"I should have with this earlier. I should have known better.
Everytime we're in the same place someone suffers. If it's not me,
it's you. And when we're fine and good, who suffers is John.
I'm going to say this once and once is all I need.
I've been in love with a voice ever since you reach me. With an image, ever
since you got into my dreams. Watching you for the first time was a bless
and the worst of pains. Because you had someone else by your side.
Someone i've grown attached to, someone I care about
Two days ago we had sex. Two days ago we kissed
and showed how much we care about each other. However, I got hurt
in the end, I was kicked out. I almost died because I couldn't face him
nor you. And he saved me.
I understand how hard must be to be you. I know you feel something for me
I know you love him. I know he cares about me, and I know how much I care
about him. I won't be trying to pursue you anymore. I won't be forcing anything
but know this. Whatever happens in the future, I will always be that guy who
who fell in love with a voice. Unknowing that voice was already being heard.
I'm that kid who dreamed of having a life with someone he didn't know.
Whose world you've changed.
For good or for wrong, my world has changed and it means nothing if you're
not in it. I'm sorry for whatever harm I might have come to your relationship
I'm sorry for whatever wound I might have inflicted to you, John.
If there was an easier solution, I would come with it. But I can't. I won't.
There's none. I will stay like a ghost, I will bury my emotions, break the ax,
fold the sword, and let you two live the life you chose.
I just hope my presence doesn't disturb things. But I can't be out of your radar
I won't be getting out of your lives. Because that way I won't have a purpose
I won't have a voice in my head, and I won't have a friend to care about
other than Astrid. I'm sorry, to both of you.
Harm wasn't my intention.
I wasn't thinking. I was just acting. I should learn better.
Thanks for saving my life, the both of you.
Thank you.
Stephen."