#dniuc

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[ayiemojis]

No spoons for this I will explain later — no spoons for this we will explain later

No emoji for this I will explain later — no emoji for this we will explain later

I need my comfort item — I need my comfort person

Do not interact unless close — do not interact unless very close

Can someone tell me what happened?

[ayiemojis]

Ask — dniuc (do not interact unless close)

Call — Rsd reaction (rejection sensitive dysphoria)

Rsd panic — empty emotions

Empathy dry — low empathy

Good job — want

[ayiemojis]

Mikey — frank

High asf selective replies - high as fuck selective replies — on cloud 0 selective replies

High asf dni - high as fuck do not interact — on cloud nine dni - on cloud 9 do not interact

High asf dniuc - high as fuck do not interact unless close — on cloud 9 dniuc - on cloud 9 do not interact unless close

High asf iwc - high as fuck interact with care/caution/consent — on cloud 9 iwc - on cloud 9 interact with care/caution/consent

[ayiemojis]

DNIUC Nightmare — DNIUC Nightmares

DNIUC Night Terror — DNIUC Night Terrors

[waterinhell]

its actually kind of horrifying whenever theres people who come up with dark vpyro headcanons that are scarily accurate to my own memories. or draw art of situations that i remember. even if i formed way beford episode 5 was even made.

of course, im not saying i want people to stop. rather, i want people to keep making things that they enjoy. it simply means i need to take a break from my source tag and probably block the majorscythe tag. (well . at least this is what my headmates are telling me to do instead of foolishly reblogging things i shouldnt . aha . im normal you see)

[waterinhell]

heavy vent 👍

emotional dissociation mixed with suicidal ideation is an interesting combo imo bc on one hand, yeah, i dont feel anything rn. on the other hand, im casually thinking about killing myself.

i can feel physical sensations. like my bed, for example, is extremely uncomfortable right now. the blankets are also helping me keep warm. pretty neat. yeah. still thinking about dying.

why, probably because i feel extremely detached from everything (dpdr) and i know i will never truly feel like im part of this world. so wouldn't it just be convenient to fall asleep and never wake up in this reality that feels more virtual than real. everything feels fake.

existence is inconvenient. therefore i want to end it. everything, all of it. myself, the body, the mind.

will i actually go through with it? no. these are just passive thoughts we deal with almost every day. if i was actually going to go through with it, i wouldve done so a long time ago.

still, uhm. im not actually sure why im talking about this. i guesss i just feel too awkward to talk to anybody about it directly,, but i still want a space to say something, you know. i guess.

might make a side blog for venting, so it stays away from here. but who knows

[waterinhell]

really wish i could time my ghosting better. i hate it so much when i ghost someone by unfriending and deleting our priv servers and then tjey immediately friend me back

likee yeah im the asshole you dont have to tell me twice. just makes me feel awkward to reject their request :/

i hate ghosting people but this man is... something else. weve only known him for a week and i already feel suffocated. i dont front often but i get pulled to front every time they trigger our anxiety its so uncomfortable. theyre so uncomfortable.

theyre intense and they hardly know what boundaries are and uhghfh. they dont even ask before trauma dumping about their life story and i never know what to do or say i hate it

theyre not a badd person per se ,, i justt want nothing to do with them