"Disembodied" Online Identity
We are now in a digital space where we can do anything what we are capable of doing in the web space. In my journey towards creating an online identity separate from my offline Identity, what made it somewhat easier for me was my desire to fit in and connect with others like how I communicate with Luna and it made it difficult to maintain my identity in a way that I have to think of what I am going to say in our conversation like how I lied about my age, name and where I lived and it’s not easy to lie if you’re not use to it and the struggle to align my true self with this constructed identity left me feeling isolated, highlighting the challenges of navigating social interactions without being genuine to someone and I can feel the guilt for what I did. When it comes to symbolic markers that I used to construct my identity is my desire to fit in just to connect myself or to communicate with others and on how I engage in a conversation that makes it different from my true self. Another is that giving false information to create disguises that aligns with what I think others would expect me to be. As I reflect myself to this, it becomes clear that I have taken my online identity quite far from my offline self, creating a gap between who I am and how I choose to present myself with others online and I think, I have successfully constructed a “disembodied identity” by lying about my information just to connect with others and my desire to fit in with someone to have a conversation that really differs from what I really am in real life.
This experience has provided me with invaluable insights as a Computer-Mediated Communication (CMC) student. Embracing who I am in order to build real connections with other people is one of the most significant lessons I've learnt. My interactions with Luna were awkward and reluctant at first, but as I started to embrace and convey who I really was, I noticed a big improvement in my ability to speak honestly. With time, I feel comfortable into our conversations, which made a deeper and more genuine conversation. In this journey of mine it highlights the importance of authenticity in both online and offline identity by embracing my true self that helps not only understand my identity better but also guides me towards a genuine connection.
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