#dont read please

[prttylight]

y/n: but look at him! He is soo cutee, should we adopt him? *rise the kitten*

anakin: we still have R2D2, we can't have another pet

r2d2: *angry robotic noises*

[snsugar20]

Zachariah X

     “Hey,” a soft voice cut through the cool breeze. Zachariah looked up to be greeted by two amethyst colored eyes peeking through the golden colored locks. “Mind if I join you?” she lifted up her skirt and slowly started to lean back and sat down next to him, using the sturdy oak tree behind her as support. She pulled her legs up and wrapped her arms around her knees, resting her head on them. “Long day, huh,” Marilla asked. A grunt came out from his direction as he stared off into the horizon, as his two-toned eyes stared at the sun, which was punching out from his day job and slowly started to sink, letting the moon take the night shift. “Wanna talk about today?” she asked, hoping to start a conversation about the visions that he saw. Instead of giving a coherent answer he just shook his head from side to side, not once looking away from the setting sun. A sigh escaped the telekinetic girl as she realized one thing. There was no hope in trying to get him to open up to her. Ever since the death of Keegan, he was even more reserved than he usually was. Even though it wasn’t his fault, he still refuses to let anyone else take the blame. Once more, she tried again “Look, Zach, I get it. Your upset. But-” her words were cut short,” Do you!” he shouted.

     She fell back, shocked by his unexpected outburst. “You say you do, but I don’t really think you do Marilla,” he claimed, looking directly at her. It was almost impossible not to see the small drops of tears that were beginning to form at the corners of his eyes. “You weren’t there! You have no idea! He gave me his hand to save my pathetic self and I-I…I looked at him,” his voice cracked, “I always told him and myself, never look into my eyes, ever. He didn’t listen. And now because he decided to save a waste of space like me, he’s gone!” he slowly started to rise from where he was sitting and paced around trying to gather his thoughts before he completely lost his composure. “Zach?” she called out. The back of his hands was used to wipe the tears that were slowly starting to stream down his face as he turned his back to her. The two teammates stayed in silence, not sure as of what to say to the other. An eerie silence fell on them. The only noise that filled the heavy atmosphere was the conversation between crickets and the humming of fireflies from a few paces away. Marilla looked away, not sure whether to comfort him or to leave him be. Looking at her hands, she hoped that maybe he would be the first to say something.

     A sudden loud thud made itself known. Followed by another. Than another. She turned to Zach to see his fist making contact with the tree next to him. Tears were streaming, lips trembling, he let his anger out on the trunk next to him. She quickly scrambled to her feet and climbed her way to him. “Zach, calm your ass down!” she screamed as she reached out for him. She grabbed his arm as he was about to go for another swing at the tree, stopping him. “Jesus Christ, stop it you dumbass! Don’t put yourself in pain for something that wasn’t your fault! You’re scaring me!” she exclaimed. At her words he stood there, frozen in place. Choked sobs were erupting out of his throat and nose running he holds onto her hand and turns around. “I shouldn’t be here. Keegan should be standing here instead of me. He should have let me go. If he did, he-he would- he would still- be here,”. He swiftly turned around and wrapped his arms around her, giving her a tight squeeze. Not being one for showing affection this publicly, this took Marilla as a shock. A few moments of this new version of Zach settled in she replied, “You knew Keegan. He would willingly go out of his way to help strangers on the street. What did you think he was gonna do when his best friends life was on the line?” she slowly bound her arms around him and rested her forehead on his chest. Both stood there in another moment of silence as he let out all his tears and frustrations. “I’m cursed. The Oracle of Destiny said so. I’m gonna bring despair to everyone around me. I’m just a waste of space,”. She runs her nimble fingers through his snow-like hair, “you know for a fact that’s not true. You’re the one who got the whole team out of the blizzard. And when Landon needed help getting out of that whirlwind, you were there to save his ass. And don’t even make me mention shimmering falls,” she said. He nuzzled into her neck further, trying to hide his sobs as much as humanly possible. “And you saved me from everything. You could have pushed me away but, you accepted me when no one else would,”. His grip tightened on her once more. Almost as if he thought that if he let her go, even for a split second, she would disappear from his life, never to be seen again.

     “Can I ask you something?” he said, voice muffled against her shoulder. Her ears perked up,”Yea. Whats up?” she answered. He lifts his face off of her shoulder and looks directly at her, pools of red staring deeply into seas of purple. “H-how did you do it?” he asked vaguely. She tilts her head in confusion. “How did you get through…life? I mean you’ve been abused, hurt, betrayed, and used by the people you thought that you could trust your entire life. Yet, you wake up every morning with a smile,” he lets one arm leave her waist and uses his hand to wipe off a tear that threatened to fall off his chin, “aren’t you upset with how everything turned out for you? For us?” he asked. She started to think about his words in her brain, wracking it for an answer. “Well,” she started,” maybe because I’m such an optimist but here’s how I think of it. Life’s being a bitch to me because it wants me to be upset. So I’m going to be a bitch back by telling life to fuck off by being happy,” she answered with a beaming smile placed on her face.

     That damned smile.

     That smile that seems to make his day brighter.

     That smile that seems to make all his problems go away.

     That smile that could make anyone smile back.

     That smile that could save anyone.

     That smile that always seems to save him from himself.

     A chuckle escaped his lips,”you just love pissing people off, don’t you?” he said,” maybe that why when we went to see fate he was so pissed. Since you always kept changing what he had planned for you,”. The corners of her eyes crinkled up,”I can be mean when I want to,” she stated. He gazed at her face once more. Eyes sparkling, the corners of her lips stretched across her face, her eyes looking up back at him with the utmost adoration. He could stare at her all day and never get bored. A sight that he is allowed to look at but never allowed to call his. Slowly he drops his arms from her waist and wipes the few wet streaks left on his face. “We should get back to the others. They’re probably worried, as always,” he suggested. His stoic face finally returning to his face. “Well, fun while it lasted,” she thought. “Yea, sure! Race ya!” she said as she dashed off. “Wha-no fair!” he quickly got to his face and took off behind her.

[waffersp00ns]

Well I mean I can't do anything but be on my phone. When summer rolls around and you want me to be active it's going to be scorching hot :/ there's no safe place to take walks, you don't like it when I hang out with my cousin, my other cousins are too young Guess what? I can only talk to close friends through a messaging app. And guess what's used to message on that app? A cellphone. There's nothing fun for me to do except what I want to do. What do I want to do? Read, stream anime and stupid movies on Netflix, go out with my friends when I can and just not be too busy to do what I want to do. But I just know if I ever want to go out I need to get your permission. And that will most likely be a no. "It's too hot" "I'm too tired to drive you anywhere" "Just do what you always do" Don't make this hard.

[theselkiesea]

I just looked in the mirror in only my jeans and bra and holy shit I looked so fucking good, maybe I have lost weight? My tits feel and look great man. Wow what a nice wee thing to boost me up before work.

[mabelpuppy13]

Ughhhhhhhh

[amapwithoutacompass]

I know its not okay for me to feel this way, but the only time I can be happy right now is when he told me he hadn’t talked to her all day. I just want her gone and over with. thinking he is still talking to her makes me feel like my soul is dying. it makes me want to die. 

[warmmoonchild]

You'll never stay because of me. To be fair, you never leave because of me either. But you'll never stay because of me, you'll stay because you don't have anything else going on. It's why you won't come when I'm crying in the middle of the night saying I need you. You won't stay, even if I promise to get you up on time for whatever that day holds. You just won't ever choose me over that fear of staying too long, you rarely ever have. But I still hope. Every time, I hope. Every time, nothing changes. It tears you up inside to leave, but not enough to stay

[bloodfall]

rant

every time my mother comes to visit i feel like i am always constantly forcing myself to fucking please her because she is singlehandedly the most selfish person i know to this day - if things don’t go to her very specific desire, she flips and guilt trips me and make me feel like it’s all my fucking fault and i just don’t want that shit in my life and so i force myself to make her happy all the time and its so fucking tiring with everything i have going on that i can literally feel it draining me 

i have exams at the end of the week and she blames me for not putting the effort into spending more time with her, i’ve been telling her that i’ve been feeling sick for a week and she tells me i’m selfish and only think about myself 

i let her get me things i dont want or need so she can feel like she’s being a caring parent which she will only later on bring up to pin on me - using up all her money, not appreciating the things she does for me - fuck me 

i love my mom and i do think she loves me wholly but she is so fucking manipulative and brings so much acidity into my life that it sucks me dry and im just left feeling like the shittiest person in the world