My brain is a mess. None of this makes sense. I'm sorry. I'm clingy. I'm a disaster. I'm sorry. I'm having trouble existing. I'm having trouble being away from home again. I need familiarity. I'm surrounded by my belongings i left home with I have my puppy I have birdboy But its not /home/ its not familiar, this isn't my families house this isn't my families town i can't get comfortable and its getting hard to breathe again Nothing here is familiar Nothing smells familiar Nothing feels familiar The road names mean nothing The store names mean nothing The house numbers mean nothing Nothing is familiar and i can't keep myself grounded. I can't keep my head in one place. I can't keep my thoughts together. Nothing is real right now and my head is killing me I need familiarity I need to be grounded I need to feel real
