To you, being an idol isn’t the easiest job in the world. Or the most ‘joyful’ one either. It’s almost like a one-way ticket with no way to return to where you came from. You’re in it, to make a living out of it. There are ups and downs on being an idol. Yes, being an idol means you get the opportunity to see the world, meet new people, being invited to the A listers party, and to inspire people all around the globe. But, being an idol has it’s down too. People would literally comment on everything you say, do—even wherever you go. One false movement then you could end up in the gossip column or even be thrown at a scandalous news to the world. Small conversation with the opposite sex might attract new romance rumors, when really—they’re just having a friendly conversation. If you’re going on a hiatus, people might think that you’re hiding something, of you’re waiting until some scandalous news about you die down before you go back. It’s hard.
But it’s harder when you’re dating another idol.
You met him right after an award show. At that time, it was raining and you were wearing a revealing dress. It was cold, so you were hugging yourself basically.
“You cold?” A voice asked you. You turn to see none other than the man standing with a matching blue suit.
“Ah, yeah… My manager is… somewhere, I guess… She left my coat in the car, so here I am, freezing to death.” You joked, and he let out a chuckle before he could take his suit off.
“Here, wear mine first.” He said giving it to you.
“Oh, no it’s okay! I’ll be okay—”
“Just wear it, it’s fine…” He said putting it on to you. He then leans in closer to your ear.
“There are photographers above us, I just don’t want them getting pictures that they shouldn’t take.” He whispered. You turn to him, who was pressing his lips together firmly as he took a step away.
“Keep it, maybe we’ll meet again someday.” He said before walking away from you as you pull his suit tighter to cover you.
“Congrast on the win by the way!” He shouted happily and you just smiled.
And you’re glad that the both of you crosses paths for the second time. He was out with his friends, while you were dining by yourself. Wearing a black hoodie and sweats, while he was wearing a black cap, a white t-shirt and a sweatpants with a pair of sandals.
“The girl with the dress is now the girl with sweats.” He said as he approached your table, and you just giggled.
“Since, my dress was too revealing for the paparazzies, I need an outfit that covers most parts of my body too.” You winked and he chuckled.
He looked at his friends for a brief second before turning back to you.
“So listen, I’m with my friends right now, but I would really love to have a meal with you and get to know you a little bit more in the future, so… can I call you or text you later?” He asked. And you just smiled before both of you could exchange phone numbers.
You talked to him almost everyday until he finally asked you out on dinner. He didn’t want any public media knows about it, so he invited you down to his place where he cooks all of the meal.
“You cook this much?” You asked as you approached the dinning table in his house.
“Yeah, I didn’t know how much we’d both be eating, so… I made this much.” He said.
You turn your head to him and he was smiling from ear to ear. “The more the better.” He said.
He asked you to be his girlfriend on the third date, which was at his place, and the both of you were just watching Netflix until you both got into an intimate conversation.
“Umm… I don’t know, I think it’s too risky.” You whispered before his forehead could touch yours.
“I know… but it’s a risk I’m willing to take.” He said.
You could feel his hand on your back, pulling you closer into his arms.
“If you don’t want to do it, it’s fine—but I really want to take this chance, even it’s risky.” He said.
“Nobody can know about us—especially the media!” You pointed out to him, staring deep into his eyes.
“Especially that.” He said.
“We have to tell both of our manager so they can help us with our meeting plan, so no media can ever see us.” You told him, and he nodded his head.
“Of course, we’re just going to keep this out from the media, and our friends.” He said.
“Okay…”
“Okay… So you want to do this?” He asked as his eyes traveled down to your lips before he could look back into your eyes.
“Yes, yes, I want to do this with you.” You nodded your head with a smile, your arms reflexively moved, wrapping it around his neck.
“Okay…” He said in a low voice before he could press his plump lips on yours.
You’ve been dating THE Do Kyungsoo—the singer and actor—for 6 months now since that night he asked you to be his girlfriend. You kept this information really close. Your head agency and also Kyungsoo’s head agency already knew about this, and they agree to keep it as a secret as long as it can. Both yours and Kyungsoo’s manager knows about it too, and both of them have been working together to keep all sorts of public attention, medias, tabloids, fans away from you and Kyungsoo. They also helped to arrange on how you get to Kyungsoo’s place without being spotted, or the other way around it and it has been working so well—
So far.
You were currently eating lunch with you co-star near where you were shooting your drama. You could see some fans whispering as they pass by and some of them let out a squeal of excitement. Not long after that, public media starts to trickled in one by one.
“Ah, the media’s here.” Minjae said, prepping himself to get off from his seat.
You looked over yoru shoulders and you could see people hurling the front door with their camera ready in hand.
You nodded your head before getting up from your seat.
“Shall we go?” You asked, and Minjae nodded his head.
Before you could leave the place, you thanked the owner by bowing your head slightly as Minjae followed you. He pulled your hand so that he exit the building first, pushing the both of you through the paparazzi and exciting fans.
Questions were started being thrown at the both of you. Starting from the questions about yoru drama, then to yours and Minjae’s dating life.
“Can you tell us what the drama is about?”
“Can we confirm that you guys are having an off-screen romance?”
“KIM MINJAE WE LOVE YOU!”
“Is it true that you’re dating (Y/N)?”
“(Y/N), are you dating DO Kyungsoo at the moment?”
You heard the question, but you didn’t react to it, otherwise people would already get a confirmation. You and Minjae didn’t answer to any of the questions and proceed to Minjae’s car.
“Aish… can people move aside, we’re trying to get out from this place.” He said turning his car engine on.
You let out a light laugh, but really your head was too distracted by the question that was asked by the media.
“(Y/N), are you dating DO Kyungsoo at the moment?”
As Minjae drove his car slowly out from the parking space, you fished yoru phone out from your purse to send a quick text to Kyungsoo.
Hey, are you busy today?
You send the text and as you reached the set, you got a reply from Kyungsoo.
From: K
Just finished rehearsing, why?
But, as you were about to reply, your director was already calling out for you and Minjea to get on the next scene. So you placed your phone back into your purse before you get back into your job. But as the day goes by, you didn’t feel safe, everything was distracting, you lose focus, to the point Minjae asked you if you’re okay. Right after the shoot, you thanked everyone before proceeding to go straight home. You plopped yourself on the couch of your living room as you opened yoru phone.
4 Missed Calls from K
3 Unread Messegaes from K
From: K
Are you home?
For: K
Yes
As you placed your phone on your stomach, you let out a sigh before you could feel your phone vibrating on you.
“Hello?” You answered.
“Hey, I’m on my way to you right now, there’s something I need to talk to you about.” Kyungsoo said, and you could feel your body went rigid as you sat up. He must’ve known something.
“Soo, I don’t think that’s a good idea, I’m scared if the media has secretly followed me home.” You said, getting up from the couch, stepping out to your balcony.
You saw a couple of people hiding behind the bushes, seemingly ready for Kyungsoo to be caught red-handed to come by to your place.
“Where are you right now?” He asked you, his voice was stern.
“I’m at my apartment.” You answered him, your eyes still looking down on the people below.
“Let’s just meet at my house—but make sure no one is following you.” He added.
“Okay.” You said, walking back inside before locking your balcony glass.
“And (Y/N)…” Kyungsoo called.
“Yeah?” You stopped your tracks as you were putting your coat on.
“Becareful okay? I love you.” He said.
“I love you too.” You replied before you could hung up the phone and went straight down to your car.
By the time you hit the road, you knew you were being followed. But you made turns that just didn’t make any sense, you stopped by McDonalds to kill time as well.
When you got back into the road, Kyungsoo called you.
“Where are you? I’m already here, waiting for you.” He said in a worried tone.
“I’m on my way, I was driving around and stopped at McDonalds first, so that nobody is really suspecting a thing.” You told him.
“Okay, I’ll be waiting for you okay? Becareful.” He said again.
You hung up the call and continue to drive towards Kyungsoo’s house… while trying to enjoy the fries you just bought.
You parked your car and you can already see Kyungsoo waiting for you outside. He was wearing a khaki pants and black sweater.
“Hey, come in.” He said, taking your hand before closing the door and locking it.
He then greeted you before pulling you into a hug.
“How was your day?” He asked you.
“It was fine… Until I finished up lunch with Minjae, and then suddenly someone asked if we’re dating—I got distracted.” You told him, pulling away from his hug.
“You mean, you and Minjae dating?” Kyungsoo asked.
“No Soo, I mean us…” You said, your voice getting small.
You can see his expression changed, and his jaw clenched after you said it.
“I know, because I was asked the same question as well when I walked out of the studio and…” He then walked to the living room where his laptop was sitting on top of his coffee table. He took it with his hand and he showed you the screen.
THE MULTITALENTED DO KYUNGSOO IS DATING THE BEAUTIFUL NATIONAL ACTRESS, (Y/N)
You turn to Kyungsoo, who has his arms crossed on his chest. You took the laptop from him before taking a seat on his couch and proceed to read the article.
It is no mystery that DO Kyungsoo is one of the most favourite idol in the world. And (Y/N) is one of the rising star in the acting world, and is currently working on a drama with Kim Min-Jae. Fans are speculating that there will be an on-goingm on and off screen romance between the two actors. But to what we know is, the actress is having an off screen romance with the Idol, DO Kyungsoo. Both DO Kyungsoo and (Y/N) has been spotted together last month but, none of them shares any statement about their relationship.
You read the article further and it just makes you nervous and furious even more. You placed it back on the coffee table before bringing your legs up against yoru chest.
“My manager sent me the article, and I told him that I want to talk to you about it first.” He said and you reply by nodding you head.
“Did he say anything else?” You asked him, but your eyes avoiding Kyungsoo’s.
“He gave me options.” He said, his tone sounded heavy.
You turn your head to finally look at him with a raised eyebrow.
“It’s either, we verified the news, and announce that we are indeed dating, or, we have to part ways for a brief moment.” He said.
“How long?” You asked him, but he just shrugged.
“You know it’s a bad idea to come out as a couple for the both of us right?” You asked him. He pressed his lips before letting out a long heavy breath, agreeing to the hard truth.
Kyungsoo is planning on coming back with a new album with his friends, while you’re still working on your drama. You thought about the damage if you both come out to the public as a couple. Kyungsoo’s music wouldn’t be supported, so will your drama. Fans would start to attack you—especially you, because you know how fans are in this industry. You thought about other scandals that might turn up. Having a relationship with Kyungsoo then, media might stir it up that you’re also having a relationship with Minjae, because most of the time you’re going to be seen with him.
There was silence between you and Kyungsoo, both of you deep in your own thoughts. You then suddenly felt Kyungsoo’s touch on you knee and you turn to him. He gave you a small, assuring smile before you could smile back. You knew that he has made his decision.
“You want to take a pause?” You asked him.
“I think it’s best we take a pause first, right?” He asked again, and you bit your bottom lip before nodding your head.
You stared at his closed laptop, feeling your eyes started to sting.
“I don’t want it to pause, but we have to right?” You asked him, tears started to stream down your face. Kyungsoo quickly moved closer to you as you scrambled yourself to get into his embrace. You could feel his arms pulling you tighter.
“It’s not fair.” You whimpered burying your face on his chest.
“I know… but I think this is what’s best for you too baby.” He said, and you just nodded your head. You hate that what he was saying was right.
“Hey… look at me.” He said, pulling your face and he let out a chuckle as he saw your crying face. He always find it very cute.
“I thought taking Chanyeol and Sehun to a club would be hard, but this is much harder than I thought. He said, sucsessfully made you laugh a little. “We’re taking a pause, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t be there for you, that doesn’t mean that I won’t take your calls or answer your text okay? I’ll try to be there for you as much I can.” He said, only to make you tear up again.
“Maybe right now is not the right time for us to be together, but I’m certain that we’ll be together again soon enough when the time is right.” He smiled, despite how heartbroken it is to see you cry.
You both stayed like that for hours until it was time for you to get back home. As you both walked towards the door, your steps and heart felt really heavy. You turn around before you quickly could put your arms around Kyungsoo’s neck. He was surprised at first, but only to hug you tighter seconds later.
“I love you (Y/N)… so much, this is the hardest decision we both have to agree on.” He whispered, and you could tell he’s trying his best not to cry too by the sound of his voice cracking.
“I don’t want to let go…” You whimpered, but you heard him chuckle.
“Don’t be silly, you have a shoot to do tomorrow right?” He asked, pulling his face so that he could see you.
He tucked strands of hair behind your ear as he gave you a warm smile.
“I love you.” He said again.
“I love you too Soo.” Your voice sounded so small, it was almost a whisper.
He leaned in, pressing his lips against yours. You felt his grip on your side getting stronger, his lips getting warmer as his tongue explored your mouth. You got your hands all tangled up in his hair as the other one gripped his shoulder.
You’re going to miss his kisses.
You’re going to miss his touch.
You’re going to miss his attention and love.
You’re truly going to miss him.
You didn’t want his kiss to end, you didn’t want him to let go of you, you didn’t want this relationship to take a pause. You don’t want to leave. You don’t want this to happen. You wished all of this was a dream.
Once his lips parted from yours, both of you were gasping for air before you could meet his eyes.
His hands moved to the sides of your face before he could look down on the ground, and you could heard him sniffed.
He cried.
“Be careful okay?” He said, a tear stream down his face.
You nodded your head and he kissed your cheek and you lips for the last time before he could fully let go of you.
You opened the door and walked towards your car. You got into your car and tried to control your mind and you breathing because you’re going to be behind the wheel. You start your car and you saw Kyungsoo standing in front of the door. You saw him with a smile before raising his hand, waving to you. You smiled before you pulled away from the driveway and drove back to you apartment.
As you reached your apartment, you closed the door behind you before you could lean your back to it and slid down to the floor as you started crying. For the past 4 months everything was in the clear. 4 months went by beautifully. But anything beautiful could come to an end as well. You thought about where did it went wrong? Where did you both slipped? Has somebody been spying on the both of you all month long? You continue to run through you memory before turning up empty handed and drag your steps to you bedroom. You changed into you sleepwear and as you were washing your face, you just noticed how puffy your eyes are and how messy your hair was.
Slipping under the covers, you kepts sniffling, and tears just kept on streaming down your face.
“I love you Kyungsoo…” You whispered to yourself, hoping that maybe you both could be together again.
Because you felt your happiest when you’re with him.
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