#distractions needed

[candycanes19]

I need a Daniel Jones distraction for today. Everyone's favorite government character/gentleman. 🔥❤💚💜💖💘💗😊🤗😍🥰

[hylianfury]

Project for today: working on those dorks here. I gotta add a feather in Bird’s final design but I’m... okay-sh with them? Also I know they’re all the same height but Twilight *will* be taller and buffer than the rest of the team because yes.

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Send me your headcanons re: Bones and/or Spock finding out about Jim’s past. 

[redhead1533]

Keep me distracted so I don’t watch the clock?

8 hours and 10 minutes until I hit the road! 🇨🇦

[dmsilvisart]

Distractions

I'll take tag games, messages, memes, gifs, random stories, tell about yourselves, whatever you got for the next 24 hours....send me all you got.

Without going into details of my parents lives and my childhood, let's just say that my grandmothers have always been my happy place, my true north, my center...ya know. While my maternal grandmother is 3 hours from me and still around. We speak every few days.

Today would've been my paternal grams birthday. I was her caregiver before she moved 5 hours away to my aunt's house about 5 years ago, she was very sick with cancer by then. She passed away 3 years ago.

She raised 8 kids and didn't have an easy life by any means, financially, emotionally, mentally. She kept, I don't know how many grandchildren alive while our parents were drunk or drugged out or who knows what before they all got their shit together (or didn't) Anyway, she was a tough no bullshit woman who told you flat out if you needed to pick yourself up and move on or if you just needed to cry it out, go a little crazy THEN pick.yourself.up and move on. She gave you her advice but didn't hold against you if you ignored it. She gave the best hugs. She tended bar in the town she lived in for YEARS and was "mum" to everyone in town. blood or not, if you didn't do her any wrong, you were family and welcome in her house. She was very much a Bobby Singer type lol.

I still get a pit in my stomach and a lost feeling occasionally and I know what will fix it. Driving to her house, sitting at her kitchen table and I can't do that anymore. She's not there, her house isn't even there anymore.

I would arrive and even if I didn't talk about what was bothering me I still felt better when I left. We could sit and play cards or Trivia or any number of board games. She fed you till you were past full (and she was the worst cook lol ) but she could bake and if she knew you were coming she would have your favorite ready.

Anyway...today is hard. I'm missing her so very much.

Top that off with hubby went back to work and for the next 5 weeks I will see him a total of 4 days. His normal week home next time will be interrupted for crane certification training and supervisor training.

My 5 year old is going on his first school field trip today and if you've followed me very long y'all know I panic on field trip days...and I KNOW it's going to be fine. Always is. Doesn't stop my scumbag brain from putting worst case scenarios in my head. Took me 6 pregnancies to have the 2 little ones I'm blessed with so anytime they're in someone else hands I worry.

So...today...I mean I'm gonna try to stay busy with my own stuff but...

Distractions. I NEED THEM.

[today-only-happens-once]

I am going to say this here because I want to be accountable to someone other than just myself, even though it won’t really make sense. Hope you all understand. <3 I’m... hoping the extra accountability will keep me honest and help me take care of myself. 

I am not going to check that chapter. I make that a promise to all of you. 

With that said, I’ll be reading some Logan hurt/comfort, maybe watch some more Critical Role (even though I’ve watched a lot of it today), and would love any on-going distractions--preferably in the form of asks and fic recs rather than DMs--you wonderful people are willing to provide. Love you all a lot!

[candycanes19]

I am so in need of distractions this week. I will be in a positive mood. All will be fine at the end of the week for me! I will be better afterwards!!!

[candycanes19]

Writing and Deleting and Repeat

Who has written and erased written and erased so many freaking lines of a fic that I am starting to wonder what is going on with his fic?   I write something and it sounds amazing and then I realize it makes NO freaking sense to the story.  Delete and start again and again and again.  Good grief Charlie Brown!!!