Looking in the mirror is the worst part of the day. Seeing your fat stomach, distorted legs, bumpy face, and scarred arms makes you die every fucking day. Knowing that no matter what you wear or what makeup you put on, you are still you; a monster. You walk around seeing the beautiful girls surrounded by hoards of men and you just think why that couldn't be you. I would never wish to be those girls, but I wish for their beauty. Their clear complexion and toned body. They could wear a burlap sack and still be one hundred times more beautiful than you. You never stood a chance. Girls like them are born beautiful, while you're born "unique". Why? Why did I get cursed with a damaged temple? People tell me that if I want to be like them so bad why don't I work out or wash my face. Well I do, and I still am nothing compared to them. I am the pair of shoes they throw away after one use. I am the stained shirt they bought as a joke. I am me. I am a monster and I hate it. I want to be beautiful to someone other than my mother. I want to look in the mirror and smile instead of sob. I want to dress up and look like royalty. Most of all, I want to stop wanting to be someone else, but I can't because they are so beautiful and I am so ugly.