Thank God for the internet.
The capecitabine arrived today. I'm supposed to take 3 pills twice a day with meals. I opened the package. They are not small. They are quite large.
I freaked. I can't swallow them. There is no way I'd be able to swallow them. Tears. Feelings of inadequacy. Anger. More tears. Lots of tears.
I finally calmed down enough to search online to see if I can cut them or something. Anything. No crushing. No cutting.
I can't swallow capecitabine pills. Please let there be something.
A UK hospital has a pdf. I click the link and get a blank screen. Then I see that my phone has downloaded it. "Dissolving capecitabine tablets" is the title. It has instructions on how to do just that. It warns that it will taste bitter. I can deal with bitter. Thank you. Thank you.
I will go buy a small travel plastic cup to carry around and do this. I will drink more water and take an altoid to stop the bitter taste. I can do this.
FYI- A good 40% of adults have trouble swallowing pills. Forty-fucking-percent. It's not just me. Fuck you, society, for making me feel so weird about it.