#divescustos

[wastheheart-arc]

Hiding From Me

@divescustos asked: "i'm not supposed to give you any details." (hello & thank you!)

It has felt like nothing more than walking on eggshells since Edward's reappearance. It's not to say Esme isn't ecstatic at his return; while she loves Carlisle unconditionally, the house felt too big for the two of them alone. Edward's presence is like the missing piece of a puzzle— perhaps because it was all she knew when crimson eyes opened in this life.

She has allowed Carlisle and Edward to sort things out between them, but she is hardly blind. Edward's bloody eyes contrast starkly against his skin, merely bringing the red out more profoundly in his hair. Still, she has questions and who can blame her? Yet both of them remain tight lipped.

With Carlisle away at work, Esme fills her day with art so to sate otherwise curious questions. Her efforts border on comical when remembering Edward can hear them regardless if she asks or not.

"Carlisle's orders?" she queries, glancing at him briefly from around a canvas situated on an easel. "I'm hardly a child," she sighs as her brush finds oil paints once more, "and I'm not ignorant either. Red eyes don't leave much for the imagination, I'm sure you can agree."

[mvndrvke]

@divescustos : you made me a promise.

"And I meant it," Bella says. She leans out the window a little more, looking at Edward below her window with raised eyebrows. "I promised I wouldn't do anything risky. This isn't risky." Sitting on the windowsill, feet swinging idly in the open air, she gets why it might make him nervous considering how nonexistent her sense of balance is. "Come on up here, Romeo."

[undeadunalive]

@divescustos ∣🩸

"My sincerest apologies, young man... I didn't mean to startle you."

[pivotalmarka]

“ why can’t i come with you ? ” / EDWARD & CARLISLE -- @divescustos

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❛ i can imagine your anxiety must be high ━━━ this is all still quite new . ❜ HAD THEY BEEN APART SINCE EDWARD WOKE TO THIS NEW LIFE ? barely . be it because edward was still reeling with hunger &* deep seated regrets , or simply because carlisle was finally ━━━ FINALLY ! ━━━ not alone &* couldn't stand the distance after so many years in solitude [...] well , that was anyone's guess . but here they were , unliving &* somehow more full of emotion than anything humanity had provided . it was not as if he wanted to be away from edward ━━━ seeing him succeed was more important to the blonde than anything in his human or immortal life so far . he'd made a promise ; saved a dying child at his mothers behest . he certainly couldn't let his monumental choice fail now . so he just offers a patient , calm smile to the other ━━━ age &* wisdom somehow look so natural on a face that's no day older than twenty-three ; it's not hard to imagine he knows what he's talking about , even in youth . he's finally found a companion ; family . he won't let him suffer alone . but he also can't hold his hand forever .

even so ━━━ ❛ don't think of this as a bad thing , edward . it's certainly not supposed to be . i have every faith that you'll be fine without me here for a weekend . ❜ perhaps it was risky , leaving a two year old vampire alone ; but edward was different . stronger . wiser than most . he would make good choices . ❛ you know right from wrong . you've fed recently . you have enough books to occupy a lifetime . ❜ a fond smile curves his lips once more . ❛ three days . think of it as [...] as me trusting you . A TEST OF MORALITY . restraint . show yourself you can handle it ; handle yourself . you're more than capable . ❜

[feltferal]

Despite the rain and passage of time, he can still smell the blood. Picture the piles of bodies left at their door-a calling card and throwback to his days of hunting humans. They would pile the corpses with the beheaded and burn all of it. It should have been obvious from the start. Jasper should have noticed the familiar scent under the blind enticing red. He'd wanted to believe it was some sort of weird mundane serial killed.

Alice had warned them both times. They'd had more notice to start coming up with cover stories and packing than the visit. Jasper had broken the door when he realized what she'd said. Run with no clear thought as to what he was doing, if he was running to confront or running away again. Neither were good options. He'd barely started being able to work on getting a genuine education not from the house. Just gotten it into his head that things were actually not normal down south even for vampires. There were covens that got along without murdering each other most of the time or creating cannon fodder for useless territory wars.

Of course it couldn't last. Of course it would follow him-she would follow him. Jasper hadn't gotten to make the decision on what he was going to do. Maria had taken that away from him too and found him first, all croons about if he'd liked the gift and if he didn't she'd already informed authorities that one of the Cullens had gone 'feral.' He can't remember much after that. They were taking only the essentials. Carlisle and Esme are doing rounds, ensuring nothing that wasn't needed was left behind. The cars-the clothes. Jasper still can't breathe. As much as it doesn't matter to vampires, some instinctual part of him knows this is bad. Behind everyone else's tension and concern, his own anxiety threatens to suffocate him like he still needed air. Edward is likely getting bombarded on all ends. He doesn't need up close and personal traumatic memories from the reason they were being forced to leave. He can only smell smoke and blood and the sweet scent of burning venom. His head spins like he'd downed three humans, lightheaded on fresh blood. None of it goes any farther than the forefront of his mind no matter how hard he pushes. Like trying to shove air. Jasper wants to snarl at the younger. Snap at him like a disobedient newborn who didn't know the rules yet. "I don't know." Despite his best efforts, it comes out cracked and shaky. Unless Edward can undo the past twenty four hours-or the past hundred years-he has no ideas.

@divescustos from here

[marblecarved]

@divescustos sent a letter to esme cullen: ‘‘ everything's going to be okay. ’’

prompt: helping others.

This is what she needed to hear, it seems. Indeed, as his voice chimes from behind her, reaching her across the quiet studio, Esme lowers her arm, placing it on her leg while distractedly adjusting her hold on the paintbrush, and then straightens her posture, exhaling through her nose. There, on the canvas standing in front of her, a forest aglow at sunrise is starting to take form; She has started the painting this morning, and she has worked on it ever since, trying to distract herself with something so as to not let her mind wander too far.

Despite her best attempts, however, it managed to slip away from her grasp, wandering close ( too close ! ) to the worried thoughts she wanted to stay away from. He must have heard them. ❝ Thank you, dear, ❞ comes her gentle murmur, and it is here that she turns on her seat to face him. Seeing him ( seeing that he is well ) prompts the appearance of a smile which, small and uncertain though it is, is a smile all the same. ❝ You're right, ❞ she continues. ❝ Everything is going to be okay, ❞ this is pronounced with the tone of one trying to convince themselves of the truthfulness of it. ❝ I shouldn't worry. Yet… ❞ here, her voice trails off. Yet I do. Not wanting to linger on her worries, Esme, a moment later, asks him: ❝ are there any news ? Has Alice seen anything ? ❞ in a gentle attempt at a change of subject.

[murkyhazed-is-archiving]

LIKED : post-shower starter call / @divescustos

feat. carlisle cullen and edward cullen.

               ❝   rosalie   does   have   a   point,   edward.      what   you   did   was   very   risky,   we   are   lucky   it   was   only   bella   that   saw.   ❞      carlisle   is   not   trying   to   scold   edward,   because   he   does   believe   all   life   is   precious.      his   son   did   the   right   thing   in   saving   the   girl,   he   was   just   trying   to   remain   more   of   a   neutral   party.      rosalie   was   very   upset,   and   that   could   not   be   brushed   aside   or   taken   lightly.      it   was   important   that   edward   understand   the   weight   of   risks   versus   rewards.      ❝   i   am   however   grateful   you   chose   to   save   a   life   today,   as   i’m   sure   chief   swan   is   as   well.   ❞

[quietbeauty]

    “i get it, you know,” she says without a trace of malice, despite the ache in her heart. she doesn’t think that’ll ever go away. “leaving because you wanted to keep me safe, but you didn’t give me a choice in that at all. you took it away from me. especially --” especially when he promised her he wouldn’t leave while she was still in the hospital after james. but bella can’t bring herself to say that. “especially since you didn’t even give me the chance to change your mind.”  // @divescustos​