So I just opened Tumblr, since idk 2-4 days I have been fearing that this might happen as so many of my favourite authors also did the same. For the last 2 days, especially last night, I had this feeling whenever I thought about her, "what if she does the same?" and some people might be like, "those were just some stories", nah you'd never understand that it was so well written I almost got attached to it emotionally. As I opened Tumblr a while ago, I still had this feeling that something might go wrong hence I almost avoided opening the app, but I was somehow attracted. Opening Tumblr, saw my last reblog which was dkp part 7.3 and was shocked to see that she deactivated, I knew the feeling was correct and it was devastating, losing your favourite author, even though I never talked to her, I felt a connection as if she was talking through her writings. Despite having a feeling it was almost unexpected.
I understand that it might be in her best interest that she gets away from the toxicity, but idk why, how did this happen, maybe i could have talked to her, might have helped her in some way so that this situation could have been avoided, i just don't feel right. It's extremely disheartening that she has to go through all of that mentally to such an extent that she had to deactivate her account, and same with many of the authors that did the same. I hope I could get to connect with her in some way, would love to be friends. I just needed to write my thoughts here, though I almost never post myself and nor do I share my thoughts, I just needed to get this out here.
