#dont respond

[man-offical]

I think they have a question for me.

Hm.

I can't tell.

ok?

[vekaivo]

Bullying @gl4ssfan when they're watching scary stuff is my favorite activity <3

[sweatersisterboy]

tfw you think you're demiromantic bc for the longest time you didnt feel romantic attraction and then suddenly you do, but people start describing what it feels like for them and you wonder if you're actually aromantic and experiencing heavy platonic attraction

[evie-black]

do you ever just go to a friends house and see how supportive and warm their family is and you just wonder why cant this be me ?

[otsu09]

vent (mostly in tags and DONT RESPOND PLEASE)

i’m so fucking angry right now y’all have no idea

[smolyokai]

Thinkin about relationships.

Gonna write just a small sappy journal, since I dont really have any other place to write this. Please ignore. I've been with my bf for just a little over 2 years, and while I love him so dearly, he just... makes me sad sometimes. It feels like a lot of the time, we just aren't compatible. He can be so mean, and rude, even if its a joke. But when he cares and loves, god its the best feeling in the world. I trust and love him with such a special part of my heart, that I always have someone on my side when it comes to facing the world, and its hard to imagine sometimes what I'd do if he wasn't there to support me. But when it comes to the emotional side of things, like trying to show him my love language of giving things, he just... doesnt seem to appreciate them. He never really verbally states if he likes the things I make, even though I've begged him to do more than just give me feedback beyond it "looks nice". And it hurts. I even asked im what he thought about my art, and he said its just "mediocre", even though I feel so proud of myself and the work I've done, from where I've come (to be fair, he didnt use the word correctly and thought my art just could be better and that I should want to be better, which I do). I... don't feel my best, and when I try and dream of a future together, of all the adventures I want to go on with him, I just get a "nah, you go ahead. Doesn't seem like something I'd wanna do". It hurts a lot to feel so alone. I feel like I always have to change myself just to make him happy, or if theres something that bothers me, I just... have to get over it, cause he doesnt want to change. I haven't even met him yet because of the pandemic, and while I want to more than anything to feel like all this pain and struggle and grief that I go through was worth it to be with him, to see his smile when we talk and have the full experience of being a couple, he... doesn't even encourage it anymore. He has a job that wont let him off work easy, he has to get his brother to the states, so no money to see me cause it all has to go to him. Suddenly, I have to go there for a visit, rather than him come here, even though I refuse to move to the states because of the price to live of health care, and he's known this from the start. Things were so beautiful at the start. He made the things I made him feel like the best in the world, a beautiful and appreciated gift. He always asked if he was doing things right, because he didnt want to hurt me, I felt like a beautiful and intimately appealing woman. I've never had that feeling from someone before, and he makes me feel wanted, but now...? im lost. I'm worried about getting older... I've been told by lots of people to just move on, but... I don't know if I want too. He's my best friend, we play games together, we create together, we do dream together, we laugh, theres so much trust and the history we've gone through for two years. Its hard to just... wonder what would happen if that was all gone. I still love him, but Ive grown confused. Hes a good man in a lot of ways, and to just... let it go? It would be easy if he just... did something to hurt me, but no. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo...

[biggsteppy]

😐

[racheltheclumsy]

I know I barely ever come on here anymore but I just need to scream into the void.

It’s really aggrvating and upsetting to be chronically ill right now because doctors offices are usually a haven for me. They mean that I am going to get answers or help. Right now I am dealing with a lot of mysterious symptoms and I can’t get help for them and they are painful and aggravating and unusual and idk what to do. Especially because like three of my specialty docs have been recruited to help out with covid shit and they don’t have time to help me. I’m at a total loss.