like it. The way that my family members affect each other scares me. I see the way they interact and it doesn't seem as though they are in any way a positive impact on each other. With each person, I can see them wearing away.

*These issues have only been this extreme recently. Obviously, things weren't always this way. They are good people who don't know a better way to deal with these situations. *