Does anyone else just black out and end up somewhere else with semi memories of how you got there or am I just scratching my own ass

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Does anyone else just black out and end up somewhere else with semi memories of how you got there or am I just scratching my own ass
Why does everything feel so silent rn
heh i definitely dont feel like myself today its weird.
for a minute there i was thinking i want to step out of my own life and be someone totally different, but really what i want to do is stop stepping out of my own life via dissociation and actually be present in my life for real for the majority of the time which is a terrifying prospect to face, the reality of how much i am zoned out in my own day to day life...
Sometimes I look around my room and it's like I'm not even the person who decorated it, like my stuff isn't even mine. Its like that poster on the wall was put there by the hazzy memory of a movie character I loved when I was 7
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i haven't slept. i'm going through a slump right now. it's for no fucking reason too. I just moved into my new apartment, yet I havent unpacked or really even moved in 3 days. I need to get a job so I can pay for my textbooks and food, save up for a mattress and furniture. why am I doing this to myself?
I just looked at my followers and like... I have more than the 5 people I know in real life/have talked on here like once or twice???? And some of them are people I follow?? And I still get 0 notes and talk to no one, and missing out on the complete “social network” part of this site. What am I doing wrong? Have I gathered a circle of antisocial people?
i feel like i dont exist